What is wrong with me????

[MrsRM]

Hello All
I am new to this site but check in here regularly for info etc. My DH and I have been actively TTC for over 6 months now. I am feeling incredibly low and emotional since getting my BFN this month, althoiugh not actually got AF yet although im cramping, so i assume that it is near. I was so so hopeful...i did EVERYTHING right this month we BD'd on all the right days, i have been looking after myself really well and its all for nothing, i feel so upset and just can't stop crying. My DH has been wonderful to me but its Xmas Day tomorrow and all i want to do is hide away and cry.

I feel that there must be something wrong with me. Many years ago i had an infection which can cause damage and although i had it treated i can't stop thinking that this is affecting me. I need answers as to what is wrong with me??? I can't take this any longer! Its making me depressed and withdrawn and all i can think is that something is wrong. So many ppl i know seem to be getting pregnant at the drop of a hat! Im soooo jealous and i hate this feeling!! Can anyone offer any advice....support or hope in my time of despair. Many thanks for letting me rant.

Lots of Love and Baby Dust PLEASE (across the TTC world)! xxxx

 

[kalou1972]

Hey chic...we're pretty much all in the same boat here so take advice that you are not on your own !!

Yeah ....i have two friends who have concieved and actually had their kids in the time we've been trying !!

You dont say how old you are ......I'm 37 and have been trying for a year. Sayiong that i haev only been on here and temping etc for a couple of months. This is my first ,....of getting it right!! I now know when i ovulate !! Woo hoo....no wonder i wasnt getting anywhere !!

Bear in mind if you were on the cp then it can sometimes take a while to get out yopur system.

Its xmas chic.....enjoy it as much as you can.....hopefully next year will be ammaazzing for all of us !!

Have a good one xxxx....and love that husband of yours !! we really have to be thankful for what we have ( ....my god !! you can tell i'm feeling festive....sound like a religious nut !!!)

Seriously chic up chic....things'll get better xxxx

 

[MrsRM]

Many thanks hun. I never knew this would be so hard, you try most of your life to avoid it and then realise its not as easy as you hoped it would be. Im 25 and my lovely hubby is 28 so we have age on our side. I feel so worried at the mo...i just don't know where to put myself. I had so much wanted the BFP by xmas...oh well! Lets hope for Baby Dust a aplenty in 2010. Much love and a happy xmas to you xxxx

 

[Stacey_89]

Hey hun sorry your feeling like this
I know how hard it is, Iv been trying for 7months now since my loss and no luck! starting to think the MC has ruined my body.

But just wanted to tell you that last time when we was TTC i had an infection that i did not know about and i still concieved after 5months of trying. I actualy found out when i went to see the MW and she did a blood test for any infections.

I think you need to have an infection for a very long time for it to do any damage.
but just to ease your mind maybe visit the doctor and have a chat about your concerns

Good luck

 

[MrsRM]

Hello Stacey
So sorry to hear of your loss...thank you for your advice. Some times i think i am being erratic other times i just feel that there needs to be an explantion for this!?

Im thinking that i will go to the docs even though im sure they will not do anything for me.

Thanks kindly and baby dust hun to you lots xxx

 

[Nise]

Hi MrsRM, I'm sorry you're feeling so low and I completely understand your frustrations and worries. I think that's something we all go through.

The very least the Doctor can do for you is order some bloods to do on various days of your cycle (CD3 for FSH and various other sex hormones) and (CD21 or mid Luteal Phase bloods to check progesterone). These will give you a good idea if there are any areas you need to work at. Depending on the results you could ask your Doctor to refer you to a Fertility Specialist or Gynae - but they probably won't do many other tests until your OH has a sperm test as this is the easiest and non painful thing to get checked out before taking things further for you.

Most of us on here chart our basal body temps and cervical fluids each day to get a good idea of how our cycles work. Good luck, hun. I'm sure it's just a matter of time for you and you'll get your bfp before to much longer. Keep the PMA up as happy hormones are much more useful than stressy ones for ttc. Let your hair down and have a good christmas.

 

[MrsRM]

Thank you so much you have all been so kind.

I have already had the 21 day prog test. And all i got back was that it was in 'normal range' whatever that means?! Im more concerned about the past infection that i had and that i may have damaged tubes or something like that. The fact that its effecting me emotionally, makes me feel like i really need to get some further advice. I just hope they listen to me...im so frustrated and stressed. I know i need to relax...im really trying hard.

Thank you again and happy xmas xxx

 

[TySonNMe]

Hi MrsRM...I understand your frustration and concern. I had the Pelvic inflammatory disease (PID) a few years back and was also very, very concerned about the effects that it could have on TTC. I spoke with my doctor about it when we decided to TTC. I was concerned with blocked and/or scarred tubes. After doing a lot of Google research, I feel much better as I have read that doctors can take a peek and attempt to open your tubes and/or remove some of the scar tissue. Another major concern for was ectopic pregnancy. The doctor agreed to see me ASAP after a BFP to make sure I wasn't having an ectopic pregnancy. Have you spoke to your doctor about your concerns?

Merry Christmas!!

 

[MrsRM]

Hey there hun,
Thanks for the encouragement i have decided i need to be more positive and believe that there is nothing wrong with me. However i still have a niggling feeling at the back of mind and still feel bitterly disappointed by the constant BFN's yet no AF, with the urge to cry at the drop of hat! But hey life must go on and we have to pick ourselves up again don't we?

Thanks again x