TTC after loss - over 40 - any takers? Our lucky thread - 9 rainbows and 1 BFP

[crysshae]

Yay for being sick Jenn! Lol.

I'm doing well, Becks. With that temp dip, do you think you might O earlier this month?

 

[Left wonderin]

Sparkle its great that you are happy your sick !! lol.... Baby sparkle is snuggling in to mammy xx

So how awful for you ! Make sure and get some support for yourself x

Cry delighted thi GD going well

 

[Soanxious]

Sparkle im so happy you have morning sickness

Well girls im worn out, he wont stop texting, he even came here 9am this morning banging my door and ringing my doorbell... he had left work to do it... then i've been bombarded with more texts.. all suicidal and can we chat so far.. no doubt tomorrow they will change to the threats...

He spoke to my next door neighbour this morning to announce that we had split up (WHY) well I know why... he wants them to feel sorry for him by giving them a sob story.... i've done the "Freedom programme" (a domestic abuse course) so im seeing all the signs and I know what is about to happen... its going to get far far far worse... now he's saying he has items left in my house.. No he doesn't... but he does have ladders in the shed.. which I will unlock so he can take them on the weekend when I am fundraising elsewhere.

I parked my car a few streets away and put my phone on silent so I could get some sleep this evening.. I slept till 10pm...

I have notified the community support officers what he is up to... I have asked for a note to be put on my address...

When my car is not here he does not come here... im working till 10pm tomorrow as im traveling up north.. my son wont stay down mates he said hes fine here and will just dial 999 if he did come here but as my car wont be here he shouldn't knock. plus house is like fort knox so he wont get in.

Normally by 9dpo I get a shadow on an ic.. but I have nothing... so so far so good.. never thought I would say that... but the fear he has put into me has made me realise there was someone up above stopping me from getting pregnant for this reason.... so I didnt have to suffer what I did with my daughters dad again....

My stomach is in knots and im dreading whats going to happen next with him...

Especially as I have found out some horror stories involving ex wife..

Becks Im so sorry you had to suffer it too... I worked with domestic violence team for around 5 yrs i know they will always be there for me.... we dont get the locks n stuff here.. or alarms... not till we have been battered to a pulp as they are so far n few between in this area. looks like you may of ov?

 

[Oasis717]

Crystal im so glad you are well I thought when I saw the dip o might be yest but I dont think i'll be that lucky! Am thinking a low temp in tbe morn but you never know I guess xxxxx
Tanya I also did the Freedom group after splitting at last with my ex. I met some lovely ladies and it helped a lot. It was the Women's Support Service (now called K-Dash that arranged for the panic button and I had an alert on the house from the police but he still continued to abuse me for 6 months til I met dh then it all stopped! He's a coward I can see that now but not at the time. All thosr things he did to me and then he was shit scared of Adam and it all stopped. I had the constant suicide threats too. When he met his nx gf who he's still with he tried it with her and she found him with tablets and vodka in the woods threatening to end it. She told him to go ahead and walked away. I wish I had been that strong but the things he used against me like the children prevented me from stopping him. I was trying to protect them and took it all myself which of course you would. Eventually he went crazy one day smashing all the doors in and threatening to kill me and I just snapped and called the police. Its no life and its not love either. I so hope you're ok I dont want you to have to go through this xxxx

 

[josie1234]

Tanya - sounds awful, really hope that you are ok. Sounds like you are best out of it hun. Stay strong. Let's hope that he leaves you alone. Big hugs xxx

Becks - sounds like you had a tough time but moved on to better things. Let's hope you have O earlier this cycle.

Sparkle - glad that you are feeling sick, in a good way. ☺

AFM - went to new centre to talk about classes etc and the opening is in 10 days! Still lots to do. Got our uniform, shorts and t-shirt but boss got me wrong size t-shirt. Men lol. I said 12-14 but he got 10 so snug! I am 36D! !! lol. Will have to watch what I eat otherwise it won't be flattering!! Got this photo taken, I am on the end (right).

