1 day DPO and in need of buddies :)

[confusedprego]

Kels - I don't mind talking about any of my miscarriages ever! It's therapeutic for me to be able to talk about it so ask away!! Honestly, I expected every day that I went to the bathroom to see blood but when it started it was pretty abrupt and there was no spotting, it just went straight to red and pretty heavy. I knew it was coming though because my pregnancy tests were getting lighter by that point and I just knew something was wrong. Now, with this pregnancy, I was very distant with it and I kind of still am honestly. I woke up really upset this morning because I had a dream I lost this pregnancy and I never had that this far along with Oakley. I've had this scared thought in the back of my mind this whole pregnancy that I'm going to lose it even though there is no reason for that to happen. I guess I thought the first MMC was a fluke before Oakley and so when I had the second MC it got to my head a bit more, I suppose and now the fear of loss isn't really going away - it's somewhere back in this head of mine! My only advice for you is to try to relax and just take it one day at a time. How far along do you think you are now?

Rach - Now that you're aware you're gaining too quick you'll do just fine! Don't cut out too much too quickly - if that baby kicks you when you're hungry - go eat!! Just make healthy decisions when you do eat You'll be fine!!

Gotta run! I'll post more later!

 

[korink26]

Thanks Lindsay how many weeks were you? I was 5 weeks yesterday.
And don't put any thought in that dream, it's because I've been asking you questions about miscarriage and that's why you dreamt it. Sorry-blame me! Little O is going to be just perfect!!

 

[CallMeAL1982]

Kels, I hope you're feeling better today!

My temp dipped again. Do you think it's possible I O'd? I'm feeling hopeless.

 

[confusedprego]

I was 5 weeks 4 days when the bleeding started. My tests were always pretty light - they darkened up a bit from week 4-5 but not like they should have and started lightening before even week 5. You can probably go back in the thread and find the pictures of them - my bleeding started Nov. 21st, so the week before that I think I was not sure what was going on. Keep thinking positive thoughts!! I think it's time to call the doc for you! and it's def not your fault I had the dream - I blame it on Big O because he woke me up at 4AM and I always have crazy off the wall dreams when he wakes me up lol

 

[confusedprego]

Alyssa - I was looking at your chart this morning and I still think you O'd - last time it took practically your whole luteal phase to convince me because of higher earlier temps but I do think you have. I'll be really interested to see what the doc says on the 21st! You could be doing pregnancy tests by then!

 

[babydust818]

Alyssa I still think you did too bcz your temp is still above your cover line.

Kelsey fyi I still check my toilet paper when I go to the bathroom. I'll never feel comfortable

 

[CallMeAL1982]

Thanks. I'm worried my temps are so low, and my luteal phase was so short last time. I wonder if the femara is lowering my progesterone...

 

[confusedprego]

Ok, so I know we've asked you about the "trigger shot" before and if your doc has mentioned it - it might be a fertility specialist that would do something like that. I was just googling femara and progesterone to see if there is anything out there about it and I found this post from someone (I don't know) and maybe it's something to mention to your doc on the 21st in case this cycle doesn't pan out:

"Day 3-8 Femara. Day 14 U/S had 1 follicle size 22! YEAH! HCG shot same night. Day 16 IUI and Day 18 IUI."

From the sounds of it they monitored her progesterone at each visit and put her on supplements following O (a day or two after the shot). The "trigger shot" we talk about is the hcg shot she talks about.

Just something to think about! Might make things a little more clear for you - my cousin did something similar to the schedule above too as she did IUI - she's pregnant now too by the way after 3 unsuccessful years - third trimester as of a week ago! I'm not saying I think you need IUI but the trigger shot might not be a bad idea for you

 

[korink26]

Alyssa I still think you O'd. My temps are always lowish compared to others---and my temps don't really reach their peak until like 5ish DPO. Keep the hope hun...I think you had mentioned the thought of not wanting to be referred to a specialist, but my sisters experience has been peaceful for her. She feels like they have a better grip on fertility and have more one on one time with her. Hopefully you won't even have to worry about going that route, but don't be afraid. (Only part that sucks is how expensive, but some insurances seem to cover some stuff).
Lindsay, I think every pregnant mother has a little nag in the back of their mind about losing their pregnancy. I was a little more at east later in pregnancy, but still wouldn't let myself be worry free. I always said I'll feel better when I know the baby is here and safe. then I had her, and my worries didn't end, just went to something else. It's hard to not worry when you read all the horror stories on the news and fb! Rach, I had so much CM that I was the biggest tp checker ever!
AFM--my tests are very dark, so I haven't tested again. Temp was lower today but I retook it 2 min. later and it was back to my regular. Just kept the lower one on my chart. I get hungrier much quicker, especially in the am and at night. I've been very headachy, which I was last pregnancy too---but i'm a headachy person no matter what. My first pregnancy my spotting started at exactly 7 weeks, so I guess I'll hold my breath until then. I feel positive, but yet I'm a glass half empty person (hate that about myself) so I keep knocking my positiveness down. Sorry to talk so much about myself, you girls keep me sane. This was pretty surprising to us, and we were in the process of looking for a nice house in the country. We've kind of halted that, because with 2 in daycare it will be over $1400/mo. Plus, I was supposed to do my 2nd half of training starting late fall---work will be very upset if I'm not able to complete it and I wouldn't be able to because I'd be out on maternity leave before it was over. So, I've kind of been telling myself, if it doesn't work out this time, it just wasn't our time...

