Ultimate Venting Thread 2

[mindyb85]

I can't stop crying. I feel so unwanted right now. It's "go week" and dh is "not in the mood" wtf?! I feel so unattractive and that all the pain of ltttc and the losses ive suffered and the current side effects of clomid is all for nothing cause he s not in the f-ing mood?! Oh sorry im asking you to have sex where you definitely will get a happy ending, I know that sounds soooooo difficult! Sorry ladies but this jyst kills me. He told me he wanted to rry anf would give our more effort and he didnt even try At all!!! God all these damn hormones. I feel like a beoken faucet!

 

[uwa_amanda]

So...

How is everyone this evening? I'm doing alright I guess. Other than my back hurting, cramping like hell, and experiencing another terrible headache, I'm okay.

I second you on the cramps. Also, the heat may be doing your head in as well. It was early 100 here, and I thought I was going to pass out.

What's your AF treat?

Chocolate and dr pepper! It was definitely triple digits here today...oh my gosh! If it's hot now I would hate to see what August is going to feel like. Holy cow!!!!

Sounds wonderful! I'm still deciding what my treat is when AF decides to arrive.

Is August supposed to be the worst for Southern heat? June is seriously getting to me, I don't know how I'm going to manage July. I literally can drink buckets of water and still feel dehydrated.

Late July thru August is typically the hottest times of the year. I am with you on the guzzling water part. I guzzle so much during the summer. The water companies love me. I go to Sam's and get a couple of the big packs of water and that'll last a couple of weeks whenever I am in a mood for a lot of water. Maybe it won't be so bad for ya since you're in Kentucky.

 

[StephieB]

Mindy I'm so sorry about your DH. I know it might not make you feel better but I think most of us on here have been through the same ovulation week disaster. My hubby regularly didn't want to bed during ovulation and after a couple months of screaming and crying he admitted that it wasn't that he didn't want to, but he physically couldn't! The performance anxiety really gets him, especially on a clomid cycle! We've tried artificial insemination this cycle just to try and take the pressure off a little bit.

Ladies in sunny England its currently 9c where I am (49 in american speak I think!) Its june and I have the heating on!! You can send some of the heat over here if you want, ill take it off your hands! I don't want to be wearing jumpers and coats when its almost July! Xx

 

[Just_married]

I can't stop crying. I feel so unwanted right now. It's "go week" and dh is "not in the mood" wtf?! I feel so unattractive and that all the pain of ltttc and the losses ive suffered and the current side effects of clomid is all for nothing cause he s not in the f-ing mood?! Oh sorry im asking you to have sex where you definitely will get a happy ending, I know that sounds soooooo difficult! Sorry ladies but this jyst kills me. He told me he wanted to rry anf would give our more effort and he didnt even try At all!!! God all these damn hormones. I feel like a beoken faucet!

Hey mrs, we have all been there. I could have strangled my dh on occasion, normally always up for it (lol) but any hint of me initiating it for ovulation and it's tension all the way.

Like the others have mentioned (on last venting thread too) ovulation week can be a nightmare, but you just need to find a solution that is right for you. The solution for us was dh asked me not to tell him when I'm oving.

The psychology of it all can put pressure on our men. I know if the pressure of conceiving relied purely on me climaxing on a certain night, eek! I'd be a wreck!

So we all know how you feel & understand & send huge hugs xxx

 

[smallstar]

Soooo glad this is back.....i had such a manic weekend literally OUT the whole time....logged on this morning and was like WTF?!!?

This can be our phoenix thread lol rising from the ashes lol

x

 

[beegray]

My rant for the day: is now almost two weeks late! I thought this was over, metformin has been working fine until now???? Tempted to test again but i know will end up with a so pissed off, moody, and angry that nothing seems to be working when i'm only suppose to have mild PCOS!!!!!!!!

 

[shiara]

my vent...
>this clomid side effects r makin me soo mad,,,crying out loud for every small stupid thing
> dh's attitude just kills me,,,he's takin it all soo easy as if im about to pop a baby any time.. his positivity reaally irritates me now
>and its soooo hot here in middle east,,im fed up of this heat...

 

[BearsMummy]

My Rant:

I woke up this morning to find I had lost a few very good friends in the past 24 hours.

 

[uwa_amanda]

My Rant:

I woke up this morning to find I had lost a few very good friends in the past 24 hours.

Karen,

I feel the same way.

 

[BearsMummy]

I don't even know where I belong anymore either.

I'm not actively TTC anymore, not while I am in limbo about my funding.

Is it just me or do any of you get weeks like this?
One thing goes awry, and your whole life seems to spiral out of control and EVERYTHING goes wrong?

I normally have these weeks around PMT/AF times, but this is bang smack in the middle of my cycle!

 

[uwa_amanda]

I don't even know where I belong anymore either.

I'm not actively TTC anymore, not while I am in limbo about my funding.

Is it just me or do any of you get weeks like this?
One thing goes awry, and your whole life seems to spiral out of control and EVERYTHING goes wrong?

I normally have these weeks around PMT/AF times, but this is bang smack in the middle of my cycle!

You are definitely not alone, sweetie. I feel the same way about TTC, or not in our case. All this happened in the middle of my cycle too. I was so down about everything last night. My DH felt so bad for me after all that. He didn't know what to do.

 

[BearsMummy]

My OH is being really sweet.

He knows the past week and all it's upsets has really got to me, and he keeps emailing me from work to check I am ok.

I am hoping he comes home with a big box of chocolates to cheer me up!

 

[StephieB]

You have no idea how much love I have for my ladies!! I want to give each and everyone one of you a huge squishy hug to make everyone feel better!

