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[Brandy_R]

Mama I know what you mean about unpredictable afs! Today is cd 32 and last night I started spotting! My cycles are usually 35 days! It's just light pink when I wipe so it'll probably drag on until cd35 lol. I hope the every other day bd'ing works for you! We got a lot in this month too. Are you using opks or temping?

Willow what cd are you on? Hope your app goes good Friday! Is it to check your cyst?

Swimmy how are you? Hope you're ok.

Afm just sitting here waiting for af to start. We are getting a loan to pay for our IVF but with af starting earlier than planned I'm not sure what we're going to do. Hoping it will hold off for a few more days so the loan can process and we can be on our happy way lol. It's really really light so I'm taking that as a good sign of it holding off! Can't believe it started so early

 

[willowtree24]

I'm on cycle day 30 now so af is due around now having lots of pelvic pain but that could be anything. Thank you brandy yes it is and to see if I can get some medication to help me concieve. As I've been trying nearly a year and a half unprotected now with nothing. I hope your spotting is good news possible ib? If it's early ? I haven't had any blood yet just pain. I hope it's good news for you brandy. I took an opt and it came back quite dark. I am praying this month even though my chances are slim. I only bd twice. Baby dust !! I'm getting stress at work now woth some issues and that's not going to help.

 

[Brandy_R]

Thanks Willow. I thought of that but I think it's just wishful thinking and I'm sure it's just af being stupid. I'm not going to test unless af is late. It's not due until Friday so I don't know what the heck is going on. I'm only one day ahead of you because I'm on cd 31 we're like way close on CDs! How long are your cycles usually? Mine are usually 35

 

[willowtree24]

Hehe didn't know we were that close brandy ! Usually they range from 28 days to 33 I'm not testing either untill af is late. I was due today yesterday according to my app but that could be out so. Who knows. Anxiously waiting for good news fingers crossed for us both. I can't wait for my appointment on friday !

 

[Brandy_R]

I'm pretty sure af is on the way. I think tomorrow will end up being cd 1. It's gotten red now instead of just pink but still just spotting. Friday is your app to talk about clomid and stuff right? If so that is def something to be excited about! I can't wait to do my cycle soon either. Even if I can only do something small I don't care. I just need to get o'ing again or it will never happen

 

[willowtree24]

I'm pretty sure af is on the way. I think tomorrow will end up being cd 1. It's gotten red now instead of just pink but still just spotting. Friday is your app to talk about clomid and stuff right? If so that is def something to be excited about! I can't wait to do my cycle soon either. Even if I can only do something small I don't care. I just need to get o'ing again or it will never happen

Aww no brandy still Hope keep positive thinking yes it is results abiut my ultrasound and bloods and hormones also I'm very excited. We are both excited. I'm trying to stay positive. Everything happens for a reason I believe. Hope you are well xx

 

[swimmyj1]

I hope ur not out brandy I know what u mean about it being harder with it being 9 months sense ur loss. My best friend and I got pregnant at the same time and seeing her daughter is hard knowing mine would be that age now.

I just want to fast forward a week to my ultrasound I just know it's not growing. Idk how I know I just can tell. I'm sure me being on progesterone has stopped me from bleeding already. And my DH is way to positive he wants to start looking at baby stuff already ugh. All of my symptoms are gone it's just frustrating. I took another week est the other day and it only said 2-3 it should definatly be 3+.

Sorry I'm just ranting over here.

 

[swimmyj1]

update* went into the ER had a lot of cramping and it looks like it stopped growing about a week ago heartbeat gone. hcg dropped. so now just waiting for it to be over. I'm sad but at least I have answers. So looks like i will be waiting a little bit to ttc again. ugh

 

[Brandy_R]

I'm so sorry Swimmy. I know how hard it is. I was only 6 weeks or so and never heard a heartbeat and was absolutely heartbroken. If you need to talk and just have someone listen I am def here. As hard as it is I'm glad that you aren't in limbo anymore. Hopefully your cycles will straighten right up and you will get your healthy bfp. It's absolutely horrible to go through. You're def in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[swimmyj1]

thanks brandy. im just gonna pout on my couch. eat ice cream and have a good cry. my DH is taking it much harder than I am I think. I really hope its not another year before my next bfp. Tomorrow will be a better day. One day at a time.