 

[confusedprego]

Kels - don't worry about work - My boss is definitely not pleased I'm pregnant but it's not her decision. I can't tell you how many people told me to not get pregnant but THIS is life and you deserve to put yourself and your family first! It will probably be a little less smooth than you'd like and your work would like but they will work it out! Just be upfront and clear with what you want and are willing to do. All your symptoms sound great so far and your tests are dark so do your best to live in the moment and try to think positively!!

 

[BeachChica]

Hi girls,
Whew! I finally got caught up! Hope you moms and future mom's great mother's day!!! Sorry it's been so long, every time I sit down to try to catch up I get pulled away. Isabela is a handful during the day and when she's sleeping I am running around trying to get things done around the house! LOL! Still loving every minute of it and I wouldn't change it for the world! I will try to stay caught up now.

Sam - 30 weeks!!! You are almost there!! Wow! Have you decided on a name?

Rach - Happy 22 weeks!! Are you all registered? Let me know if you have any questions. Like Lindsay said, I love my changing table. Some people said I'd never use it but I use mine all the time. I also have the playpin with the changing table in it and use that at night. Isabela is sleeping in that now next to my bed but I may move her into her crib when I go back to work. For the carseat... I got the Graco Keyfit30 and City Mini GT stroller. LOVE my stroller!!! The carseat is a bit heavy but I knew that going into it. It had great reviews though and was compatible with the stroller I wanted. Have you settled on a name?

Lindsay - Happy 18 weeks! Yeah on Team Blue!!! Love the way you guys did the gender reveal!!! I think it's perfectly fine to do 2 babies with the same first letter, actually most of my friends have done that with their kids. I like the name Orion!

Alyssa - I hope you are doing ok! Hugs! You are in the right place, we have all been in this thread over 2 years and although most of us are in good places now, it took a LONG time and we've all been in the dumps in here. I've had 6 MC's myself and 4 years of TTC. It helps to talk to people who understand... we do! Also for me, it helped me stay positive to see people get their rainbow after so many struggles. It wasn't a negative for me. It helped me have faith that it would happen for me too.

Kels - so excited for you!!! Try to keep a PMA! ... and don't read your journal, every pregnancy is different!!! When do you go to the doctor?

Mar - How is life with Ariah?

It is crazy how long we've all been together on here and how much we've been through. So thankful for you girls! By the way, I vote for you to all move to Florida, remember, we have a boat... the kids would LOVE it!

AFM - time has been flying!!! I go back to work on June 16th. I thought I would have more time at home to do things but I have no idea where the day goes. Isabela is doing great, I just love staring at her, especially when she's sleeping! So happy to finally have her. BF is going OK. She is doing great at feeding but I'm still not producing enough, when I pump after a couple hours I get 1.5 oz on my left side but only .5 oz on the right and can't seem to increase it. The lactation specialist says that happens but I just can't get away from supplementing since she's up to about 4 oz per feeding. I was reading about some herbal pills that people take but my pediatrician didn't seem to keen on it. Anyone heard of these? Had my 6 week appointment last week and everything seems to be back to normal. Yeah!

 

[babydust818]

Jessie - what do you do when you don't produce enough? Sorry, i am curious because i want to BF too. Just don't know what i'd do if i didn't produce enough and need answers lol. I'm glad you have Isabela and am so happy you got to spend your first Mother's Day with her! She is so cute. You and Chris look so happy holding her I can only imagine how quick time has passed for you. Are you going to have your parents watch her while you're at work? Or daycare? I met a girl at my Dr office yesterday who had a 7 week old! She was a FTM too. She said the first month was rough and she averages 3hours of sleep at a time. I thought about Isabela because they're about the same age!


Sorry i didn't see your post Kelsey. That is great your tests are getting darker! I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. So don't you worry about your work. Everything is going to work itself out the way it's meant to! Just keep that positive attitude. Oh and we love hearing the things you're feeling. So don't ever feel sorry for telling us! We want to be here for you.

 

[BeachChica]

Rach - I'm not producing enough milk. Your body is supposed to adjust to your baby's needs. If both sides where producing like my left side I would probably be Ok but my right side is definitely lacking. I had breast augmentation about 12 years ago so that may be a factor for me. I am sure you will do fine.