 

[Armywife84]

Mindy- Don't fret over the sex! Unfortunately, some of us are going thru the same ordeal. I wish we would still have hot sex, but I have to request it like it's a song on the radio!!

Bears- I often feel lost as to where I am in LTTC. We don't have the $$ for IUIs or IVF atm, too many other things to pay for. You just have that stuck feeling of where you're spinning your wheels. When you get to take one step forward, then something happens of where you have to take 2 steps back.

However, there is no doubt that you belong on here with us! If I'm feeling like LTTC is too much, then I start to explore GC or GS.

Bee- So sorry for AF being 2 weeks late. She's such an inconsiderate bitch.

Rant:

1. The is late. I won't bother testing because I already know the answer.

2. I'm in no mood to work tomorrow. These 3 days off have been nice.

3. DH has been annoying me lately, to the point of where I wish he was still away for training. You know the usual not helping with housework, constantly moaning about anything and everything. I do wish he would can it!!

 

[tamithomas]

Am I the only one who feels during 2WW when you know for a fact AF is due, those few days waiting it to start and get it over with feel even longer than when you're still in the IF stage of 2WW? that's me today, soo annoyed! I already know I failed this month I just wanna get it over with and TTC again next month lol

 

[wannabemummyb]

:wave: hey ladies. So pleased we have another venting thread!

I am also pleased (hmmm maybe not the right word) to hear that your oh's have ov week performance issues too! The last month/two months mine's been fine and seems really motivated to bd and try to get an elusive bfp...normally he has issues during ov week and I truly thought it was meM

I HATE (stomp feet) LTTTC....i use a wedding forum and someone on there posted on their wedding report that they had there bfp.....first month coming off bcp! Made me cry

Af due any time from saturday just gone to whenever she decides to turn up! Feel stroppy, sulky and fed up!

 

[NavyWife84]

Hi Ladies,
I know I said I was out of here, but I have been checking my private messages and this thread to keep up with some ladies. I was so glad to get on today because I heard from a lady that I haven't heard from in a few months. She had been ttc for over 3 years, had an IVF against her religious beliefs, and it failed. She and dh decided to remain childless and make peace with it. Today she wrote a post in her journal that was so encouraging to me. It really made me think that there really is a light at the end of the tunnel if everything doesn't work out. I especially wanted to share this with the gals on here who are currently in limbo or living childless due to lack of funding, lack of energy to try anymore, etc...

Anyway, here is the link to her thread...
https://babyandbump.momtastic.com/ltttc-journals/364368-childless-titi-world-wide-open-378.html

 

[Armywife84]

Hi Ladies,
I know I said I was out of here, but I have been checking my private messages and this thread to keep up with some ladies. I was so glad to get on today because I heard from a lady that I haven't heard from in a few months. She had been ttc for over 3 years, had an IVF against her religious beliefs, and it failed. She and dh decided to remain childless and make peace with it. Today she wrote a post in her journal that was so encouraging to me. It really made me think that there really is a light at the end of the tunnel if everything doesn't work out. I especially wanted to share this with the gals on here who are currently in limbo or living childless due to lack of funding, lack of energy to try anymore, etc...

Anyway, here is the link to her thread...
https://babyandbump.momtastic.com/ltttc-journals/364368-childless-titi-world-wide-open-378.html

That's incredibly empowering! Thank you for sharing. As I've discussed with another poster, I feel that there is a life to be lived after stopping LTTC..and accepting the childless lifestyle. Either way we'll have inner peace or a baby.

 

[xlouloux]

Hi ladies, here to have a little rant!

Did my cousin, who has two children under the age of two, one sort of planned and one accident, really have the nerve to tell me that "maybe you're just not ready, like maybe your body doesn't want a baby yet"!!!!

Ok so she is dumb, I get that, and after she had her two children she still didn't know what ovulation was until I explained it. (You should be able to imagine the sort of person she is from that) I still think her first comment was bitchy, and I think she knew that it was, and I think she said it out of spite, and I think she is a bitch.

-Rant over.



In better news, CD3 and AF is leaving.

 

[xxshellsxx]

Hi Ladies,
I know I said I was out of here, but I have been checking my private messages and this thread to keep up with some ladies. I was so glad to get on today because I heard from a lady that I haven't heard from in a few months. She had been ttc for over 3 years, had an IVF against her religious beliefs, and it failed. She and dh decided to remain childless and make peace with it. Today she wrote a post in her journal that was so encouraging to me. It really made me think that there really is a light at the end of the tunnel if everything doesn't work out. I especially wanted to share this with the gals on here who are currently in limbo or living childless due to lack of funding, lack of energy to try anymore, etc...

Anyway, here is the link to her thread...
https://babyandbump.momtastic.com/ltttc-journals/364368-childless-titi-world-wide-open-378.html

When i was with my Ex, we only had a 15% chance with ICSI and direct sperm retrieval, I had resigned myself, eventually, to a childless life and once i got my head around that i also found peace with myself. We eventually separated after he became a control freak over my life, I don;t think he ever accepted the reality of our situation.

I lived my life, found new friends, found old ones i'd lost in my depression, and found a new way of living.

When i met DH I decided to give it one last go... it's still not looking lightly, and even though the knocks are still hard to take sometimes, more the barriers and hurdles we have to jump to give it absolutely everything we possibly can!

I can pick myself up quickly these days and brush them aside. I will continue to try, but I know in my heart of hearts if it doesn't happen I can live with myself and enjoy my life with DH but it's took a lot of heart ache to get to where i am now.

xx