 

[josie1234]

Photo

 

[josie1234]

Forgot to say DS off school today as he felt rough yesterday with headache and sore stomach but he seemed ok. He still feels bad this morning so keeping him off. Hope it is just a bug.

I am rubbish at taking temp this cycle!

 

[Oasis717]

Love the t shirts Jo!! Xxx

 

[josie1234]

Thanks Becks. How are you this morning. Looking forward to seeing your temps hopefully rise xxx

 

[tillyttc]

Hi all so anxioux hope you are ok stay strong ! Iam doing ok find out if its a pink or blue one in eight days yippee ! And its really starting to move around now forgot what that felt like lol . Xxx

 

[Soanxious]

Becks yeah its horrific..hes 40 today so will be more suicidal or threatening... but im off to newcastle today on a run so wont be back till 10 tonight so hoping he stays away... xx

Jo love the shirts and pose.... x

Tilly thats faberoonie!!!! xx

gotta dash im late

ps told u u ov yesterday Becks

 

[crysshae]

Cute shirts and pic Jo. Hope DS feels better soon.

Becks - temp just went right back to where it was, huh?

Tanya - Enjoy your day. Hope he doesn't bother you.

Tilly - That's exciting. Love feeling them move.

 

[Left wonderin]

So ya poor thing !! Jo love the picture you look soooo fit !! As a 36d too I'd say that size 10 is nice and snug Hehehehehe

Becks ov yesterday I'd say , are you ttc this cycle ? AFM now waiting to ov AF just gone . Preventing again this cycle though as only going for smear on 14th ans results can take 2-3 weeks . So still waiting to try here

 

[Left wonderin]

But im happy out enjoying SEAN

 

[josie1234]

Thanks Tanya - hope you have had no problems today and he stops pestering you soon. Newcastle as in the North East?? That's a long way for you to go if it is. That is not far from where I am originally from - Stockton-On-Tees (just near Middlesbrough).

Thanks Crystal - he seems to have picked up, he still had a headache this morning so kept him off school. He has teacher training day tomorrow (middle of the term wtf). He is ok now.

Thanks Regina - it seems to get harder as I get older but I keep trying. I went for a run tonight (to train for the Spartan Race) and it was tough. I am so not a runner - legs too short, boobs too big lol. Done 4.7 km so I am pleased with that but I do not enjoy it. Yes it is very snug - men just don't listen eh? Once the smear is out of the way, there is no stopping you eh? lol. Would love to see another pic of Sean (and some of you too!)

 

[josie1234]

Oh, I have enrolled to do a one day Metafit Course in Newcastle in August so I will then be able to take classes in that. Life is good at the moment and I am happy. Metafit is a new way of training - like interval training but I will be the only one trained in this at the new place so can utilise this to do lots of classes.

 

[Left wonderin]

Jo it sounds like you are in a good place right now , I'm thrilled for you

 

[josie1234]

Thanks Regina. Yes I am and it's been a long time coming and I think this job has perked me up. Hopefully the mood will continue but with my hormones I can't guarantee lol. DH rang me up earlier, he is at the pub and sounded very merry. He will be suffering tomorrow lol as he is working and has to be up at 5 for 12 hour shift. Oh dear lol

 

[Soanxious]

Yes Jo.. over 500 miles today... we deliver stray dogs to larger rescue centres to get new homes. we save them from death row and try n home as many as possible. 14 hours driving.. picking up and dropping off doggies...

Jo your just soooooooooooooo busy!! lol


I txt him and asked him not to approach my home as I was up north so it would be pointless.. he made out his 40th birthday 3rd july yesterday now.. was ruined by me dumping him and now this weekend he is going to try and rescue whats left of it.. then he sounds suicidal saying life is not worth living etc... grrrrrrrrrrr

 

[Oasis717]

Ladies im not sure I gurss tomorrow if temp is just the same I haven't yet! It did go up 0.4 in line with o but it just doesnt seem high enough. Ewmc is gone though. I just don't know. Regina we are trying admittedly not 100% as once again we are just so busy. Xxx
Tanya I hope he gets the message soon and stays away. Stay strong hunni xxxx