I can relate
DH and I are TTC #2 and we're now on month #6 of VERY actively trying. I also had 2 annovulatory cycles in a row, due to a variety of supplements/herbs I was taking, which completely messed up my cycle. Prior to that, I had never ever missed O in 16+ years of menstruating. My cycle was like clockwork, so missing 2 months was very frustrating. I'm finally back on track since stopping all the extra supplements. I'm just taking my prenatal, DHA, and probiotic now....my 28-day cycle is back, thank God.
For the 5 months when I was ovulating as usual, our timing has been perfect each and every month... + OPKS, always feeling cramps the day of O, Pre-Seed every time, Soft Cups afterward, etc. Not a single BFP. Stark white FRER w/ FMU and AF arrives on time every month
DD was conceived on month #5. She's 2 yrs and 4 months, and I worry that she's missing out on having a sibling. DH and I always planned on a 3-year age gap, but now I'm scared that it may take a while longer and they could be much farther apart than we anticipated
I definitely have baby fever and so badly want to be pregnant again. It feels like so long since we had a little baby and I barely remember being pregnant at this point
I'm trying very hard to trust in God, as I believe He has a plan for our family, but it's becoming very difficult to have faith. The disappointment is awful and at times, I feel like I'm never going to see a BFP
This depressing winter has not made things easier; I'm feeling really down and just want spring to arrive. I need a fresh start and a positive attitude. When I'm feeling sad, I really try to be grateful for my little girl and for all the blessings in my life, that sometimes helps lessen the pain.
I hope and pray that we all get our BFPs soon!!