i hope no-one minds me posting on here but i could really do with a rant. after miscarrying for the 11th time in may, my OH and i decided not to try again as i could not go through the pain of losing another baby. i already have a 12 year old son so decided to make the most of the child i have and ignore the urge i have to have another baby.
anyway, my period didn't turn up last week and i had a positive test this morning. i have been taking tests all week with them showing negative at first then the line being so faint it looked like a shadow. today the test came up more noticable although still faint and i am worrying like mad.
in the past i have had problems with hcg levels not rising and i think they must be rising now to get a positive result but to be 4 weeks 4 days i am thinking i should have a dark line on the test. i am under a specialist at the hospital and have no reason to keep losing my babies but don't know if i should allow myself to get my hopes up or accept the inevitable and think i am going to lose this baby too. i am so confused, especially as i do not think i can deal with another loss. any advice would be greatly appreciated, my OH does not want to discuss it with me as he already has in his mind its not worth getting excited or our hopes up x
anyway, my period didn't turn up last week and i had a positive test this morning. i have been taking tests all week with them showing negative at first then the line being so faint it looked like a shadow. today the test came up more noticable although still faint and i am worrying like mad.
in the past i have had problems with hcg levels not rising and i think they must be rising now to get a positive result but to be 4 weeks 4 days i am thinking i should have a dark line on the test. i am under a specialist at the hospital and have no reason to keep losing my babies but don't know if i should allow myself to get my hopes up or accept the inevitable and think i am going to lose this baby too. i am so confused, especially as i do not think i can deal with another loss. any advice would be greatly appreciated, my OH does not want to discuss it with me as he already has in his mind its not worth getting excited or our hopes up x