Love ya too Laura, and thank you. I know you have hard your fair share obstacles as well as the other girls here. I just dont understand why bad things happen to good people. I feel like Im at the lowest point I have been in a long time. I know that I have moved on and have dealt with the loss but everytime I see that -, it just reminds me that I wont have my baby in Feb. My gf that was pregnant with me just told me that she is going on bed rest for the rest of her pregnancy which is just two months. It kills me that my baby wont be here a month after hers. I know this sounds awful and nothing will ever replace the angel that I loss but I almost feel like me being pregnant and having a healthy LO will somehow heal that wound and that my angel will be in our next lo's...it makes me sound crazy but the idea of it just brings me peace which is why I long for this baby so much.
i think we deal with the loss as best we can but i dont think we might ever be totally at peace with it,
i feel the exact same honey, i dont like meeting my Sil who is due within 2 days of liles date cos it kinda hurts a lot

xx i feel bad , its not her fault r her babys fault or not even like i wish she wasnt preg, i just wish we hadnt been so close in time cos its constant reminder, i keep thinking i should be 8months preg and due in less than 2 months rather than just over 2 months now
but i am glad i have what i have now and just really hope i get my LO this time, xx
u will too honey and i really hope its way sooner rather than later xx
it did help me heal a little in a way but it opens up a new can of whoop ass too to get bfp.

now i have guilt that its not lile in my belly and some guilt sometimes at being happy ifykwim. now im gone a moany soz.
but i hope u know what im trying to say, we have been dealt a bit of a shit storm here and we have no choice but to come out of it stronger

cos i dont like any other option available
god im rambly, sorry , i just wanna help u in some way but im getting lost in my own crap

soz.
good things happen to good people too and it starts right now cos we deserve it xxxxxxxxxxxxx

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