 

[Brandy_R]

Yes it's def a one day at a time thing. I took mine VERY hard. I'm glad you're ok. I knew something was wrong with mine too with symptoms. It's hard to explain, but you can just tell. I'm sorry your hubby is down also. It's always a hard time. You might have been taking it better because you knew a while ago. I felt like that when mine was over. After all that I went through I was just glad to know and for it to eventually be over with. On a good note you know that you can get pregnant. Everyone told me that and it didn't help but now it makes me feel better. Big hugs to you

 

[swimmyj1]

its weird today i feel a lot better. I'm sure it will come and go. my doctor ordered cytotec to move things along a little faster. I think if i don't start on my own in a few days i'll take it. Thanks so much for being there to vent to, it makes me feel so much better. Idk if i want to try right away or not my doctor said i can probably do clomid again in 1-2 cycles again. just not sure if i will be ready.

My other big problem is i just want my DH to talk to me instead of saying he is here for me and that he wants to try again right away.

 

[mama10893]

oh swimmy im sorry to hear all that but glad you're coping okay! brandy it sucks af got you but good news about ivf!! good luck
afm im on CD 16, bding a few times a week, although my SO doesnt seem as into it this month...maybe hes just been busy but its kinda annoying...heres hoping he gets his head back in the game! i have no idea when i ovulate so i basically need to just BD really regularly to try and catch the egg, its a lot of work....no signs of ovulation yet, but i dont expect it for a bit! good luck to you all!

 

[Brandy_R]

I'm on cd5 today. Didn't get our loan money yet so I'm already about this month. I guess we will continue next month. I'm not even trying this cycle. I bd about every other day and never even O'd so it's a waste of time at this point until I can get something to help it along.

How's everyone else doing?

 

[swimmyj1]

that medication was horrible! I honestly thought i was dying. My DH called 911 I stood up and it was like a pool of blood everywhere. I will not be taking that again worse pain i have ever been in. Ugh I would rather have a D&C. (sorry i'm just super upset by it)

On a better note Waiting to hear back from the fertility clinic hoping to see them on the 30th so we can get a game plan down. It's been a very up and down emotional roller coaster and I would like to get off of it lol.

mama- my DH gets like that too sometimes. I think ttc is harder on him than he lets on.

Brandy - i hope your loan goes through and you are not waiting too long

 

[Brandy_R]

Dang Swimmy! Sorry to hear that! That's the pill that pushes it along right? I hope you can get into the Dr soon and start a game plan!

I am waiting for next cycle and hopefully we can start again. This pretty much marks a 3 month break already. I'm sooooo sick of taking breaks :-/

 

[swimmyj1]

We are seeing a specialist on the 30th my doctor pretty much said she can't help us anymore but hopefully a fertility doc can help us a little more. I just hate waiting, and sitting in my obs office surrounded by pregnant women was so hard today.

 

[Brandy_R]

Aww I'm sorry. I love going to a FS. With pcos they know all about it and what to do. That's awesome you get to go so soon! I can't wait to go! I hope next cycle we can get the ball rolling!

 

[mama10893]

swimmy- yea i think hes just been really tired this month too...hes working a lot of 5 am shifts and just seems beat by time he gets home, but we're still doing every second day, hes such a trooper! heres hoping for this cycle! although i dont think i O until the middle of october because of my stupid cylce...haha but we'll see what happens!

brandy-frustrating about this month! but hopefully your loan comes through and you're good to go next month!

 

[willowtree24]

Sorry haven't been on here. I'm really poorly atm going to hospital next month for my stomach problems. So no talk about babies for me until I'm better. Anyway ultrasound showed I have a blood filled cyst on left side. Just generally every day I feel awful. Do you ladies get lots of pelvic cramps amd twinges or pains every now and then ?