TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[greenarcher]

Definitely unexpected. It looks like a lot of republicans didn't want to be vocal trump supporters, but still voted with their republican ideals. Thus the shock.

Spotting stopped, but it's done that before. 15 DPO. Today is the latest I've ever had AF, so tomorrow I'll count myself late.

Regardless, with yesterday's BFN, I'm not expecting anything. I just want to start AF so I can drink safely this weekend. Going to a football game!

 

[greenarcher]

Cd1.

I'm still really happy I have all you ladies around.

My husband's job interview was today, and he fell in love with New York while he was there. I really hope he gets an offer.

 

[BelleNuit]

Green I'm sorry to hear about CD 1 again

It would be so exciting if you moved to New York though!! I hope he gets it! We leave Boston tomorrow. It's a beautiful city but I will be happy to get back home

 

[greenarcher]

i'm going to need lots of tips on how to survive a northern winter!

 

[BelleNuit]

Hahaha well you're talking to the right person then! Luckily there is lots of super cute winter outerwear out there

I have a thick wool coat for warm winter days and a down filled coat for the cold days. I wear mittens because they're warmer than gloves, and of course you'll need a toque (winter hat). I have a pair of sorrels for cold days and lined leather boots for warmer days. I always wear lots of wool and you can get lined leggings for those warm days when you want to wear a dress/tunic. You'll get used to layering lol.

I always keep antifreeze handy in my trunk case my car door freezes shut (so annoying)

 

[greenarcher]

I cannot even fathom this. Doors freezing shut. The number of times I've seen snow fall from the sky is in the single digits.

 

[BelleNuit]

Ya it's a real pain when that happens. Actually a good idea to keep an emergency kit in your trunk when you travel just in case.

It'll be a grand adventure!

 

[puma1986]

Belle: I would gladly move to Canada! It's much better there, 'eh? Honestly, I love Canada. The few times I've been there. It's so cold though! Also Boston. GRRR. I moved to Boston temporarily two years ago to attend Launch Academy (Programming Boot Camp) and it was HELL. I didn't have a car, and stayed at this place called "Krash Pad" which was basically in the ghetto. I had to take the bus everywhere. I remember one night I was walking back from the bus and I stepped into a 6-8 inch pothole that was full of ice and water. I froze! I've never seen Boston during the summer, but I'm sure I will this upcoming summer since I don't live too far from there. (Couple hours)

Green: I really hope your DH gets the job in NY!!! We only live about 2.5 hours from there in Pennsylvania I have moved all over the past few years, but I used to live in Seattle. Big city living is great and convenient! It just drains the every living life from you! Also, I'm sorry to hear that you've rolled onto a new cycle! But I am here for you, love. I believe this thread started around March time frame. If we keep going at this rate then we ladies are going to have an anniversary to celebrate, LOL!

I had my fertility sonohystogram! Lining is good! And had a good follicle! I think I ovulated yesterday or possibly today. Not sure, because I'm not temping. I get my progesterone and what not checked next week! On my 30th birthday, lol I could cry and laugh. I hate getting old. I'm currently on prednisone for the swelling in my body and I read that prednisone and low dose baby asprin will help me not have any more chemical pregnancies! So it's a win/win. I really want to get pregnant this month ladies ( and stay pregnant). It'd be the best 30th birthday present I could have ever asked for!

 

[BelleNuit]

Puma! That is all sounding so positive! I hope this will be your month too, what a wonderful 30th birthday present that would be!

Boston was much warmer than back home and had such beautiful fall leaves! But the traffic was NUTS and there is no grid system, just criss crossing named streets. I enjoyed my time there but I'm glad to be back home again

Having a bunch of ewcm today so I'm sure O will happen shortly!

 

[BelleNuit]

I'm pretty confident today is O day. Had a positive OPK yesterday, cramping on one side today (I have NEVER had ovulation cramping before and actually doubted that it existed LOL) and even had a fair amount of spotting (don't usually get ovulation spotting either). Thinking it must be the herbs switching things up. I hope the spotting means that I managed to develop a nice thick lining this month.

