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[MrsBroodyPant]

Thanks girls.
Yes we talk about ttc a bit. Ive not usually like this but jealously is eating me up inside at the moment. I feel like im going to lose him and he will go off with someone else but I know that the way im accusing him that it will be my fault if he does.
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[cathgibbs]

Me too hun! Fx we will!! Yeah ov is normally cd17 so got a good 3-4 days left! fx it was just a rise of some sort :-D Ahhh I know I bloody hope so hun - gonna stop trying in Dec but go on the pill in Feb/March so got a few months left so we will give it our all!

We will all be really happy soon hun - it might take a while but WE WILL all get there, we have to all this bding best pay off haha xxxx

 

[ladyluck84]

Cath yes af is due today, no sign yet but ovulated late so I'm not getting my hopes up

 

[HappilyTTC]

Mrs B: I am sorry you are feeling that way. I can totally see it. I sometimes feel that way when my husband talks to other women- I know he would never do anything, but I still get a little jelly because I think about how another woman may be able to give him what I can't. It's good to recognize the emotion, but then realize it's just a story we are inventing in our heads and move on.

Cath: I am doing okay. We recently got a second opinion from a doctor who agrees that a hysterectomy is my only choice. She said that there is not enough cervix left to attempt any other surgery, so come the 24th, we will most likely schedule the hyserectomy for before the end of the year. How are you?

Nina: I want all of you to be really happy, too. I feel like there's going to be some s before the end of the year.

 

[Nina83]

Sometimes it's hard to understand that men cope with this differently than women.
I wish we didn't have to feel like this, like we're the ones to blame if something isn't right
Our OH love us no matter what

Happily, I'm sending you guys much love at this time, you're always in my thoughts
You're so strong and positive, I know I'm a zillion miles away, but if you ever need anything- just let me know

Cath, You probably didn't O yet. Our charts do a lot of ups and downs before. Hope it's right around the corner though!

Lady- FX!!!

 

[cathgibbs]

Awwww Mrsb you arent gonna lose him Jealousy is such a horrible thing and after everything you have gone through there are bound to be some issues along the way

LL have you tested or are you just gonna wait it out? I hope the bitch stays away!!

Ohhhhh Happily im so so sorry hun You take your time to heal after it lovely agree with Nina your so strong hun I would most prob crumble into a heap

Nina how are you lovely? AF arrived yet? xxx

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

Thanks happily. I shouldn't be complaining when you are going through so much. What a horrible year this is!

I cooked DH all this fave things last night to make up for acting jealous and we dtd. But this morning I'm feeling jealous again. I hate this feeling. He has never been one for clubbing and drinking but now he goes out with work friends male and female a lot and its hard for me to just stay home. I organise to go out with my friends but sometimes he tells me last minute so I dont have chance to do anything. Im jealous because he is gorgeous and obviously the women from work will get all dressed up for a night out! Oh god. Im going crazy lol. What can I do? Do I just except that he goes out a lot now? I expect other men go out a lot, probably more, im just not used to it.

Xxx

 

[cathgibbs]

You are not going crazy hun - We have all been there believe me! Can you go out with him one night with all his work mates - or can you and your friends go out and just somehow happen to be in the same pub and then he can introduce you to everyone and then go back to your friends so your not out 'with him' if you get me? xxx

 

[cathgibbs]

oh and on the matter of other men going out - i cooked df a lovely 3 course meal last friday for his birthday - spent 3 hours cooking him a cake (chocolate mud pig cake google it its amazing!) and he came home wolfed his food down and then told me he was going out for 1 or 2 - ended up coming home at 2.30am - I was fuming! I used to be a jealous woman as my ex cheated on me but I know deep down DF wouldnt dream of doing it - do you think hubby would ever cheat on you? ever? If not you just have to keep saying that to yourself,. that he would never cheat on you xxxx

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

I don't want to go out with his work mates as I think it would make me look desperate lol. Im not interested in meeting. I'd rather be the mysterious wife who could be amazing for all they know lol.
My DH is really not the type to cheat he is loyal and level headed. I always thought that at least I never have to worry about that then suddenly I am. I think its to do with our loss as its just making everything seem so rubbish. I can't say he would never cheat as I cant be completely sure but I wouldn't expect it from him. Ive secretly read his messages from work ladies and nothing bad or kisses at the end lol. Im just jealous of him going out.
Cath what your DF did is like what me hubby has started to do. Go out for one but stay out til 2am. I can get over it if I know others do it too lol its just not like him but he got a new manager at work who likes to go out and encourages them all to socialise outside of work. Xxx

