TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[BelleNuit]

Hey so glad to hear that femara seems to be working better this month for you! Yay for that positive OPK!! It definitely feels good to know that I have a plan in place for down the line with femara I will be watching you closely again this month!

The cats and the puppy have been living together at my MIL's house for the past 2 weeks so they are well acquainted with each other Felix has already laid down the law for the puppy and they are now best of friends, my cat Turtle seems tolerant of the whole situation LOL. Tonight is the first night that we were able to bring them all home! Everyone is settling in and getting used to the new house

 

[BelleNuit]

Got a little spotting tonight, I'm 5 dpo. I literally have NEVER spotted during this point in my cycle. It was just a little bit of red on the TP.

Wouldn't it be funny if the cycle where I'm as sick as can be, have laryngitis and the starts of an ear infection and somehow wind up pregnant? After 15 cycles of trying?? That would be just my luck lol. Heres to hoping it's implantation bleeding and not an early AF

 

[greenarcher]

Eeee! That would be amazing! fingers crossed

 

[mnelson815]

Belle I actually have heard that being sick can be a huge positive for actually conceiving. If you are having an issue with an immune system related problem (for example, endometriosis and its inflammation) that when your immune system is then busy fighting off another infection like being sick it can give those other conditions a bit of a break from the over reaction the immune system usually gives them.
I think it would make perfect sense if this was your cycle! I am definitely hopeful for you and will be stalking your chart this week!!

 

[BelleNuit]

Thanks mnelson and Green, you guys have me feeling hopeful! Well the earliest I start spotting before AF is 10 dpo and that's in a couple days, so I should know more in 2-4 days whether to expect AF

 

[greenarcher]

Do you think you'll test at 11 DPO if you haven't started spotting by then?

 

[greenarcher]

Hey guys, I'm pretty sure I'm going to quit my job. Husband is still unemployed, but I can't deal with the stress anymore. I'd appreciate any insight or advice yall might have.

 

[BelleNuit]

No I won't test early, maybe at 13 dpo (Saturday) if there is no spotting.

Not sure on your financial situation Green but I know I couldn't leave my job without something else to go to if my DH wasn't working. Maybe it's time to start job hunting though? Or if you have some savings built up then maybe the break would do you good. Although I'd be inclined to want to save up for fertility treatments, but that's just because I'm further down the line than you.

Trust your gut instinct on this one

 

[mnelson815]

Green - I feel pretty much the same way as Belle. It's hard for me to comment since I don't know your financial situation, but I would also have a very hard time leaving work without having something else lined up. Although, I suffer with anxiety so that is probably a contributing factor for how I feel with that.
However, I can completely understand how stressful it might be and how much it causes you to dislike your job and can affect your personal life. Again, like Belle said, that would cause me to start job searching myself and lining something else up. Maybe even something with fewer hours until you feel more calm but I dont know if I could quit my job with my DH not working as well. I would worry that it would start a whole new kind of stress to occur.
Although, if you feel comfortable financially with the decision, I think it might be nice to have a break? Just concentrate on happiness and your marriage for a bit, and then both hit the pavement running in January? I dont know, I think you will be able to make the best call for your family.

 

[BelleNuit]

Well 10 dpo here, today would be the earliest that I would see any spotting based on previous cycles. I feel like I let myself get a little too hopeful this cycle and like I might be in for a disappointment.

TMI-------

I'm quite constipated right now which is the complete opposite of how I usually am
in the TWW. My acupuncturist said that is actually a good sign, and when I looked into it I found out that pregnancy slows your digestion down to try to get every last nutrient. So apparently constipation is a pretty common early pregnancy sign and now I'm excited about that lol. So ridiculous. I think its the little spot of blood at 5 dpo that has me the most excited though. I keep thinking it could be implantation even though I know 5 dpo is too early for implantation. I keep thinking "well maybe I'm the exception!" The other thing that has me a bit hopeful is that I'm not having any of my usual PMS symptoms... .I'm not even moody LOL

Guys I really hope I'm not in for a big disappointment in the next few days. I'm going to need to vent to you if I am


Green what did you end up deciding to do? Either way I'm rooting for you and hope you know that I want the best for you!

Puma are you around girl? How are things going?

Mnelson, how is your TWW going? Any signs?