We were only able to BD yesterday and today, but days and days of marathon BDing have done nothing for us in the past, so hopefully it won't matter much. I'm feeling kind of excited and giddy today. I haven't felt this positive in awhile. I hope I'm not in for a big let down in a couple weeks. Thats the worst part of TTC; the swing between hope and despair.

Yesterday was a tough day. Not only did our flight get delayed 11 hours in the montreal airport (so we had to spend the night at the airport) but it was also my dads birthday yesterday. So pretty much immediately after getting home from travelling we drove 2 hours to his house for his bday party. Get there and my aunt (who is a new grandma, my cousin had her baby just 3 weeks ago) cannot stop harrassing me about when we are going to start trying. She said three times IN A ROW not to wait too long. It was like I was being stabbed. My dad and my step mom stood up for us and kept saying things like it'll happen in its own time. My aunt doesn't know we've been trying for a year already. At one point I left and went to the bathroom to cry. No one noticed my eyes were red from crying because I was already so drained and tired looking for travelling.

But today is a new day and things feel good so far. Just taking a break from cleaning and finishing up packing. Tomorrow is moving day! AHH!!

 

[greenarcher]

I'm really really glad your parents stood up for you. Your day sounded exhausting. I'm so glad your positivity is back. I hope it stays!

Congrats on the move (finally) and have fun unpacking!

Puma, don't say that! 30 is not old (says the girl who turned 30 two months ago). Your sonogram sounds positive, I'm hoping this is your month! I'm going to be keeping an eye on you and Belle this month! Are you doing baby aspirin with the prednisone?

 

[mnelson815]

Just thought I would pop in quick.

Belle - So excited you are staying positive! I think that is a really hard thing to do and I am inspired to try to do so myself! I get that same comment all the time at work "you dont want to wait too long!" Ugh, shut it people.

Puma - So happy you're stopping in from time to time. I hope prednisone does the trick for you with TTC!

As for me - I have my SHG and 3D ultrasound this afternoon to see what is all going on in this lovely deformed uterus of mine. I am really hoping they tell me something while Im there like they do with an HSG. Either way, our appointment with the RE is two weeks from tomorrow, so I guess I will know everything by then. Fingers crossed for me that we can chop up this uterus ladies! (God, that was graphic haha)

 

[greenarcher]

Mnelson, how did your ultrasound go? What is the next step?

Belle, how's the move going? Getting settled with the new puppy?

Puma, how many DPO are you, dear? Doing alright?

AFM - done tracking, done trying. I'm not marking when we have sex, I'm not doing temps, opks, CM, nothing. Husband doesn't want to go to the doctor until he has a job, well, he didn't get the job in New York. So it's going to be a while.

I've been so stressed at work that, according to my OH, my christmas present from him is going to be making me quit my job. So, we may both be unemployed here soon.

Good news is the sex is sooooooo much better now.

 

[BelleNuit]

Oh Green, I'm sorry that the job didn't work out! Taking a break from actively TTC might be just the thing. So many people claim they got pregnant after they stopped trying so hard. Sorry also about all that work stress.... stress really is a fertility killer. Are you taking care of yourself and taking time to unwind? I really struggle with that part of things as well but have found acupuncture to be really helpful for that.

As for me, I'm definitely in the TWW, but I couldn't tell you how many dpo or even what cycle day I'm on. I just don't care. I have a wicked awful cold (so far just the sore throat has settled in but its awful, I can barely swallow and it hurts all the way up into my ears). I left work early yesterday and slept all afternoon, I was so exhausted. I'm planning to do the same today. Clearly my body is needing some rest.

