TTC #1- Looking for buddies!

[Dream143r]

TB - I had an anterior placenta with Luke. It was just matter of fact for the most part. Nothing special became of it. I think that's a good call to wait on getting your dose of the vaccine until after your baby girl comes.

Sunny - Oh that's exciting! I get the uncertainty though. There's so much of that floating around in 2021. It just can't be avoided. I too worry about secondary infertility (especially after my MMC last year, will that be a new trend for me? Urgh!) but I've prayed about it and decided that I won't pray and worry at the same time. That's just what's working for me to keep my sanity about it all.

Hey Steph! COVID in Ontario, sigh. We're under another province wide lockdown - but it's all very silly. All the big box stores are still open, Starbucks is open, I just wish they would do a true lock down. Shut down EVERYTHING, leave gas stations, grocery stores and hospitals open, that's it! Numbers continue to rise. Daycares are open still too. I mean it's helpful for us cause DH and I are both working, so we need childcare but it's not helping the greater cause. 1 good thing is masks are mandatory pretty much EVERYWHERE. Well wishes for your upcoming appointment (hopefully you can get it rescheduled shortly after your quarantine period) and getting things lined up for your FET! Can't wait.

AFM - Looks like April is going to be go time for TTC #2.

 

[AmberR]

Wow just finally catching up here!

Hi Steph!! So good to hear from you. Sorry to hear your husband caught covid. Hope his symptoms are mild and he recovers quickly!
Excited for you for your FET!

Tb- I didn't have any issues with jealously, but I did find it really challenging that Leon was so rough around Emmett. I remember one day I put up the octagon playpen and sat in it with Emmett just to keep them separated because I was running low on patience. Coming up with special activities to keep Leon occupied while I was nursing Emmett was super helpful.

Sunny- yes, I've been very lucky to be able to get both doses of the vaccine! What a relief that was!
Please share your secret on how to get a 2 year old to wear a mask. No luck here yet, but I guess I haven't really tried too hard since we just don't go anywhere.

Dream- yay for TTC in April, so exciting!

I've been struggling with some anxiety... I think mostly normal considering the circumstances with the pandemic and being very isolated, feeling lonely, etc. I finally decided to reach out to a counselor, started working out again (at home) and things have improved some. Still struggling with essentially no social life but hanging in there!

 

[tbfromlv]

Thanks for chiming in about the anterior placenta. I have definitely noticed the difference in the amount of movement. I still feel her a lot but not the same way I felt K! But that’s ok

We just celebrated her second birthday! So crazy that I have a TWO YEAR OLD!! What?!

Amber- sounds like those two will be wrestling partners in the future! That probably was frustrating!! Kaydence is really sweet with the newborn at the babysitters so hopefully I won’t have to worry too much about that (who knows!)
I’m really sorry you are having anxiety. I’m definitely missing normal life. In some ways it is all normal (we have been face to face at school all year) but weekends or anything else including grocery shopping is just is weird. I miss my friends!

Another weird thing is I’m having some Weird body image issues this go around. I am terrified of being bigger than last pregnancy and am constantly comparing my bump to the first time and at work I’ve even tried hiding it! Last time I flaunted it the whole time! The weird thing is My logical brain knows that’s dumb lol and not healthy and also I’m definitely the same size (if not a little smaller) than last time so it’s already an illogical fear.. but I’ve been struggling to get out of my brain about it. It was just kind of a surprising thing. It may also have to do with the fact that I haven’t been working out 5 days a week this time like I did the first time. Anyway...

I can’t wait for you girls to all start TTC- I need to see tests!

 

[AmberR]

Tb- isn't it crazy to have a 2 year old! I often look at Leon and just about cry thinking about how BIG he is!! He will always be my baby, but he certainly doesn't look like it anymore!

Sorry you are dealing with body image stuff. I really fixated on it the second time around. It's hard. I think what worked most for me was making a promise to myself to stay active, even if just walking some on days I wasn't feeling so good, and telling myself that I'm doing the best I can. Being pregnant with a 2 year old is exhausting! We all deserve to give ourselves lots of grace!

 

[tbfromlv]

I know! They are growing up so fast! Kaydence surprises me every day with what she knows and can do.

So I passed glucose test but like last time I may be slightly anemic. Ordered some of the same iron supplements I took last pregnancy and I’ll take them at a separate time than my prenatal.

what’s funny is I weigh just under a pound more this time than I did last time and my belly is measuring exactly the same.. so I’m giving myself more grace in the body image category. Idk what my problem has been lol also started seeing my chiropractor again.. except this time was out of necessity and not preventative. Out of no where I started getting horrible pelvic pains. Chiropractor says everything is ridiculously loose and I am likely over producing relaxin at this point. So that’s fun. I wear an SI belt during the day now.

Other than that- all is well haha! Hope everyone else is doing well

 

[Dream143r]

I have just over a week left in this cycle. Then we're pulling the goalie (aka I'm coming off the pill). I'm calling this upcoming cycle my cleansing cycle. Really not 'trying' to conceive but instead just ridding my body of the extra hormones and having a natural cycle before we really get going in April. DH told me over the weekend he's ready to start now! I'm happy to hear how excited he is.