 

[CallMeAL1982]

Thanks all... I appreciate your support more than you know!

Jess, I'm glad you're enjoying your time with Isabel! Wow, it's really flown... Can't believe you're going back to work so soon.

Rach, are you back to work today or Monday?

Linds, I like Oakley and Orion.

Temp was up again today... I woke up 45 min early and had to pee so it might have been even higher but I took my temp right when I woke up. Then I got to school and one of my kids was having a hard time, and I wound up crying for 20 minutes... So weepy! Maybe it's hormones...

 

[confusedprego]

Woohoo Alyssa!!!! I wrote you a post this morning and lost it because I lost signal - grr!! But I was SO excited to see your crosshairs and way to go on the BDing!! my goodness you must be wiped out!!! I thought Kirk and I BD a lot but man you take the cake!! haha I'm sorry you were crying this morning but that's a great sign Can't wait for you to start testing!!! eeeeee!!!!

Jess - I'm so sorry you're not producing enough milk - you could try pumping between feeds as well as after feeds to try to up it and when you're pumping to try to increase amounts - you really need to pump for like 20 minutes on each boob. I know this sounds like a lot because you're usually probably empty after 5 min but it really does help. This is probably how I ended up with such a massive overproduction because I pumped for 20-30 minutes on each boob every 2hrs for 48 hrs straight right after O was born and then I was stuck pumping every 2hrs because I'd overflow my 6 ounce bottles from each boob!! It was craziness! I will definitely try to let new baby G set the flow this time!!

 

[korink26]

Alyssa, not that I'm happy you cried, BUT, I'm loving it because I think it's a great sign that your hormones are doing what they should be! can't wait until your Dr. appt, did you say it's the 21st-ish???
Jess I bet the struggle with milk is due to the augmentation. I looked into a reduction for a milisecond, and I remember reading that it could prevent me from nursing. So, that you're able to at all is a positive!
HAPPY HAPPY DIRTY 30 LINDSAY!!!! So, you think Kirk has anything planned? You looked so cute in your picture, all belly---lucky girl And omg, every 2 hours for 48 hrs?! You musta been wiped! Were you doing that on top of nursing?? You always amaze me 19 weeks tomorrow!!

 

[babydust818]

Lindsay - Happy Birthday!!! How does 30 feel? My sister turns 30 on Monday and she's having a nervous breakdown LOL. She thinks life is over. I'm like it's just another day Enjoy your day. Your bump is super cute. Super jeal. I just look fat compared to you.

Alyssa - i know you're going through a lot right now, but your chart is looking good! I can't wait to see what the next few days bring.

Kelsey - how is everything going on your end? You feeling anything new? Did you schedule a dr appt yet?

Jessie - Thanks for clearing that up. I was just thinking of all obstacles i'd face with BF and not producing enough was my main concern. Just didn't know what you're suppose to do if that happens. Also, thanks for sharing all your baby must have's. Not sure what i'm suppose to get baby since i'm a FTM, but i think i'm finally figuring it all out.

 

[CallMeAL1982]

Aww, happy bday, Linds! I'm off FB so I didn't know. . Any plans? I got married 10 days before 30 so we didn't do anything... Rob still owes me a trip to NYC and now I'm 31.5, I guess I should stop holding my breath!

 

[confusedprego]

Thanks everyone! Jess - I forgot you said about the augmentation - that probably is why! My friend got hers augmented and only one boob produced milk - she looked pretty silly because she insisted on breastfeeding but she was very lopsided!!!

Kels - I couldn't really breastfeed Oakley directly because of my let-down stress issues that thankfully now I understand and hopefully can prevent this time but yea I only did that for 48hrs but then I had to keep pumping every 2hrs during the day to prevent mastitis and if I went more than 4hrs at night I'd end up with a clog - ughhhh haha I tried a little too hard!!

Rach - I love that I'm turning 30! She shouldn't freak! This is the best time of our lives! It's a time to enter a whole new decade as your own person!! You enter your 20's still pretty dependent on your parents (at least I was!) and I feel like this will be the most fun decade - I'm excited!!

Nothing planned for tonight - Kirk has to work late, he's having some drama at work so we plan to go out after I get back from San Diego and do a combined birthday thing for the two of us - Kirk turns 30 mid-June I'm low maintenance - I don't need to do anything at all but an excuse to go out to dinner will be nice when I get back from San Diego!!

 

[korink26]

Rach honey, you do NOT look fat, you look PREGNANT! BEAUTIFULLY PREGNANT How does Andrew feel about you going back to work?
Alyssa, get on him about that trip---do it while you can! That's a slight regret is I didn't do more traveling before Khloe.
I'm doing good. Woke up and felt headachy and my stomach was off. Felt better after eating breakfast, and good to go now. I've been waking up always once or twice a night but usually go back to sleep pretty quickly. Remember doing that with Khloe too...