TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[StarGazerRose]

Morning Ladies --- I was actually doing work this morning *snicker* I figured i'd turn it in for review today. (I finished it Thursday, after 2 days of not working on it ...)

My cycle has been weird so far... Saturday seems as if I was nearly done, but then later that night after going hours without a tampon, I had to change my liner twice. So I put one back in Sunday, and it started out clean but then I needed another tampon... urgh
I think that most of this is just actually finishing off the lining. I put in a tampon before bed, Just in case, and it came out nearly clean, so we'll see how today goes.
But since it couldn't make up it's mind if it's done or not, it's ruining plans for some qt with hubby.

Compared to my years past this is Light ... I've been using either no tampon or a regular (I'm used to Super Plus and Ultra -- but those were also MONTHS of no cycles, which means sense)

Belle, I'm on Letrozol (5mg).
I think last cycle was short because i came off that 3mo of bc and took a provera to make my period come. (Different pills with different hormones probably did that)
I'm kinda more happy with this one since this is natural. So I'm on day 5, which makes me happier!

My weekend wasn't too terrible, more of trying to figure out what my period was doing more than anything. I worked Saturday afternoon, so most of my day was occupied by working on people's frames. Crazy morning girl took too many orders for us to do before the customer showed up so I spent most of my time rushing to get those done so we could get back to working on what we're supposed to.
Also I finally got to work on my cross stitching while hubby was at work Sunday morning. (I"m so behind on this thing... I have over a quarter to do before December...AND get it framed >,< I'm hating myself for taking time off of it)

And after all my rambling...
Welcome 2much!

 

[BelleNuit]

Green, the apathy is wonderful. When it first set in for me it was a little jarring. Now it's the only thing that keeps me going. Hopefully you won't have to wait much longer and you'll be able to buy baby stuff for yourself soon

I'm hoping the HSG is clear. I'd rather that then have to face surgery for a polyp or be forced to do IVF due to tubal blockages. At least with unexplained there is a chance it could happen without intervention

 

[greenarcher]

I've had start and stop cycles like that, Star. They suck.

In that case Belle, I hope your HSG is clear! I hope the apathy is a good thing...

I sure do miss Puma

 

[StarGazerRose]

It's just annoying cause you think you're done, you feel done, and it comes back... Hubby knows i'm itching, but I told him i won't until i'm clean (i hate cleaning up if we dtd during ....urgh just not worth it, I'll wait a week)
So i'm hoping middle of this week we can have some fun.

Well today is kinda boring ... started a new import project *waves finger in air* Whoop-Ti-Do! Urgh I'm so tired of having to find something to pass time...
I tried making a to do list all pretty and such but I just can't get into it, it worked for 2 imports and now i'm like urgh I know the steps, I've do them all the time, they are the same e v e r y time! *sigh*

I'm ready for next week ... i'm kinda excited this round, a bit more than last, I think cause I know it works! I'm ready to get busy!!!

 

[sil]

Well ladies, I had two days of blazing positive opks and tons of right sides cramping yesterday. Opk turned negative again yesterday pm so I'm counting yesterday as o day. 1dpo! Here we go...

Star, good luck this cycle! It's awful when AF comes but then it becomes exciting again as the days progress.

Belle, hope the HSG comes back clear for you! Update us when you know more.

Green, it's funny how our brains work like that (re: apathy). Some kind of protective mechanism I guess. I hope you get that baby to take home soon and it becomes a reality for you.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Yeah ... the decided to stay away the WHOLE day, dry liner and everything ... I had to pee before dinner, and bam! ... what a PAIN! Had to throw in a tampon...and I'm cramping again, (or that might be gas *snicker* )
Looks like *sigh* another day of no fun

for Sil!!!
I hope the TWW treats you well!!!

 

[StarGazerRose]

*sigh* Another on and off day... Went the whole morning and shoulda known better. It's a good thing that I brought my girly bad with me today.
I'm hoping this is showing the end as it was clotting, and a bit more cramping today too.

Crazy period ... Just wish it was done now! I'm ready for some BDing time! Or I'll just take a quickie too, I'm not being picky right now

 

[greenarcher]

Sil - Excellent! You're our last hope for October! FX big time for you!

Star - maybe enjoy some bd in the shower?

