TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[StarGazerRose]

OOO i love puppies!!! It's seriously practice for having something to take care of!
Mine is almost 4. He's a crazy dog, and we're going through the "stubborn twenty-something" stage Where he listens, but sometimes he just does what he wants.
I love my "puppy".


Belle, I hope that your appointment gives you good information as to what you need to do next!

 

[BelleNuit]

Thanks Star

DH is definitely a dog person, we already have 2 cats who are my "babies" LOL

 

[greenarcher]

Having something else to look forward to is easily the best distraction. What kind of puppy are yall looking at getting?

 

[StarGazerRose]

I'm more of a cat person, but my dog doesn't like them (we've had many occasions that prove this) So no cat for me I'm happy with either though.

Agree with Archer, a new "distraction" might help things too

 

[BelleNuit]

A shepherd pitbull cross is what we're thinking. The application for the house we submitted was approved! So we will likely be moving in 4 weeks! Just have to sign the papers to make it official!

When we went to look at it the previous tenants were still there and were in the process of packing up to move, they had a little baby and a nursery all set up. It made my heart flutter to see a crib set up in a house that we hoped to live in. I'm hoping it's foreshadowing things to come!

CD 8 here so officially in my fertile days! Had low quality ewcm today. OPK will be positive in 2-3 days. Woohoo! Lol hoping that HSG cleaned me all out and that this will be our month to shine!

 

[sil]

Hi girls, how is everyone doing today? Anyone have any good plans for the weekend? My parents are coming for a visit from tonight through Monday which is nice. I am 6dpo today. I think I will do a test Monday 8dpo and Wednesday 10dpo. I have cramping today but I'm trying not to get my hopes up for implantation since I had cramping last cycle and all bfn and cramping the cycle before that but it was a chemical.

 

[BelleNuit]

Fingers crossed for you sil!

Its officially winter here, we got a HUGE snowfall yesterday, like half a foot of wet heavy snow and I still have my summer tires on! Bah! Cant get them changed out till next saturday, lets hope I survive this next week on our slip and slide streets! lol

 

[sil]

Belle where is it that you live again? Brrrr I am not ready for snow or winter yet. Stay safe!

 

[BelleNuit]

I live in a northern city in Canada. It's an early winter this year!

 

[StarGazerRose]

Happy Saturday girlies!
I worked a morning shift at my second job -- I love it when I get those shifts, I get the good people And I get off super early (although I had to stay 2 extra hours cause the manager had a meeting and they wouldn't let her work over time [and the only reason she'd get overtime is cause of the stupid meeting] --- anyways...)

I'm at cd10 ... I have a few more days til my fertile "week" is here... I've felt great these past few days, so I hope that everything works out this month with my Letrozol! Been having creamy cm... Nothing major though cause nothing changes til I'm in that fertile window!
Still pretty excited about this cycle, I just hope that it pans out for me!

Interesting mix a shepard-pit. Mine is a mix of husky & lab (so they say) But I believe if he's not really a "husky" he's something closely resembling one. He's a medium dog, and hyper as all-get-out!

Whelp I'm working on my weekly planner layout, and my life is boring ... Basically the only thing on my agenda are Bills and work. I started putting tv shows on the days I can watch them, but seriously, boring life! And the most exciting part is next week I have to pay all my bills before we leave for the week. Super exciting --- merely cause it means we get to go on vacation finally! (Fall vacations are so weird)

Anyways...

 

[sil]

Good luck star! I love huskies. I grew up with a beautiful husky next door with one brown eye and one blue eye.

Belle stay safe in the snow! We usually don't get snow for another 2-3 months here. I'm not ready for it at all. I hate winter and I hate summer. Spring and fall for me!

My impatience got the best of me and I took a test this pm at 6dpo. It was obviously bfn. I promise to hold out until at least 8-10dpo before my next test. Luckily just using internet cheapies. I refuse to use the frer until 11-12dpo or a faint line on cheapie. It's funny because I knew it'd be negative this early but for some reason it's still heartbreaking seeing that blank test.

 

[BelleNuit]

Ladies I just need to vent a little.

Went to visit my cousin (a good friend of mine). She has a toddler and a 4 month baby boy. Was really looking forward to this visit, was in a great mood, had awesome BD all afternoon!

There are a lot of exciting things happening in my life between going to Boston in a couple weeks, potentially moving and getting a puppy, as well as exciting things happening work-wise. I really do have a full life. I was starting to think to myself this afternoon that I could probably survive and live a happy life without children. Yet it seemed that most of the conversation tonight focused on babies and us TTC. I find what we are going through very difficult to talk about verbally and she kept asking me questions about it. I had to choke back tears multiple multiple times tonight. It was truly awful. I went in feeling happy and excited and now I just feel completely defeated.

 

[StarGazerRose]

haha Sil I know how you feel. a bfn is always hard to take... No matter how "early" it is!

My husky is a "blonde" one, white and tan. My neighbors call him a "dingo" haha

Belle I feel similar every time my MIL asks me about "when do I see the doctor next" It's making it really hard for me to do what I want to (when I find out, hold out as long as possible to tell extended people besides DH)... I'm trying to get it where I tell her I don't, I just call the nurse. I haven't seen the doctor is 6 months! I mean you never see a doctor unless it's serious. But she really wants another grandkid, so it's hard for her not to ask. My own mom doesn't even ask me about it ...
You life is pretty awesome it sounds! I've thought about that many times where I can keep living my little life without having a kid. I've even went as far as trying to make myself believe that this isn't the house we'd have a kid in, that it would be the next house (but that is still over 5 years from now, PLUS it has to be built, and we don't even know where we'd be!)

