Wishing, wanting, waiting.....TTC for a year PLUS!

[tryforbaby2]

Lucie, I am sure I speak for everyone when I say this but "hooray!" for DH's masters in Education!!! I am so glad to hear you both are doing ok!!!

I am also Catholic, and I have mentioned this before but not sure you were here for it, but our religion strongly suggests NOT seeing a fertility specialist. They have said to me that any child conceived that way, is truly not a gift from God. I notice that people who are often very in tune with their religion all say to leave it up to God.

You are not wrong to be worried. Everyone is filled with advice. We can either nod politely and yes uh huh uh huh....or go off on them! Sometimes I do both!!!

My personal favorite is when people tell you 'everything happens for a reason' especially coming from someone with 3 children and a lovely lifestyle......blah......lol......mylifestyle isnt bad, but I would love to have more children.....My husband and I have been seriously (and quietly) considering adoption in the very near future.
We all want children made up of each of our genetic makeup but there are also so many beautiful children out there who have no one, no love or support.
In my perfect world, I'd have a few children of my own and adopt one or two children also.




Sorry emotions.........

 

[Titi]

Hi Girls,

Not much time to write but just wanted to tell you Lucie that I'm practicing Catholic too-deeply religious, I feel, a CCD teacher... you can pm me anytime you have questions or concerns or venting or anything-just so I don't impose religion into our thread.

I think the hardest thing is unsolicited advice, pity, suggestions, etc. DH & I told EVERYONE when we were ttc. We're older and it was no secret how much we wanted children and I was sick of everyone asking when we were going to start trying when we'd already BEEN trying and having no luck. I wish to GOD nobody knew anymore b/c I get tired of people asking such stupid things as if I'd ever "tried an opk" or something. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...

Anyway-I meant to say I can relate to how hard it is....esp. when other people you don't want to know find out. We were at a FUNERAL and DH's former next door neighbor started giving me all kinds of suggestions.......obviously his mom, who still lives next door took the liberty of telling her. I was so mad and at that point dh said that from now on when people start in on us we are going to say "I'm sorry but this is very personal and has become to painful for us to talk about".

On another note though-and this is my insanity speaking-I must say I was intrigued by the letter and it sounds hopeful!!!!!!!

I must admit-I've a very strong hunch lately that if I am capable of having children it won't truly happen until God's time. It's just a matter of stepping out of the way that is so hard. And "everything happens for a reason" does suck to hear, and I would never say those exact words to someone, but I do find some comfort in the fact that I've always been taken care of and everything really has worked out just as it should have.

 

[Moondance]

I'm 11dpo... 2 days til periods arrive.
I've done a couple pee sticks and gotten nothing... But at the same time, I'm curious.

At 8dpo I had very light spotting and thick, yellow cervical mucus, much like Honeybee said she had.
And last night, for no reason I could think of, my throat started hurting. By this morning, it had developed into full blown "you are sick". Cold/flu bug. Sore throat, sore head, coughing, alternating runny/blocked nose, feeling like overall crud. Just wanna sleep.
And now my friend who got pregnant on her second month of trying keeps saying "maybe its coz you're pregnant and you can catch stuff really easy in early pregnancy"
Like I need her saying that! Don't need to get my hopes up.

 

[Titi]

awwww Moon-I'm sorry you are sick but hope its because you are UTD!

 

[tryforbaby2]

Moon, when I was pregnant with our angel Jordan, I also had yellow cm...I would like to think thats because of the high amounts of progesterone, because even after I lost the baby and after the D&C, it was yellow until after my level of hcg dropped down to 0.
You just never know!
What days did you BD during your cycle???

Titi, In my heart I know things happen for a reason, but with my miscarriage, my fathers young and sudden death, the hard difficulties we had for years many years ago while I had a newborn (financially, emotionally, my husbands issue), my brothers suicide, my mom's drug use - prision - and attempted suicide....being shoved in foster homes......etc.....sometimes I just dont want to hear that things happen for a reason. Especially when you are trying for a family, so you can do much better than what was ever done for you.