I had a moment with Luke last week too. Dad usually does bedtime but he was out late so I did it. I was overcome with emotions putting him down, he's SO BIG in my arms. Soon he's gonna be talking to me about girlfriends and moving out. lol

 

[SunnyBe]

Amber, how are you doing these days? Are you slowly feeling more like yourself now that there's light at the end of the (COVID) tunnel? My social life consists mostly of my 2-year old and my husband lol. Before the pandemic, I signed up for Peanut. It's like tinder for moms lol. It's the perfect way to meet other moms for introverts like myself hahha.

Anyone else tried Peanut?

Tb, I'm sure you look amazing, but yeah body issues are weird sometimes. Especially when you don't expect it. Does Kaydence realize there's a baby in mommy's belly yet?

Dream, yayy for almost getting started!! Hope your cycle regulates quickly and you'll soon be posting pics of those dye steaallinggg OPKs that you used to get! And after that, a BFP of course

AFM, I talked to my doctor about trying again and she wrote me a script for the progesterone suppositories I was on last time I conceived. My luteal phase was just 9-10 days the last few cycles so I can definitely use a little boost. Let's see how it goes!
My big little girl started preschool/daycare (some in between hybrid lol) last week. Omgg I cried so hard over that decision. It's so hard. But her spot came up (there was a waitlist) and we just went for it. Just 2 days a week for now. She did really great, almost no tears!

 

[Dream143r]

OMG searching for Peanut in the app store immediately.

 

[SunnyBe]

Let me know how you like it! I met my one friend on there and after that, I immediately stopped using it as I don't have the energy to hang out with even more people right now lol.

 

[SunnyBe]

Uhm, do you guys see this? I'm 9 to 10 DPO. Took three tests after seeing a hint of something on the first. I'm not crazy right?

 

[Steph1012]

Yes 100%!! Congratulations!!

 

[SunnyBe]

Omg thanks Steph!! It's so early so I'm not getting my hopes up just yet (been there before ) but hoping it'll turn into a chunky strong line in the next few days.

How are you doing though! How did the consult go? Are you still on for a possible FET in the next month or two?

 

[Steph1012]

Yeah sorry Sunny, as soon as I yelled congratulations at you I realised that perhaps it was a little insensitive. I really really hope that it just gets stronger for you

Things are okay, have been struggling a lot with people we know getting pregnant. Seem to cry every other day at the moment but what can you do! I have a saline infusion sonography and endometrial scratch on April 20th, and I’m hoping if everything is fine on that (no reason why it wouldn’t be) then I’ll be able to start meds straight away. I’m guessing a FET could take place beginning of June?

 

[SunnyBe]

Not insensitive at all!

So sorry about the pregnancy announcements (my itty bitty of a line included). It's so hard. "Happy for them, sad for yourself" seems to be the overall sentiment. It sounds like you're on track for a FET pretty soon though. Because yes, the scratch is usually done the cycle preceding the FET or the cycle after that. Sending lots of hugs your way!

 

[Dream143r]

Steph - Hoping everything turns out great with your appointment April 20th. Please do remember to come back and update us.

Sunny - I def see that line!! FX it darkens up nicely. Are you testing again tomorrow?

AFM - Officially off BC. Should get AF sometime this week. I placed my Amazon order today for OPKs and HPTs. Kinda surreal feeling to be starting this TTC process again. Eeeek!

 

[SunnyBe]

Yayyy Dream! So excited for you to start again!!!

And yes, of course I tested again. Impossible not to, right? I think it looks pretty good for 10-11 DPO.

 

[Dream143r]

That line looks FABULOUS Sunny. Great progression from yesterday.

 

[Steph1012]

Ahhh Sunny!!!! I didn’t even need to click on it today

Thanks Dream, everything crossed for a much easier time of it for you this time.

Sunny, I don’t have ‘cycles’ per se, so would be inducing a bleed with Norethisterone again. Hopefully the clinic have capacity for me to start that right away. My clinic now have an app that has all appointment and meds etc that I took last time, and it seems like in 2018 I started Norethisterone on 4 January and transferred on 9 February... I remember waiting what felt like forever for that bleed, ha!

 

[tbfromlv]

Omg!! This is what happens when I’m off for a few days! SUNNY! Was this your first cycle trying?! Eek!! Let’s see todays!! That’s amazing!!
congrats!!

dream- good luck this cycle!

steph- I’m excited for you to start yours as well!

also want to get on this peanut app! I can totally relate to not having energy for multiple people haha

 

[SunnyBe]

My husband and I share an office and I have an elaborate plan to surprise him with the news later today, so I can't safely upload a picture right now without him possibly seeing it lol.

But I did a FRER this morning and the test line was almost as dark as the control line already!! So excited!!

Technically this is my 3rd cycle, but this is the first one on progesterone.

Steph, ah that's right. The joys of PCOS! But it sounds like you'll be able to start pretty soon. It's nerve-wracking and exciting at the same time!