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[never_give_up]

Phew! I just finished taking down the artificial Christmas tree and decorations. I know it's late and I usually I take it down on the 5th Jan but I wanted to keep it a bit longer. I feel sad when the holidays are over. Dh took all the outside lights down over the weekend. I will miss turning on all the lights. While taking down the tree I always thank God and ask him to keep dh and I healthy and that we will both be alive to spend another Christmas together next year. I also pray that next time we put it up I will be pregnant. Maybe I need to stop doing that since I never used to feel so sad about the holidays being over when I lived in Barbados.

 

[alicatt]

Phew! I just finished taking down the artificial Christmas tree and decorations. I know it's late and I usually I take it down on the 5th Jan but I wanted to keep it a bit longer. I feel sad when the holidays are over. Dh took all the outside lights down over the weekend. I will miss turning on all the lights. While taking down the tree I always thank God and ask him to keep dh and I healthy and that we will both be alive to spend another Christmas together next year. I also pray that next time we put it up I will be pregnant. Maybe I need to stop doing that since I never used to feel so sad about the holidays being over when I lived in Barbados.

AWW.. We took ours down early before my brother went home so he could help! I just can't bring myself to take the wreaths off the door. I know I should have done it on the 5th, but I just didn't want to! I will probably do it tonight. It is just sad when another season is over. We spend so much time prepping for it, and I feel like it is over in the blink of an eye!

I think you should keep saying those prayers, and maybe this year you will have a baby in your belly if not in your arms!

 

[Grey Eyes]

Hi ladies!!

Andra- I am glad you are feeling some better--I agree, being stuck in sub-zero temps, all alone with no transportation sucks! I would fel rotten too...and p'd off at everyone...I know you work super hard and probably get taken for granted without folks realizing it (been thre ) I think you def need some self-treat....if you're like me there are no massage therapists in town, I don't drink in excess so that nips lol...but maybe schedule some "Demand Time" like a hot bath w/no knocks on the door, or maybe claim a week each month where the kids do all the dishes and meals?? You need a break lady!!

Ali- how are you feeling? Headache gone away?

Phil- perk perk perk O my gosh, I've been there! Hang on it'll be over soon and you'll be rocking your babes I became firmly convinced nothing could start labour but mother nature...hey! What about that foot massage you told me about???

Chantil (?sp)- sounds like you would LOVE to go back to Barbados! I have never been there but it sounds awesome I would love to go! Does it seem like home to you still?

Babywhisperer- I hope you are starting to lock this crazy flu!!

Jess- we miss you on here!!

Terri- gonna go stalk your chart gorl How are ya?

Samsfan- hang in there! It will all get sorted, I agree with Ali...you'll get some answers and pretty soon

Babydust, Alin, Angel, JandK, Marathongirl,--ladeez!!

 

[alicatt]

Hi ladies!!

Andra- I am glad you are feeling some better--I agree, being stuck in sub-zero temps, all alone with no transportation sucks! I would fel rotten too...and p'd off at everyone...I know you work super hard and probably get taken for granted without folks realizing it (been thre ) I think you def need some self-treat....if you're like me there are no massage therapists in town, I don't drink in excess so that nips lol...but maybe schedule some "Demand Time" like a hot bath w/no knocks on the door, or maybe claim a week each month where the kids do all the dishes and meals?? You need a break lady!!

I second that.. Welcome back! I hope your head is back in the right place, and you are feeling more positive! Being all alone in when you are used to being with the family can be hard. Especially when you are in the middle of no where without a car! I'm sure you wouldn't have minded so much if you were on a Caribbean island sipping a rum punch!

 

[TerriLou]

Hey Ladies,

Well, i've finished my days work and in 30 minutes, I'll be popping out to my first Weight Watchers meeting. Here's hoping this is going to work this year. My friend sent me a message earlier about going to Zumba on Thursday, so its on. I just now need to speak to my friend about going swimming Tuesdays and Fridays and I'll be back in the swing onf it.

Bring on 2013, I'm going to get fitter and grow a baby!

The Doctors appointment still seems ages away, its 2 weeks today. I'll also be going to see a Clairvoyant that day. My friend and I have seen her lots of times, we'll be in a room with about 60 others, so have only each received one message. Mine was to get the blood loss checked out. It was about 2 weeks after my miscarriage, so I knew what it was, but she knew about the scars I have from my Gall Bladder surgery and a few other things. She told me the baby was a girl and that she would come back to me in the future. She's really good.

Twotogo, welcome back! Hopefully you're not feeling so alone now, you can always pop on here for a chat, there's usually someone on to talk to.

