Oh Nat, you are braver than me, I couldn't bare to see my mum after she passed, I did briefly but she didn't look peaceful and I didn't want to see her again. The funeral will be easier than you think, I found being surrounded by people helped, surprised me that we even laughed at the wake talking about her. It's the time after I found hard. I know how terribly hard it is right now, but I 100% promise it will get easier and you will get through this. I know being pregnant is going to be tough, to go through it without your mum's support, I fell pregnant 3 months after I lost my mum, he was born November 2010 and I lost my mum November 2009...felt like he was sent to me to make me happy again. Silly thought I know. I still get sad but having my boy has brought so much love and happiness to my life, he's made it all more bearable.
No not trying this month, my son has been in hospital again, no idea if I've ovulated or not, Will just wait and see when my period arrives. With my son being in hospital again I just wonder if we can cope with another. Starting to think we should stick with one.
How is your pregnancy going? Xx