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

I don't want to go out with his work mates as I think it would make me look desperate lol. Im not interested in meeting. I'd rather be the mysterious wife who could be amazing for all they know lol.
My DH is really not the type to cheat he is loyal and level headed. I always thought that at least I never have to worry about that then suddenly I am. I think its to do with our loss as its just making everything seem so rubbish. I can't say he would never cheat as I cant be completely sure but I wouldn't expect it from him. Ive secretly read his messages from work ladies and nothing bad or kisses at the end lol. Im just jealous of him going out.
Cath what your DF did is like what me hubby has started to do. Go out for one but stay out til 2am. I can get over it if I know others do it too lol its just not like him but he got a new manager at work who likes to go out and encourages them all to socialise outside of work. Xxx

 

[Nina83]

Mrs.B, I don't want to pry too much, but I'm just looking at this from how I became after my loss.
I became VERY anti social. I'm like a hermit. I pushed away the little friends I had before. I just want to be alone to sit in my own sorrow all day and all night. I hate going out. I don't even care to see family.
Maybe you aren't jealous or scared he'd cheat, but maybe it's more of a "he doesn't think much of our loss", "he's going out to have fun". I don't know. I'm throwing all this out because that's how I feel when DH goes out or is social. Plus, I'm jealous of him even going out, when I have no desire to.
Sort of like how I envy those who travel

 

[cathgibbs]

Well when DF does do it he gets a mouthing off from me lol DF and I usually go out together so when he goes out on his own i make plans to go out with the girls just so im not stuck in on my own - Do you think your jealous because you want hubby to stay in with you and comfort you in a type of way? Ahhh hun I hope you can get over this - jealousy is a bitch honestly xxx

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

Cath we were the same. We always went out in couples together but now all our close friends have babies so we don't see them as much so DH is filling his time in with new work friends who don't have children. It hurts us both when we see our friends with their children so I think he is getring away from that. Last night we had a lovely meal together and tonight we are going for a meal with another couple. I don't think he is cheating but the feeling I get when he goes out is a feeling of being cheated on.
Nina yes I dont actually want to go out as all im bothered about is making a baby and staying home to look after it. But I still see my friends for coffee etc just not as often and I try to avoid my friends with children. Problem is that all our mutual friends hace children.
I guess some men go out almost every night and leave their wife to put the children to bed. Dh is going out about once a week or maybe twice. Its the women im jealous of! I need to get a grip coz I will drive hubby away xxx

 

[cathgibbs]

Do you think its not the fact he will cheat on other women but hes cheating on you with the drink if that makes any sense? xxx

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

Could be but I am jealous of the women being there. Like he is choosing them over me. I think they will fancy him. At least he doesn't lie to me about who he is with. He doesn't get really drunk. Mostly he drives and drops mates off etc. He says he likes the conversations with the men and the women just happen to be there. I think this is just a phrase. Hopefully he will get it out his system or a new manager who doesn't want to go out all the time. He showed me texts from his boss asking him out for drinks last night but he turned him down. What I don't get is how or why these people go out so often! Some have partners, are they not bothered? They are neglecting their partners and go out all the time! I think hubby and I just have a better relationship than most and now they are dragging ours down to their level. I think hubby feels daft if he doesn't go out. Like he is under the thumb. And he will miss out on work talk and maybe bot get promoted etc xxx

 

[HappilyTTC]

I think I can completely understand how you feel, Mrs. B. It's not that I worry my husband will cheat, but I can sometimes be jelly that he CHOOSES to spend time with them over me. I then have to realize that I shouldn't take things so personally and not to make assumptions about the reason for his actions.

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

Thanks ladies.

It helps to talk about it on here and get your opinions. I know he is trustworthy but I still feel jealous. Hopefully the feeling will go.

Hows is everyone? Hows your cycles going?
I'm waiting for temp rise
Xxx

 

[Nina83]

Mrs.B, this sounds like a lot of women I work with.
They are married, but it seems like they're never at home to actually be with their OH! They're always busy going out, and the OH is doing the same... I think it's strange sometimes. I also think it's just a phase.
My Coworker told me once that the only time they meet is pretty much in bed. How odd is that.
I guess everyone just has different relationships.

AF is very very light already. I'm not worried about it being too short because the second day was pretty heavy. My periods are getting shorter, which I like, but since it doesn't make O day come any sooner, well then, what good is it? :s
Next weekend we'll be on vacation, celebrating our anniversary and DH's birthday. I was hoping O would fall then so we could celebrate But looks like it'll be afterwards. Oh well, we'll still be celebrating
I'll be starting to temp tomorrow. I always like the week of AF because it means no temping. I did temp in the evening and my temps were extremely low. I was tempted to temp in the morning to see how low they actually are but what good would that do.
This will also be the first cycle trying preseed. I opened it and thought it was supposed to be EWCM-ish, but it's kind of sticky. I hope it works. This and morning sex is a win win combo- no?

Hope everyone is having a great weekend!

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

Nina sounds like u got it sussed! I think it will be a winner

Xxx