Ali, your hair looks great. I have to dye mine too, the greys come through quicker and quicker now. As the back of mine is really short now, its left natural, but the greys are showing through there loads too. I may have to change to doing a full head colour, rather than the highlights. There are some good dyes out there now that are very multi-tonal, so maybe I should give something a try, like you say, its much cheaper. The hairdressers I go to are really expensive, but they are good.

Phil, any news yet? My friend had her baby in the early hours of this morning, he came about a week early, but was 8.5 lbs. Her last one came 8 weeks early and was 4.5 lbs, so she seems to make quite big babies. Hopefully today will be the day for you too. xx

 

[Grey Eyes]

AFM- well, it is sort of our family tradition to take family photos every year in front of the Christmas tree...but for the last couple of years it has taken forEVER for me to get that organized, people together, etc...I'll be all set and dh will say something to the effect "not today" or "maybe this evening?" Then this evening roll right on past...well, needless to say last year I waited, and waited....and waited. FINALLY we got our pics taken.

In March.

lol! I know! So I am not waiting around 3 months with that crazy tree plugging up my living room. Not with 2 very rambunctious kids, one huge reclyner...etc. I need my space back! So I think I will take it down today. I am not seeing dh making anymoves to get ready for pics so I'm gonna take it down. But then I agonize...this is Aeryn's first Christmas! Maybe I'll just prop everyone up in front and not care if they are half asleep or still in their pj's....or wild hair! lol

I think I have enough wood cut for the day and I start school again today lol! I am considering having my academic instructor just hit me with the hard stuff now as I am getting bored with easy school assignment...I want my hard core criminology back lol

So my "trial" on the 9th has been changed to a "hearing"...I wonder what that means exactly?

 

[alicatt]

AFM- well, it is sort of our family tradition to take family photos every year in front of the Christmas tree...but for the last couple of years it has taken forEVER for me to get that organized, people together, etc...I'll be all set and dh will say something to the effect "not today" or "maybe this evening?" Then this evening roll right on past...well, needless to say last year I waited, and waited....and waited. FINALLY we got our pics taken.

In March.

lol! I know! So I am not waiting around 3 months with that crazy tree plugging up my living room. Not with 2 very rambunctious kids, one huge reclyner...etc. I need my space back! So I think I will take it down today. I am not seeing dh making anymoves to get ready for pics so I'm gonna take it down. But then I agonize...this is Aeryn's first Christmas! Maybe I'll just prop everyone up in front and not care if they are half asleep or still in their pj's....or wild hair! lol

I think I have enough wood cut for the day and I start school again today lol! I am considering having my academic instructor just hit me with the hard stuff now as I am getting bored with easy school assignment...I want my hard core criminology back lol

So my "trial" on the 9th has been changed to a "hearing"...I wonder what that means exactly?

Make sure you take the picture. It is a tradition, and you have to keep it up! Your kids will thank you for it later. Plus you will love to look back at them in the future too. So make your DH sit there, and the kids too. If they look bedraggled, then so what? You can look back at it and laugh

I'm feeling crumby again. Headache is back and the weather is icky. Cloudy and rainy. Plus I think I could sleep for a year! It is just one of those days. I'm supposed to be working on an issue and its driving me bonkers. So hopefully I can figure it out? Plus people keep interrupting me with work questions. Having trouble focusing!

 

[Grey Eyes]

I'm sure you wouldn't have minded so much if you were on a Caribbean island sipping a rum punch!

Damn! I'd enjoy that, I'll take that one!

... ... ... ....YES.

 

[alicatt]

I'm sure you wouldn't have minded so much if you were on a Caribbean island sipping a rum punch!

Damn! I'd enjoy that, I'll take that one!

... ... ... ....YES.

I'm with you! Maybe we should all go on a cruise . Leave all our children and dogs and TTC woes behind and just go party our off!

 

[JenSC]

Phil, I seriously got butterflies reading how close you are! I am excited for you! January is a good month for a birthday.

I am hoping some of you ladies have some feedback on this: I used to use Accuclear opks, which was the brand that helped me determine I was not ovulating. Since going on Clomid, I have used equate brand. On Saturday, I peed in a cup (I am more comfortable doing it that way then directly on the stick because I worry I will not get enough on the stick for a valid test) and then dipped the equate stick into the cup. I got a positive, as I had been expecting/hoping. For some reason, I thought "I want to finally see an Accuclear test turn positive!" (Stupid, I know.) I had one left, so I dipped it and it was negative, though as close to being positive as I had ever seen. I got a positive the next day (Sunday) as well, with an equate test. Does anyone know why one brand would be positive and one negative? Has anyone used either of these specific brands before? My husband and I did the deed on Saturday, but he was too ill yesterday. Ahhhhh! It is so frustrating! I was a little mean to him, which I felt bad about, but this is the second month that he has been too sick to, uh, salute the flag, at the critical time! Both of the months I have taken Clomid have encountered this problem. I feel like "damn, I am going through all this nausea and headache hell with Clomid, and your part is just to have sex and you can't do it!"

