I agree it's too early. If the witch stays away I will be testing on Sat, cd28 and I will be 12dpo...I hope she stays away this time!
Hi Everyone..
So sorry for the delay.. I was caught talking with the Dr, and then the nurse and it took like an hour, then I had to call my mom, and ahhh.. its been crazy busy here since I found out just after 3.
So it was a BFNThe Dr called me himself to tell me the news. So that is kinda sad. I'm surprisingly OK though. I knew it would be negative.
So then the nurse called me a few minutes later and she wanted to tell me that they were changing the protocol. So we had to discuss that. This one I will be on BCP (birth control pills) then a drug called Lupron for 10 -14 days, then we will stim for 10 and then poof I will have eggs. So the whole process takes like a month or 2. So I think they want me to start the BCP like this month? IDK. I have an Appt with the Dr tomorrow at 11:30 to discuss. I also am hoping for a bigger discount on the costs. She mentioned that with this protocol I will be able to get the drugs 1/2 price from the company in England, so that is a huge help (like 2500 instead of 5000). So if they discount their fees and with that discount, and they owe me some money because they didn't do the hatching ($550), it will be cheaper next time. We will discuss the price of it all tomorrow as well.
Sorry again for keeping you in suspense, I just didn't have the opportunity to get on bnb!
to all of you who were anxiously waiting! Thanks for being there for me through all of this!!!!
Bah humbug 
I'm so sorry you are having to deal with that. Sometimes that munch bug 
can sneak in and it doesn't matter what you are SUPPOSED to do, you end up doing what you WANT to do...no matter how wrong it is. I'm not defending your DH 
...I just know how it is...sometimes I get that way during the dieting process of competition. Well, I guess he will just have to do the chores 
laundry:
) for a while after babes is born! He wont have a choice. You just sit back and relax and MILK it (both ways...nursing too! )
O my hell, I am steamed this morning! So I go out yesterday and I spend a freaking mint on enough pre-made type breakfasts to last just maybe 2 days for after babes is born--so I don't have to bust my a$$ cooking, right?? I bag it tight, wrap it, and write on it "for after the baby is born" and tied it tightly. Well I spoke to dh about it and said "this is not for snacking- this is for after babes is born so I won't have to jump so high every morning". And he agreed it was a good idea. Well, this morning I get up and he has already started it! He ripped the bag to shreds in the freezer and started eating those meals already. I am not against anyone eating of they are hungry but these were expressly set aside
If it gets ripped open again I am going to take what is left and return it to the store. Period.
I can't spend that kind of money on simple snacking, it had a much bigger purpose. So anyway I woke up bright and happy but I am now very much p'd off this morning just for the lack of thought, caring, consideration, etc. *sigh.* So is dh going to fix my f'ing food after I spend hours in excruciating pain, agony, and literally pints of blood and sweat to produce a child? Nope. Plus, everyone is hungry so I had to fix breakfast ANYWAYS! WTF is that?!
and am slightly ashamed of myself now for having done so 
There are so many BIGGER problems in the world iykwim. I am so thankful God has provided for us like He has and I shouldn't say anything negative about a family member divulging ina portion of it. Dh may just have to skip breakfast for one day or cook it himself 
No big deal.
It's my own fault for trying to be prepared and leaving stuff available Oh wells, right? No biggy....like I said I am ashamed of myself for ranting !!
Plus, as if that isn't enough, during his military service there were 3 men that pull knives on him...he was split from his left side all the way across (and through) his stocmache to the right side twice! He went all military mode on them of course and they ended up looking like something out of a terminator movie! The one guy his arms were only left attached by some skin (sorry, tmi) ...my dh went all Bruce Willis on them and simply returned and sewed himself up! His intestines were coming out 
and he had to sew innner and outer layers of tissue Anyway, my dh is one of the toughest men I have ever met and he's been through hell and back physically. His disability sort of consists of a combination of all of that together...but was intially caused from injuries gained through service yeah. WOW! Long answer- sorry! lol
my hero! 
, besides being very muscular with a gorgeous chest (ahem) is all criss-crossed with scars and did I mention he has been shot about 3-4 times close range? Yeah. That too 
You have to agonize with the rest of us! Mine have been like that forEVER! Aaargh! Btw I think it's awesome your community has a home school sports! My little girl would love that she is into all kinds of sports but this town is so freaking prejudice...She tells me "too bad they won't let me play just 'cause I'm a girl!" Nuts! Crazy town, I am going to keep looking though. There aren't too many homeschooled kids in the immediate are so hard to get things started. And no $550 is a good deal! I used to travel a lot before getting married and it can be darned expensive! - I think the two of you can handle it. If your dh doesn't see the wrong of what he's done now then he never will no matter who is there to spell it out for him. And you shouldn't be made to suffer through his self-inflicted punishments like guilt, financial burdens, etc. So I think it's best to just follow your heart and do what feels right no matter how his FIL tries to make you out to be the "inflictor" or "punisher" he may feel obligated to protect his son, and I can understand that, but baby boy is a grown man now! Wow, so much for you to deal with when you should just be focusing on yourself, your health, and that bright new life ready to enter the world! And thanks for the due date prediction! I am hoping she comes sooner than that but if not 39 weeks is just a few days away!