Belle - prayers for you, love. Please let us know how it goes.

Spoke with DH this morning. He told me he had a good dream, and in it, we had a kid. I've never dreamed that we had a child, only that I was pregnant (and like... barely so, never with a belly). It was really sweet to hear

 

[sil]

We timed it really well and dtd 2 days before o, 1 day before o, AND o day so fingers crossed. 2dpo today. I'll probably try to hold off testing until 10dpo.

Star- what a crazy AF! Are they usually this on and off for you? Hoping she stays away for good soon.
Green- that's a sweet dream. It's always nice when significant others show interest in the process, even if it's in dreams.

Today I slipped taking my son to preschool and twisted my knee really bad. Hoping the pain settles down soon.

 

[BelleNuit]

Star that does sound like a crazy long period. You started before me and mine is pretty well finished. Hopefully it ends soon for you.

Green what a sweet dream. I love when DH shows an interest in that. Sometimes he'll just sit there and tell me how he's confident that we will be able to have children and it makes me feel so much better.

Sil sounds like you have everything all timed right! Hope your knee gets to feeling better soon!

HSG is tomorrow. I'm pretty nervous. Have to fill a prescription for antibiotics tonight just as a precautionary measure.

I also seem to be coming down with a cold terrible timing all around. I'm glad I'll have acupuncture tomorrow to help me relax.

 

[2much]

We're you able to drive afterwards? I'll have to drive myself back home as DH has some work meetings he can't get out of.

I definitely use the forum as an outlet, hubby can only take so much. My friends mean well, but they just don't understand. They already have their own children and can't empathize with me

I was able to drive after, even with what I'd call a really painful/fairly traumatic one. They made me lie there for a bit and slowly sit up because I was pale and sweating. I just took my time leaving. I took the whole day off work but really I could have gone in. Again, everyone is so different so I hope yours is a breeze!

Welcome, 2much! Always good to have another back to lean on. You do sound similar to Belle! How long have yall been TTC? Why did the doc put you on clomid?

Belle - I hope you'll be able to drive yourself. I can't decide what result I want for you: something that explains the fertility or a clear reading.

The forum is the best. These women are amazing people and know what we're going through. My best friend is 6-7 weeks pregnant. We went shopping at ikea yesterday, and as we're walking past nursery stuff, I tell her I'm going to get you this and this, and I'm so excited for you! Then she reminds me: "you will have to too, you know." That realization hit me hard. It hadn't crossed my mind that I'd get to look for baby stuff. It's like I no longer believe we'll get pregnant.

I don't know how I feel about this new apathy.

Hi! We've been NTNP for 3.5 years, and TTC (I took a couple cycles off) for 1.5 years. I had endometriosis concerns when I was 19-20 (although I think I was improperly diagnosed) so I wanted to make sure everything was "in working order"- as much as we could tell, anyway. It is nice to know "everything's okay" but can be frustrating to wonder what's holding up the process.

Anyway, he put me on clomid and a monitored cycle just due to trying for so long with no results. I am not sure what I will want to do if no results from Clomid...probably just back to TTC and regroup.

I hear you... seeing so many BFP kind of makes me feel numb to believing it will ever happen. I hope it does for you!

 

[sil]

Belle, good luck tomorrow. I hope everything is clear. Do you get results immediately?

2much, hi! I somehow missed your into. Welcome to the group and best of luck. I recently joined the group too and it's a wonderful supportive group of ladies.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Sorry girls I was having fun learning some coding today and didn't check the forum, plus I worked late tonight, And Hubby stole my computer to watch his stupid show (well the show wasn't stupid like 10 episodes ago but now I don't like it - plus he's watching it in Japanese and I really hate reading the screen…)

Anyways. To answer questions:
I wouldn't mind being in the shower expect it's a small bathroom, and our tub isn't the cleanest (not our fault it's an old tub and it holds stains, we've cleaned it scrubbed it and Urgh it does feel or look clean) so yeah but no…

I can't recall who asked but, this is my first natural cycle due to me ovulating last month, I think my body is just confused what to do. Haha.
I've had 7 day periods in the past so I'm ok. This is day 6 with a day of spotting before. So I'm ok right now. I hope that tomorrow she just stays away rather than showing up at the last minute.

Good Luck Belle!!! I hope the test comes back clear!