Hmmmm? I wonder if I am pregnant! My emotions got be going!

Thanks for listening to me ramble titi......

 

[Moondance]

Moon, when I was pregnant with our angel Jordan, I also had yellow cm...I would like to think thats because of the high amounts of progesterone, because even after I lost the baby and after the D&C, it was yellow until after my level of hcg dropped down to 0.
You just never know!
What days did you BD during your cycle???

FF reckons I ovulated on Day 19. And I DTD on Day 16... Which I think might be too big a gap. So I'm not holding onto any kind of hope.
I'm waiting for AF...

I didn't temp yesterday or today, because of random factors (yesterday my friend Nat, who is staying with me, woke me up and she was right outside my door and I felt a bit uncomfortable sticking a thermometer in my vajajay while she was right there, and today, I woke up feeling sick and horrible and my sweety was in bed with me so I didn't have the temping stuff close by).


ETA: I am currently having some light cramping in the uterus however, so I fully expect the arrival of AF tomorrow or the next day.

 

[honeybee28]

Ahhhh I'm really sorry if I annoy/upset any of you when I say 'everything happens for a reason', i do seem to say it a lot. I personally like it, as i like to think that their is a path mapped out for me, and everything that happens is part of a bigger picture.
That said, I've had a very forunate life. There's been no serious illness in my family, and bar losing one grandparent, all my family are still alive. I think that perhaps if something traumatic happened, family illness etc to me, i would feel a little differently. That said, I believe if I do have a MC (im so scared that i will, 85% chance is so high), that it's simply because the embryo wasn't built right and would have been poorly if it had grown any more.

Moon, really hope you're having early pregnancy symptoms.

Julia I just love sharing your 2ww with you!! I love that you have a good feeling. Such a cute idea with the bib. I also love the idea of adopting for the same reason as you. I always criticised people like Angelina Jolie for going abroad to adopt, as i used to think that we have loads of homeless babies and didnt understand why she would want to specifically help ones in other countries. But i did research, and here in the UK there are no babies without homes, there are lists of people wanting to adopt that have to wait years, so i would totally go abroad to help a baby that wouldnt stand a chance otherwise.

Lucie, congrats to your dh. Glad he's doing well!

sorry for the long post!! I'm at home on a snow day so plenty of time on my hands!!xxxx

 

[Titi]

Titi, In my heart I know things happen for a reason, but with my miscarriage, my fathers young and sudden death, the hard difficulties we had for years many years ago while I had a newborn (financially, emotionally, my husbands issue), my brothers suicide, my mom's drug use - prision - and attempted suicide....being shoved in foster homes......etc.....sometimes I just dont want to hear that things happen for a reason. Especially when you are trying for a family, so you can do much better than what was ever done for you.

Hmmmm? I wonder if I am pregnant! My emotions got be going!

Thanks for listening to me ramble titi......

I'm always here to listen to you "ramble"! ...I know hun......it's quite one thing to maybe or maybe not believe things happen for a reason and quite another to have to hear it when you have been through such a time and can't possibly understand what that "reason" might be!!!!

That is what I struggle with the most when I get "mad" at God/the universe, etc......What is the REASON that people who don't even want/can't take care of/murder (etc.) their babies can get pg and I'm not worthy?

How are you holding up hun with everything else??

 

[tryforbaby2]

Ooooh Titi..... I understand exactly what you are saying.
I am not too bad, I had a little cry today thinking about my brother's death, as its one month already since he did it. I have heard that people in the family think his son should be taken away from his mother for being 'unfit' I suppose, and I couldnt help but think about taking him myself. Even though I dont want to be involved in that family issue. The baby,from what I see and hear, is being raised perfectly fine.

And as my due date draws near next month and the holidays belly-less, I just get alittle sad......thats all. I'll get over it.