Unfortunately DH and I are still in serious unpacking mode, although we are starting to make some headway. We decided it would be best not to pick up the cats or the puppy until the place is a little more settled in to so that we don't stress them out further. So far we are aiming for this weekend. Unfortunately my sickness has put a damper on unpacking. I was so pathetic yesterday. I would unpack half a box and then have to nap for 20 minutes. It was a truly herculean effort to unpack 4.5 boxes total :/ I think we'll just have to accept the fact that we won't be totally unpacked by the time the puppy and cats get here. We just need some time to unpack some of their things and tidy things up before they get here. our move was on a Monday and we both went straight back to work on Tuesday so its definitely slowed things down for us. This nasty cold isn't helping either

 

[mnelson815]

Green, I totally agree with Belle. I think that sometimes it would be nice just to go on living life and forget all about the ttc process. I think it must be really freeing for you, especially giving you one less thing to stress about since you are going through such a stressful time at the moment. Sorry to hear DH didn't get the job, but hopefully he gets one closer to home so that you don't have that added stress again of moving and then you having to look for work or anything. Hoping this next while gives you just what you need with relaxing from the whole situation and just enjoying your time BDing instead of having a certain "end goal" in mind.

Belle, I can only imagine moving with a cold. Ugh, sounds terrible! They say moving is one of the top three most stressful events in life, so I can only imagine the hard time with doing it and feeling so crappy as well. I think it was a nice thought to try to get it all done before the pets move in, since moving is hard on them to, but you are totally right. Its a process, and it just might take a while since you guys had to go back to work and all of that right away. At least you are doing what you can!

As for me - the sonohysterogram went okay. Was a little more painful than my HSG, but I also forgot to take any pain killers beforehand so that was probably why. When they did the 3D ultrasound it was finally definitive that I do in fact have a sepatate and not a bicornuate uterus, so that was the highlight of my exam! I was so happy to hear that, because that is a pretty easy fix. However, when he was doing the saline injections, they did notice a few small polyps on one side of my uterus. He told me not to worry as they are pretty common, however, I am the queen of google and scared the shit out of myself by reading that "rarely they can be cancerous". So now I am fixated on that. But they do cause abnormal bleeding or spotting, so now I finally have a cause for my spotting! Which is really nice. I am happy I did this test though, because the HSG noted no signs of any polyps or fibroids, and then they were picked up on this one. So at least I know for a fact what is wrong, and when I meet with him in two weeks to discuss our next steps, hopefully I can get a hysterscopy and get the septum and polyps removed and have a real shot at this

 

[BelleNuit]

Woke up this AM barely able to talk. I think my sore throat has developed into laryngitis. Sitting at the docs office now, ugh

Mnelson I'm glad your HSG went well and you now have a solid reason for what's going on! Likely after surgery you will have no difficulty ttc!

 

[BelleNuit]

I seem to be feeling a little better today for which I am thankful. We will have another big unpacking night tonight and then tomorrow we are going to go pick up our cats and our puppy and take them home to our new home for the first time! Maybe the puppy will keep me distracted from the misery of infertility. I feel like I have surely done my time by now. It must be my turn soon.

 

[mnelson815]

That is great you're feeling better, and hopefully it isn't strep then!

It was actually an SHG I had the other day. I had my HSG done back in August which told me everything was all clear and looking great, so getting the news from the SHG was a little disheartening. I was seriously only doing it so I could get the 3D ultrasound in there to see the shape, I never thought they would find anything else. So I am still pretty stressed about the polyps at the moment. It seems like its taking forever to meet with the RE again. I am losing my mind over here. Pretty sure my resting heart rate has been around 85-90. Thats probably not great haha.

 

[BelleNuit]

I'm so sorry mnelson, I would be very anxious if they had found polyps too and the thought of needing surgery wouldn't make me feel much better. Rest assured though that most polyps in the body are completely benign!

While I'm feeling batter physically (after sleeping for 2 days) I still have no voice so I'm very confident I have laryngitis. Ugh. Back at work today but I've cancelled my meetings and will just have a report writing day today.

 

[mnelson815]

Yes, I am really trying to keep positive until I meet with my RE again.

On the other side, I took femara again this cycle on advice from my acupuncturist who says it can take a few months for your body to get used to the alterations that clomid/femara cause, and now I totally think that is true! I got a positive opk today at CD14 and that is a good solid 5 days sooner than last month. So I think this might be some positives for you come January when you decide if you want to start trying with assisted conception methods. I feel much better about it this month.

Good luck with all the unpacking! Have the cats met the new puppy at all yet? Will they need some time getting used to one another?