 

[mnelson815]

Oh Belle, this is so exciting!! I do feel ridiculously hopeful for you for this cycle. I really think the whole being sick thing totally worked in your favor this month! I know how you feel about getting too optimistic and then getting really hurt if it weren't to be this month, but enjoy these few days and the optimism that comes with it.
And honestly, even if spotting does happen, I wouldn't totally count you out just yet. See if it continues or stops. Because most girls I am told that spot with their cycles, still get that spotting when pregnant but it stops instead of getting heavier and turning into AF. So wait and see if it were to happen! I am having everything crossed for you!
PS - I have read the same things about constipation. I also read its due to your hormones which cause a reaction in your digestive track, causing everything to slow right down. What are your normal pms signs?

As for me - my TWW is the slowest thing I have ever experienced. I dont know why its so crazy this time. I was super hopeful for some reason this cycle, but like you I dont want to get my hopes up because I do know that I have some serious impediments on getting pregnant and without a surgery or anything to correct them my chances are so low. But the femara worked really well this time, it bumped my O up to the earliest its ever been, my bd coverage of FF is marked as high, I had pink spotting on the day FF thinks I O's ( i think it was the next day) which I never get, it is always light brown, so kind of hoping everything aligned really nicely. I actually bought some FRER's yesterday in hopes that I could actually use them. But I guess time will tell.

 

[Illa]

Belle, I really hope this your month. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you. Sending you truckloads of baby dust.

 

[mnelson815]

Illa - I saw in another thread that you got your BFP!! Congrats!!!!!!!

 

[BelleNuit]

Thanks mnelson! You are totally right, the optimism itself is enjoyable. So I will try to savour these moments.... that's what keeps you going when ltttc. It would pretty much be the funniest thing ever if being sick helped me get pregnant haha, and thanks for those encouraging words about spotting. Its so hard not to feel like I'm totally out whenever I see spotting. It always starts super light and always turns into AF eventually. Heres to hoping that won't happen this cycle! I usually get really bad PMS (Like BAD). I get crazy moody and irritable, sore bbs, bad bloating, bad acne breakouts. But I'm not getting any of that this cycle

Sorry to hear your TWW is going so slowly... sometimes its truly excruciatingly slow lol. Thats really good to know that the femara worked so well with you this time, if anything now you know that you respond well to it! I'm actually quite excited for your next appointment, even though I can totally understand how you might feel nervous about it! I just want everything to go right for you so that you have the best possible chance to be able to get pregnant! Your pink spotting at O day sounds promising too!! I've read thats a good sign of a strong O!

Congrats Illa!

 

[Illa]

Thank you both!!!

 

[greenarcher]

Ahh! Congrats Illa!! How exciting! How long had yall been trying?

Belle, I'm really excited for your cycle! It's going to be a long week! I agree with mnelson, don't stress about spotting. It might be hard, but I've got high hopes for this cycle!

Mnelson, fabulous coverage! I hope this is your month too! We all need a good Christmas present

Afm, still waiting to O in 5-7 days. Damn my long follicular phase.

 

[BelleNuit]

Thanks everyone for the encouragement! These last few days would be so hard without you!

Lots of creamy cm but no spotting today so far *exhale. Here's to hoping tomorrow will be the same

 

[mnelson815]

Isn't it the most stressful thing being on underwear watch?!
Every time I go to the washroom, I am like "come on no spotting, come on no spotting", haha. Oh the lives of the TTCers.

 

[BelleNuit]

Mnelson it's pretty much the worst thing ever haha. Tomorrow and Friday will be the real test though. Not sure my nerves can take it!

I think if no spotting by Friday I will test Saturday morning. I am actually SO nervous about this cycle. I don't know what I'll do if AF shows. Lose it completely most likely. Ugh the last few days are the worst! I actually enjoy the first week of the TWW because there is nothing you can do about it and no point in symptom spotting!

 

[mnelson815]

I know what you mean about losing it completely. But just think, if it somehow happens to not be this one, you still have the entire world of assisted conception you haven't even entered into yet! So lots ahead of you that could totally lead to that BFP!

I on the other hand, choose to remain overly optimistic for you. I mean this cycle is so different for you, I think it could be just what you needed!

I however am losing it over here in the first week of the tww. Pretty much this entire time is stressful for me haha. I am really trying to not let it be, but clearly I have zero patients. I need the weekend to get here so I can get my mind off of all of this stuff!