First, I want to say to Presh, I'm sorry to hear about the subchorionic hemorrhage.
I've spent the last couple of weeks off and on reading the posts here. It's amazing the things you women have gone through together and have come out as survivors. You all are strong!
I'm glad I've found you wonderful ladies. My story isn't so different from several of yours.
I'm 35, DH is 38. We have 2 boys--12 and 7, and we were happy with them. Nearly five years ago, I tossed all birth control away because after years of dealing with awful side effects, I figured it wasn't worth the risks. I have a mild allergy to latex, so we don't use condoms either. So I figured, hey, I'm an intelligent woman--I can learn how to watch my body's signals and sort out my own fertility WITHOUT drugs! And so for nearly five years, I successfully avoided pregnancy just by tracking my cervical placement and watching my mucus.
That changed in April. My last period was April 7, and on Day 9 of my cycle, we were intimate and without being TMI I could tell upon his finishing that my cervix was opening. Oops! Day 10 has always been our last day to do the deed before my Fertile Myrtle days. I didn't think too much of the "feeling" that I had. I consoled myself with the thought that I'd never failed before and probably wouldn't now. I'd forgotten how fertile we had always been, though.
On Cycle Day 33, I knew things were wonky. It's not unusual for me to have a longer cycle sometimes, but 33 days was pushing the limit. Add to the fact that I was having some nausea, sore bb's, fatigue, and moodiness more than usual for AF's arrival had me concerned. So I bought a test, and it was faintly positive.
I was over the moon. But I was worried, because let's face it--we're closing in on 40. I told the boys, who were ecstatic, then told the hubby later, and we were all happy. But that day that I found out--May 9--I just felt funny. I had some pelvic pressure that felt unusual. It hurt when I sat down. It felt like I was sitting on something sharp. I also was having some achiness in my lower back. But I have some lower back issues anyway, so I discounted it at first. On Friday two days later, I was having confirmed lower back cramping along with the pain when sitting, and I also passed some light brown mucus. It looked like light brown snot, and it wasn't a large amount, but enough to make me worry when I'd never done that with previous pregnancies. I wrote it off, though, especially when I knew I couldn't see the OB till 8 weeks. On May 11 I was 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant. My due date would have been January 12, 2013.
Two days later was Mother's Day. My cramping in my back and the pain when sitting was continuing, but I'd had no more mucus since the one episode on Friday. When I saw that it was May 13, I had a feeling of doom. We went to church, but after Sunday School I went to the bathroom and when I wiped the tissue was red.
The bleeding accelerated from there, I went to the ER, my hcg was 36, and I was sent home to "watch". Fast forward to May 18--I had a D&C because two transvaginals found nothing anywhere and my hcg had gone up to 49. There was no fetal tissue found in the D&C so I was given a shot of metho in each hip and sent home early afternoon May 18.
June 8 I had to have another metho shot because my levels went up almost 2 points (looking back now I wish I'd waited to see if it would've gone down the next week). June 15 my level was 0.1, but they didn't tell me about it till yesterday (June 18). Yesterday I began taking my vitamins again (1600 mcg folate total between prenatals and folate supplement).
After this loss, my husband and I have decided we want to have another child. I don't see my OB again until Jul. 3, so I have no idea what he will tell me about TTC, but I do know that we won't be doing any of that at least until fall.
The loss has been hard because I keep dreaming about having a baby. It's sad to wake up and realize that I'm not pregnant and the only thing that I have to look forward to right now is a visit from AF. LOL! Whoda thought I'd be pulling out the Welcome Wagon for her?!

Even if I can't TTC for a while, I just want to feel normal again. The crampiness in my back still exists a little and I still feel a slight sensation in my bottom every now and again. It's only been a month since my first shot, so I guess it's just going to take time for all the strange uncomfy feelings to go away.
Thanks for giving me the chance to share my story. I know it's a long one!