I'm not sure. I still have sharp pains on my side, and nausea started this morning, but for some reason I'm starting to get a feeling this isn't it.
Last night DH kind of broke down, I think this is the first time in 7.5 years we've been together that he's actually showing me emotions. I think he's starting to realize what happened, and what is actually missing from our lives and hearts right now.
HE said he's afraid that the cat is taking the place of a baby, and while it may be, for now, it's OK to say that, because living with this empty hole is just tearing me apart inside. You NEED to fill it, otherwise it will take over you.
I'm just so sad most of the time, and I'm tired of feeling sad and hurting. And it just kills me to know that this kind of pain is felt by others.
I realized last night that when I do get a positive, I might need to hide it from DH for a couple of months until the scary early stage is over LOL, but seriously, I think it will completely crush him if anything would happen again. He will definitely not be the same person I knew. If he managed to keep a "manly" face on for this long, it's slowly starting to come apart. It hurts me so much to see him this way. I feel like we're both broken.