Jess-
Yes, his disability is associated with his military work...he was involved in many things for the military and some of it is very discreet iykwim, but he gained a huge injury from military involvment years ago that led to another injury that led to the disability he has now. Plus the treatments he underwent for the first few injuries the medicines gave him diabetes and cancer- both of which has beaten his body to the point where doctors are saying he can't get better. He had 4th stage non-Hodgkins lymphoma also and doc said he'd live only for two weeks- but God healed him! The doctor admitted it was amiracle as the tumors (spread thorughout his brain, heart, and body) were inoperable. He was paralyzed from the waist down and his entire left side for a long time but he fought it hard and managed into a wheel chair, then on to a cain, now without the cane he can walk but with extreme pain always. The nerves in his legs and arms have been stripped of their sheath so he's in extreme pain there all the time too. He actually died once on the table at the hospital and they had to revive him
My dh...he has an awesome looking torso btw
Jess-
Yes, his disability is associated with his military work...he was involved in many things for the military and some of it is very discreet iykwim, but he gained a huge injury from military involvment years ago that led to another injury that led to the disability he has now. Plus the treatments he underwent for the first few injuries the medicines gave him diabetes and cancer- both of which has beaten his body to the point where doctors are saying he can't get better. He had 4th stage non-Hodgkins lymphoma also and doc said he'd live only for two weeks- but God healed him! The doctor admitted it was amiracle as the tumors (spread thorughout his brain, heart, and body) were inoperable. He was paralyzed from the waist down and his entire left side for a long time but he fought it hard and managed into a wheel chair, then on to a cain, now without the cane he can walk but with extreme pain always. The nerves in his legs and arms have been stripped of their sheath so he's in extreme pain there all the time too. He actually died once on the table at the hospital and they had to revive him
My dh...he has an awesome looking torso btw
Baby- are you sure it's AF coming? Your temp dipped a tiny bit but is still nice and high and there are variables that can affect it minimally...personally I don't think your chart is saying AF at all at this point- usually it will drop a full degree or more when that happens. And no, I cannot put you in a coma for the 2WW!
TwoToGo- I hate itchy boobs!
Ali- wow, I am glad you are flying! I think I posted that question last night actually, I kept thinking time wise it'd be so much simpler
Phil- wow, I hate visits like that! Like putting you under a spotlight and making you look and feel as though you are the one to blame for it all. That is not the case, I know that. And yeah- your dh really sure have stepped up and said "look, we both wanted to get married and having a baby was a choice we both made". Here's the deal though- your FIL made it easy for your dh to view this whole situation from a different perspective, from a perspective that says he does not have to take responsibility again. For someone who has the weakness to give in to personal self-assuaging addictions like porn and gambling it is an easy strike. Really, in my opinion- and it's just mine
His body is a mess of battle scars, plus as an Oglala Lakota Sioux he performed the sundance 10 times (ten years in a row) which is a traditional practice of piercing the chest (and sometimes back) with either eagle bones or sharpened antlers, raw hide is inserted through the open wounds and the man is suspended fromt he rawhide hanging on a tree until his skin brakes . This can take days for the skin to brake Anyway after God healed him from his cancer he did this 10 years in a row so his chest and back is also covered in those scars...Has anyone seen the old movie "A Man Called Horse?" They performed a similar ceremony in that. This ceremony is performed after a period of like 10 days fasting. So yeah, he's been through a lot which is why I feel chidlish complaining!
which is the worst part in my book. *sigh* Go ahead and go an anxious nut!
Baby- lo, a coma? Will that help? Yes it would! Just to go deep sleep until 2WW is over would be awesome! All ttc women should be given that! It is so hard to tell, there are no absolutes in symptom spotting that couldn't possibly be attributed to something else always
Oh yeah, acupuncture...yep, he's tried it. Now he uses a combination of meds (which he has seriously reduced despite his doctor's protests) and meditation. He learned meditation through the martial arts and says that helps some.
Tomorrow is Wed and should be an easy day and I am aiming for 1/2 of Thursday off and all of Friday with maybe just a meeting if I can't schedule it Thursday.. Oh witch, please stay far away, we will reconvene in a year or so!
