Worried and feeling silly

[Mallerm]

I've been on here before. I lost one baby in October 2012 and got pregnant again in April 2013, which resulted in a healthy baby girl born in January 2014. I recently fell pregnant again and I am such a ball of nerves. I literally worry all the time that something is going to go wrong and I am freaking out. I had extremely sore nipples for the last three-ish weeks and now they are gone. I have been feeling terribly nauseous but today I feel pretty good. I hate worrying this much. I don't want to stress out this entire pregnancy, but I feel like the ability to just be happy that I am pregnant does not exist for me. I know I would survive if something were bad, but I JUST DON'T WANT TO DO THAT AGAIN. Gah! Is anyone else feeling like this? I feel weird worrying about this pregnancy when I have such a beautiful and perfect living child right here with me.

 

[Kazy]

Hi there. I can totally relate. I have three healthy children and two recent losses and it's so hard to not panic. Try and take it one day at a time. I am a little better now (almost 14 weeks) but probably won't be past the nerves until I at least feel movement consistently. And honestly knowing myself I may find something else to worry about then. I try and remind myself too that I made it through before and I would HATE to go through it again God would give me the strength if it came to that. And I try and imagine holding this cutie pie and kissing it's toes and cheeks. that kind of helps too.
I don't have all the answers but wanted you to know you're not alone.

 

[Hopefulk]

I completely understand. I honestly thought a pregnancy after having my lg (two losses were before her) would be much easier in terms of the constant anxiety -I thought I would trust my body more and be so busy with dd that I'd almost
Forget I was pregnant most of the time so it would fly by. How wrong I was!

I think it's different when you have a baby already - you don't have the fear of never being a parent anymore but you do know what is at risk, you worry about the impact a loss could have on baby (will it pick up on my sadness? Will I be well enough - physically and emotionally - to look after lo or will I need help for a few days? Etc).as well as everything else.

So you aren't alone and are most definitely not weird!

When is your first scan? Hopefully that will help to settle your nerves.x

 

[KozmikKitten]

Hi there! You are definitely not alone or wrong in your feelings. It is so hard to stay positive after having a lost pregnancy. I, too, have a living child but still struggle daily with trying to remain positive. I'm sending you extra sticky thoughts for this pregnancy!