oh Alicia I am so sorry! I have a little story of my own too. But first I want to say, we all do things we feel right at the time. Don't feel ashamed, please. This is his loss not yours. There is someone else out there and you will have a baby someday with that man that won't do something so horrible to you. You are NOT more of an idiot than he his. Once a cheater always a cheater....he will get revenge hun...KARMA is a biotch! Chin up and live life day by day and do your best to not think about what happened. You will realize you weren't the idiot after all.
Anyways...like 5 years ago my dh made a profile on adultfriendfiner.com. He did not tell me, I found out by on my computer, when I went to type in to sign into my email, another email popped up that you could log in under. I figured out the password from the question it gave....i was devastated....he did get replies but i don't think he replied to them. Anyways, he was denying it at first, but then he admitted it cuz he was looking like a fool. He said he only did it as a game or to see what replies he'd get? I don't quite remember, but i stayed with him, since he didn't actually cheat and he felt really bad about it and i changed the password to log in on my computer so he could not get on it without my supervision, HAHA! Everything has been fine and great since. Us woman do not deserve to be hurt like that EVER!! If I was in your shoes, I wouldve done the same thing. I wouldn't want him to go and keep him from going thinking maybe he will realize how much I actually love him and stay and not go to her. Is this how you felt?
Hope things get better for you.