My 2 biggest issues....
1. The fear of not knowing what the future will hold. I'm terrified that something is wrong. For some reason I have ALWAYS thought I would have trouble having kids. And now, slowly, it is becoming reality. What may be wrong??? Is it fixable??? If it is, can I afford to fix it??? Treatments are SO costly and not covered by insurance. If not, can I afford to adopt??? Will I ever be able to know what it is like to be pg?? Will my OH? Will I deny that to him, too??? Is this the one thing in life I am fated to fail at completely??
2. I agree with Bluey and MayMay totally -- lack of control and roll of the dice. I always laugh when you read your chances of concieving depend (in part) on how long you've been trying. WRONG! A basic stat course teaches it doesn't matter how many times you roll that dice, the chances off getting that 6 is the SAME every time, forever. I've always been the type that as soon as I decide to do something, I do immediately and well (can you say Type A?!?!) This I can't. It's weird.
All the rude, insenstive comments is one reason why my OH and I haven't told hardly ANYone that were are TTC. Only a couple of trusted and close family members who are sensitive to what we are going through.
to EVERYone on this difficult road! At least we have each other!!