Um. Typing on the phone makes it really hard to recall people's posts… so I'll catch up more tomorrow when I'm on the computer.

 

[2much]

Belle, good luck tomorrow. I hope everything is clear. Do you get results immediately?

2much, hi! I somehow missed your into. Welcome to the group and best of luck. I recently joined the group too and it's a wonderful supportive group of ladies.

Good luck today Belle! Mine told me my results right there so I'm hoping they tell you "all clear!" right away.

Thank you, sil! I don't know if I posted an official intro, lol. But it's nice to be with some ladies in similar situations.

Today is CD 6 on Clomid and I'm feeling pretty decent. No symptoms other than the first day (a little dizzy) and today I am feeling a bit dry. Guess I will need to prep for that... lol.

 

[BelleNuit]

Thank you everyone for all of the good luck wishes! In 5 hours I'll be heading in for that HSG. Not gonna lie I'm pretty nervous! I'm nervous they'll find something, I'm nervous it'll be excruciatingly painful, and I'm nervous because I feel like this is the very start of the LTTTC journey and that terrifies me more than anything.

I expect they'll tell me my results right away. Thats what I'm hoping for anyway!

2much was today your first day of clomid or did you start a few days ago? I have such mixed feelings about clomid for unexplained. I think they'll probably suggest that I start it next cycle but I'm not so sure that its the right choice for me. I do think its a good place to start before heading into more intensive fertility treatments such as IUI and IVF. I just don't know that DH and I are ready for fertility treatment at all yet :S

 

[greenarcher]

Hey Belle, thinking of you today! I can see what you mean. But there's still that 50-50 unmedicated statistic. If I was in your shoes, I would probably wait until I had been trying 2 full years until pursuing the more expensive options of IUI or IVF, and I'm 30. You've still got lots of years ahead of you. Have you asked about getting your lining tested again? See if it's improved or changed in any way? That was your one borderline result.

2much - have you invested in preseed yet? Great stuff

Sil - 3 or 4 DPO today? When do you plan on testing?

Star - I think now that you know you're having ovulatory cycles, you should count this as your TTC month 1! I bet your odds are higher now

My best friend (that I went to IKEA with) found out her pregnancy was non-viable yesterday. This is her 2nd MC. I'm worried she's going to go through a lot of them I've heard you fall into one of 3 categories - easily conceive a viable pregnancy, easily conceive, but can't get to term, or take a while to get preg. I hope she's not in category 2.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Clomid was so long ago for me that I can't remember much of how I felt. I wasn't tracking anything then (except the basic period/no period and BD'ing) The app i was using then had options I didn't understand and I still don't get it cause it's confusing, so I stopped using it to track, it's just a reminder to update my app info on my other haha (i'm weird)
Anyways, I took the lowest dosage of Clomid, I didn't respond to it and they didn't up my dosage, they just switched me to Letrozol... I'm happy with it too. Kinda eager to see how this cycle pans out!

 

[StarGazerRose]

Star - I think now that you know you're having ovulatory cycles, you should count this as your TTC month 1! I bet your odds are higher now

I think you're right! I mean before it wasn't even technically possible! And I think that's why I'm so excited about this now, is that I have a chance! (Kinda late in the game but still!)
I'm sure i'll get off my high soon, but I don't wanna think about that just yet.

Hubby is all for getting tested, and we both think that he's fine, so he said to gather the information, but "lets try a few months before worrying about anything else -- now that we know what works"
He's a pain some days, but he's got such a good head for stuff like this! I'm glad I have him!

 

[sil]

Star- sounds like you have a wonderful husband! I am excited for you this cycle. I hope this is the one!

Green- I am 3dpo today. I like to say I'll hold out until 10dpo to test but realistically I always cave around 7/8dpo so probably next Monday or Tuesday. My parents are taking in a train to visit sat-mon, so maybe after they leave. I'm hoping their visit will be a distraction to help the tww pass faster.

Belle, I totally understand your nerves. It's always scary to have something like this done but I bet it'll be such a relief when it's over. You'll either know all is clear or you'll have an answer and a way to move forward.

2much, what cd do you usually ovulate?

 

[StarGazerRose]

I added a signature
Random, but yeah....

I wish my fertile week was during vacation, cause yeah!
But it's around week and a half before (so says the app)