Aww hun I'm so sorry you're feeling down about it and the process and everything in general. I can see how you wouldn't be very chipper about having to go a different, medically intervened, costly route. The end result is what matters and is the goal, regardless of how you get there! Perhaps do some research to help ease your mind and acclimate yourself a bit. I am sure there are plenty of women on BnB that can provide their personal experience and it def wouldn't hurt to ask the lady you know about it. Even if you aren't, I happen to be super excited for you! Like, this could be happening in a few short months and you could be pregnant right away! I have goosebumps!