 

[greenarcher]

Belle - Awwww pit mixes are always so sweet I think the nursery presence and the left over baby smells will trigger some good hormones in you GO fertile days!! What exactly do you mean by low quality cm? I feel like there's always leftover baby gravy when I go to check, so I always feel EWCM, but I know I'm not. Doing EPO again this month. Also, HOLY CRAP a half a foot of snow?! Good grief, we hit the 90s again this week. Being dozens of latitude points lower makes such a huge difference! We rarely get snow. Once every few years maybe.

Your cousin situation is difficult. On one hand, I would hate for people to tiptoe around me and never ever bring up the fact that I still don't have kids. On the other hand, talking about still trying is emotionally taxing. I agree with you, I think I could live a fulfilling life without kids of my own. I may adopt, I find it very rewarding to help people, but it wouldn't be the same. You know how it is with new moms, especially if they're anything like us--all they think about is babies! Mom is their new role in life, it's everything they do. There aren't any other hobbies or interests to talk about anymore, baby consumes all time! Hang in there Belle! I have high hopes for you this month!

Star - cd10 sounds like it's time to start getting busy! Glad you're feeling awesome, best of luck on your SECOND cycle! I'm sure you'll enjoy your vacation, you've earned it!

Sil - I was the same way, cheapies whenever I couldn't stand the wait anymore, frers later or when I get a faint line.

Would you ladies mind describing your fertile CM for me? I feel like I just never ever get it.

I am blessed to have very laid back family. Even though both my in-laws and my parents have no natural grand babies (only step-grandbabies), they're never pushy about it, anytime they ask, which is rare, I just tell them how long we've been trying, and that we can't wait either. If I'm in the mood, I'll share my concerns. My sister-in-law is a (new) doctor, so I talked with her about it. We're still early in the process, she doesn't think we should worry yet. I tried to share that by now, it's something like 60% of people are pregnant, and only 15% more get pregnant between 6-12 months. But my whole family was there, and I didn't want to be a downer.

Happy Monday everyone! Blah.

 

[greenarcher]

Puma - hope you're doing well, love! We miss you! Wishing you best of luck with auto-immune treatment and everything

 

[greenarcher]

Shit, I just did the math, and on the day I'm throwing a halloween party, I'll be 6-8 DPO. Way too early to test, but I don't know if I want to drink! My good friends who are helping me throw it are all aware that we're trying to have kids, but it's rotten timing!

Would you risk drinking?

 

[BelleNuit]

Green after almost a year TTC I very strongly believe that TTC and the thought that you "might" be pregnant shouldn't hold you back from your life. This past year I have opted out of countless parties and a hike because I thought I "might" be pregnant and all I got from that was a boring-ass year! Have some fun! Halloween only comes once a year

I can see what you are saying with my cousin, I wouldn't want people to tiptoe around me either. It was just that it got brought up multiple times and the fact that there was a new baby there on top of it all was too much for me. Sometimes its nice to forget for awhile that you're a defect. So I'm not entirely sure what I'll do next time. Maybe just let her know that if I want to talk about it I'll bring it up.

By low-quality ewcm I mean that there is less of it and its cloudy (almost like there is some creamy mixed in)

TMI_------------------------- although you asked for it Green

usually when I go to the loo during fertile days there will be some ewcm that comes out (it is different from baby gravy, i'll get to that). On a "low quality" day there will be about an inch that comes out, on a "high quality" day there will be 3-4 inches that come out. When its low quality it'll be cloudy, its still stretchy but its almost like there is some creamy mixed in. On a high quality day its completely clear, very slippery and can stretch for miles LOL. When its baby gravy and preseed it all just sort of pours out when I go to the bathroom... and its a different consistency. The ewcm on the other hand hangs there, I have to break it off.

And lucky you Green in the 90s We've been sitting at the 20-30s (-5 to -1C) for a couple weeks now LOL. Usually the first snow isn't too big a deal because it melts right away, but this was thick and heavy and it stuck!

 

[greenarcher]

Damn, I don't even get what you consider low quality CM. 11 years of birth control threw me out of wack. I never have stretchy cm, only watery, and even that has creamy mixed in :/

But that's why I'm using preseed now! Hopefully it will substitute good enough.

 

[StarGazerRose]

We've been hitting around 80 to 90 this last week. this weeks forecast is all over the board! Starting out in the 80's dropping down to the 60's by next sunday. NC weather is drunk more times than not!

I'm still new to the whole tracking what fertile cm truly is. I noticed the "wet/water" kind was like the creamy cm, just clear (if that makes sense) It seemed thick but clear. And the EW was a bit more white and stringy. I'm eager to see what it's like this month! Waiting on some more signs that it's time to start my opk poas-ing...
That's all I can offer to ya Archer.

I've noticed a lot more people have been saying that drinking VERY little is OK if you are pregnant... I'm assuming compared to if you drink more than a bottle a day ?! ... Idk I don't drink unless it's a special occasion, and it's still rare that i do.
BUT Like Hubby says many times: there are people who do crazy stuff when they don't know they are pregnant, in the early stages.... and even Months ...."
So honestly Archer, if you wanna have some, drink a little here and there throughout the night and I think you'll be ok!

 

[BelleNuit]

Green the pre-seed should do the trick for you! Honestly I have great ewcm (probably better than most) and it's not like it's done anything for me anyway so I wouldn't worry about it if I were you!