 

[JenSC]

I'm sure you wouldn't have minded so much if you were on a Caribbean island sipping a rum punch!

Damn! I'd enjoy that, I'll take that one!

... ... ... ....YES.

I'm with you! Maybe we should all go on a cruise . Leave all our children and dogs and TTC woes behind and just go party our off!

Ali, you are a genius! Leaving the TTC garbage behind would be the best. No one understands except those who have been through it. I have periodic thoughts of "forget this! I am deciding I do not want to do this!" Then the reality that I do want this and am therefore trapped in TTC hell sinks in... I am embarrassed to admit this first part, but my husband and I were watching Khloe and Lamar Odum's reality show (my husband has a man crush on Lamar) and Khloe found out she has been unable to get pregnant because she doesn't ovulate. She started crying and said "who doesn't ovulate?" I said "well, me." My husband, Greg, said "you should write to her. I am sure her publicist would froward the letter." Bless his heart, he was serious!

 

[JenSC]

Hi all. Sorry I've been 'missing in action' and when I say action, I mean any action. For some reason, over the last few weeks I totally shut down. Emotionally and physically. I completely flat-lined and withdrew from almost everything and everyone. Of course, that was easy to do since my family was out of town, and I was home alone for 8 days, without a vehicle, during sub-zero temps, and in a village that has almost nothing. That will never happen again! I also gained about 3-4 pounds during that time. I've lost 2 of them, though. I was in a total dead funk.

One thing that helped me out of it (and some of my self-pity) was on New Years Day, I was headed up the hill to our gas station to grab something to eat and one of the ladies from our church picked me up and took me to her mother's house. We spent the afternoon playing Skip-Bo and laughing. The mother has lost an eye, a breast, thyroid, and her husband to cancer, and yet she has a cheerful outlook on life. Really made me stop and think.... and be very thankful.

The other thing that helped was I sought out professional help. Last Friday I spent about an hour with a therapist. I came out of the office in a much better frame of mind.

I would like to say that I'm going to go back and catch up on everything, but I think I will just try to pick back up at this point. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and New Year!

-Andra

Hi Andra,
I am sorry for the late reply; I missed your post when you made it. Anyway, I understand EXACTLY where you are coming from. I did the same thing. I just overloaded with TTC stress. It is hard because, normally, if I want something, I work to make it happen: law school, career stuff, etc. Now, I have so little control. I can be- and have been- proactive and have seen a doctor, but in the end, it isn't up to any of us. It is just up to nature, and it is hard to be patient and wonder if things will be okay. I am so glad you are feeling better! I just wanted you to know I understand how you feel completely. My best to you.

 

[never_give_up]

Ali- I was going to continue the prayer just not the wishing to be pregnant part. Dh is starting a new job next week so I have to put FS visit on hold for now while I find out what is covered with new ins. I'm sorry you are having bad headaches. It happens after ivf meds. My ovulation was cd 17 instead of 14 too. Cycle was messed up but acupuncture put it back on track. Are you still doing acupuncture?

Coy- I lived in Barbados for 28 years so yes it will always be home.
I left Canada when I was 6 years old so when people ask me all about the history and stuff I can't tell them very much lol A hearing is shorter and less formal than a trial so I guess that is good right?
I think Ali is right just take a quick Holiday photo in front of your tree before you take it down Especially since it was Aeryn's first Christmas
Oh and you were close, it's Chantal.

Terrilou- That is cool that the clairvoyant was so accurate. Must have felt good to know you have a daughter waiting for you in heaven. In January I always think the same thing since I got my January 26th 2010. I always wonder if maybe the same baby will try to come back to us. Dh dreamt about a little girl a few days before I got my bfp and he said he hardly remembers his dream. He was so sure that I would have a girl.

 

[never_give_up]

Hello JenSC
I have never used Accuclear opk but I have noticed that too that some brands dont work as well as other. The cheap test strips seem to work best for me. I buy them from Amazon. I see the line getting gradually darker till it is as dark as the control line.
I can relate to what you said about ttcing. When we did ivf I couldnt get dh out of bed the morning of the transfer. (he is NOT a morning person) He was whining about feeling pressured to give up the treasure . I put on sexy lingerie etc. In the end there was spillage and we were a bit late. The second ivf cycle I asked for one of those special condoms so it was a breeze for him but then I was a nervous wreck having to use the pipette to transfer it all into the sterile container while he was relaxing taking a shower! I was so scared to damage the
I thought the same thing as you. I go through all the meds and daily ultrasounds and he only has this one thing do! Men are such babies!!