Honeybee, everyone feels different on the way things happen. Like you guys said about being fortunate or not.....I just think I 'do' get mad at the universe (and Him). Thats why i need to start going to this women's group at my church......I just need a good solid cry and a 'logical' explanation of life.
My husband always tells me 'I think to much'......lol....I guess because I over-analyze almost everything......

FRER

 

[tryforbaby2]

Honeybee, you have such a good attitude about a possible mc.

Still praying for you.

 

[tryforbaby2]

Titi, you are very much worthy in my eyes. I think soon we will have to PM each other about our "R", because maybe we can just cry to each other and talk about it.

 

[honeybee28]

Thanks gorgeous. Still praying for your bfp, I so badly hope it happens before your due date.xxxxx

 

[Ejay]

Hiya gals

wow that is some deep conversations over the last couple of pages.

I am not religious but do have the belief that things happen for a reason, it's just that we don't always know the reason at the time. I always try to look for a positive out of every bad experience and try my best to move on and not carry all the negativity with me.

There are always times when life throws a spanner in the works and you get completely drawn into finding the spanner and trying to rationalize why it is there in the first place.

Anyway enough of the abstract analogies.

Honey - still thinking of you hun xx

Tryfor - really hoping it's a BFP for you x

Moon -

Titi - as tryfor says, you are very much worthy xx

 

[tryforbaby2]

All We Want for Christmas is a !

 

[tryforbaby2]

Ejay........thanks.




Honeybee, how are you today my dear???

Making breakfast for dinner tonight! Roast Beef Hash, Blueberry Wheat Pancakes (from a box....hehe!), fried eggs and toast, and maybe I'll whip up some homefries!

 

[Ejay]

Tryfor, mmmmm that sounds good. OH is out tonight so have ended up having a bowl of cereal for dinner and I am still feeling hungry

 

[bbdreams]

A poem I found that pretty much sums it all up.
Hope everyone is having a good day!
Tryfor- That sounds yummmm.


ODE TO INFERTILITY

‘Twas the night before your period and all through the house,
not a creature was stirring, not even your spouse.
The tampons were waiting in the bathroom with care,
in hopes that Aunt Flow would soon NOT be there.
Your future children were nestled, like dreams in your head,
while visions of cramps start to come before bed.
You’re sure you are pregnant, your breasts are so ripe,
you examine that toilet paper each time you wipe.
But you just might be pregnant, you have all the signs,
so why does this test never show those two lines?
And you cry on the floor until you are ill,
tomorrow you’ll refuse your prenatal pill.
“Come nausea, sore breasts, and frequent urination!”
“On weight gain, fatigue and then to lactation!”
We are getting impatient, our clocks start to tick,
but each month all we do is pee on that stick.
We know more about ovulation than our family doc,
so please fill our womb before our friends newborns can talk!
We thank all of our relatives for those sympathy hugs,
but we’ve spent our whole salary on fertility drugs.
Our spouse has more sex than his full teenage years,
but this time he’s not bragging to all of his peers.
So before our next cycle, lead us the fertile way,
Happy baby-making to all and keep periods at bay!

 

[Moondance]

Last night, I was sitting at the computer and I started getting really cold. So I put a jumper on. I then started getting hot and overheating. At about 1:45am I took my temperature (under my armpit and orally like they might at the doctors) and the thermometer went crazy.
Normal body temp is like...37-37.5
My temp was 38.35.

It was a horrible night of being sick. When I woke up at 4:45 this morning, I did my BBT, which was 37.11 ... so I don't think it counts because I have been sick. It looks funny as heck on my chart though. This massive WHUMP, upwards temp.

 

[SquirrelGirl]

Nice, bb!

 

[tryforbaby2]

Moon have you made note if you being sick on FF???.....Just to remember.
I am going to have a peak at your chart now......

BBdreams...I posted that in a few threads too! Jaimie posted it on facebook and I could not stop laughing!!! Made my day!

Alright girls.....tty all tomorrow......going to straighten up my kitchen, then relax.



Have a good night!