 

[JenSC]

Hello JenSC
I have never used Accuclear opk but I have noticed that too that some brands dont work as well as other. The cheap test strips seem to work best for me. I buy them from Amazon. I see the line getting gradually darker till it is as dark as the control line.
I can relate to what you said about ttcing. When we did ivf I couldnt get dh out of bed the morning of the transfer. (he is NOT a morning person) He was whining about feeling pressured to give up the treasure . I put on sexy lingerie etc. In the end there was spillage and we were a bit late. The second ivf cycle I asked for one of those special condoms so it was a breeze for him but then I was a nervous wreck having to use the pipette to transfer it all into the sterile container while he was relaxing taking a shower! I was so scared to damage the
I thought the same thing as you. I go through all the meds and daily ultrasounds and he only has this one thing do! Men are such babies!!

They are, aren't they? If men had to give birth, no couple would EVER have more than one child. The human race would die out. I have had numerous doctors and nurses tell me that women have much higher pain tolerances than do men. No kidding.

 

[Grey Eyes]

I am loving this conversation! lol....."men are such babies" lol. Labor pain is - or can be- pretty darned intense! I was so happy to have dh in the room for all 3 of my labors but 1 day he was going on about how doc did this and dh did that and how I was making a lot of racket, etc, and I sort of "put him straight" about who really had the babies! lol! Ahem...ME.

Gotta admit tho my dh has a pretty high pain tolerance and has pain 24/7 which sucks He's my hero

 

[twotogo]

Phil, I seriously got butterflies reading how close you are! I am excited for you! January is a good month for a birthday.

I am hoping some of you ladies have some feedback on this: I used to use Accuclear opks, which was the brand that helped me determine I was not ovulating. Since going on Clomid, I have used equate brand. On Saturday, I peed in a cup (I am more comfortable doing it that way then directly on the stick because I worry I will not get enough on the stick for a valid test) and then dipped the equate stick into the cup. I got a positive, as I had been expecting/hoping. For some reason, I thought "I want to finally see an Accuclear test turn positive!" (Stupid, I know.) I had one left, so I dipped it and it was negative, though as close to being positive as I had ever seen. I got a positive the next day (Sunday) as well, with an equate test. Does anyone know why one brand would be positive and one negative? Has anyone used either of these specific brands before? My husband and I did the deed on Saturday, but he was too ill yesterday. Ahhhhh! It is so frustrating! I was a little mean to him, which I felt bad about, but this is the second month that he has been too sick to, uh, salute the flag, at the critical time! Both of the months I have taken Clomid have encountered this problem. I feel like "damn, I am going through all this nausea and headache hell with Clomid, and your part is just to have sex and you can't do it!"

Jen, I have used the equate brand and had good luck with them. I actually liked them much, much better than the IC's.

 

[Samsfan]

So I'm away for 24 hours and it seems this place has been real busy.

Twotogo- I'm sorry you feel that way. It is always good to talk to someone. I always find it interesting how different our lives are all over the world. I had 80 cases today, a hearing and a doctors appointment. I often pray to have a week alone without anyone to talk to, but I'm sure if that ever happened I would find the silence deafening. Nurturing ourselves is always key. Exercising, hot baths (like Coy suggested), reading self help books or motivational books. It will happen.. This stuff if the most frustrating stuff ever, because we will never get a definitive answer until it happens. Please don't ever feel alone. You have us and if you ever feel like disconnecting know that you can reach out to any one of us for a talk... café over the internet???

Never- Interesting this morning in the shower, I thought about how nice it would live in a "vacation spot", Barbardos and how you managed to get there. Sounds wonderful

Coy- Nice, cut wood!!! That sounds very interesting to me.. I love getting out into the woods.

Phil- the suspense... and don't feel in the middle... your mom is there because she is very excited for you!
I have to reread the posts to catch up..
But had my sonogram--- I have a normal uterus!!!!! I don't think they are going to be able to do a cycle of IUI this month... So I'm gonna try again. I have a trip to Florida scheduled next month, so I guess IUI or IVF is out of the question? All is normal and next I have an endocrinologist appointment for Friday, only because he said to see him if I ever wanted to get pregnant. I have a prolactinoma that has been inactive since 1996. We just have to keep an eye on it. So Ladies... that is my purge for the day. I have been running a million miles a minute today and I need to unwind!!!!! With this full uterus, I don't know if I can bo...yabababdabadooo.

 

[Grey Eyes]

Andra- Looking at your chart it looks like you ov'd on the 5th or 6th...maybe 2morro get your crosshairs That's always fun (not sure why) lol...and looks like you bdjust right..I can't get all my info to show on my chart for you all to view...it comes up for me but when I click mylink it's not there!? ...

 

[Samsfan]

Btw--- all my Christmas decorations are still up.. my tree.. stuff outside... with this schedule its not coming down until Easter!