2011 - The Year Of The Baby!!

[Misscheifmake]

Fingers crossed Silly - Hope todays test is a pos. Crossing everything for you xx

Well last night i was EXHAUSTED and was fast asleep by 9 and even shouted at DH for daring to wake me up from the sofa to try and get me into bed.

Then this morning i couldn't do up my size 12 trousers as were just too tight and had to put a baggier pair on, still size 12. But this small thing led to a complete emotional breakdown with lots of tears - feel a bit silly now. I've only put on about 4lb so no reason for a meltdown - oops.

I think the stress of this is getting to me now and i'm offically becoming a fruitloop!

x

 

[rachelle1975]

Very exciting Mischief! The progesterone kept making me nod off in the mornings... it's evil! If tight size 12s made you cry... glad you didn't put on my 16s as you might have been suicidal!

 

[Misscheifmake]

I normally wouldnt have cared and just been like yep ok different pair!

But i was such a crying monster. First shouted at my DH for him not understanding how upset i was. Then called my mum for some female solidarity and she laughed at me and called me a hormonal monster - i think she's right!!

I feel like a bit of an idiot now! Just a slight over-reaction!! ))

 

[rachelle1975]

Ahh don't feel like an idiot It's these stupid drugs.... the bloody progesterone causes so many silly side effects you don't know whether you are coming or going... it all makes my head hurt! I cried during the Arsenal match yesterday... Dh said 'whats wrong?' and i said 'i don't know' ......

 

[Misscheifmake]

Maybe we should have taken out shares with Kleenex before starting this!! I am not watching any sad movies from this point on - Only comedies!!

 

[SillyMoo]

Haha - basically the hormones make you bi-polar, one minute your fine and the next its like someone has taken over your body and youre either angry or sad.....

What fun.

BTW Rach, i rejoice every time I put on my size 16s - was a 22 this time last year and it still feels good

Right, meeting about a tunnel now.... dont get too jealous xx

 

[rachelle1975]

Tunnel meetings... how will i contain my excitement?!?! Did you go and get that damn digi yet woman... come on... give us some hope... and besides... i can't sit here with my eyes crossed for too long. My mum always said if the wind changes direction i'll stay like this

Well done Silly on the weightloss - awesome job! I lost a couple of stone to start my IVF and my 16s are currently garoting (sp?) me.... it's not pretty.....!!!

I'm going mad today.. i can't help it.. my brain is in complete and utter overdrive!!

 

[mrssunshine78]

wow silly, you still in with a chance then!!! i'd get a cb one too cos it'll actually say pregnant, i think if it ever does happen to me i'll need to see the words to believe it! Well done on your weight loss thats fantastic!

i too am very tired and teary, i just feel like curling up in a ball and crying, still having brown cm, and af type pains

what day are you gonna test misscheif? i've decided on saturday! monday is too far away and we're both at work, so sat is best, and it should be positive then if its gonna be.

rachelle when do you test?

wallie, not long til stimming!!!

 

[SillyMoo]

Cant test as at client offices in London for meeting all day.... trying not to drink too much so that I can wee later. I am worried that the CB digital won’t be sensitive enough to pick up whatever was there this morning. It was quite faint.

Rach, did you go to work? Are you able to concentrate? In the TWW i did so little productive stuff cos my mind was all over the place.

Mischief – how are you feeling now? Gone loopy again yet?

Sunshine – try not to worry about the brown stuff hon but I can imagine that doesn’t help rest your mind and make you feel like NOT crying. Its not over till its over. AF pains could just be your uterus muscles taking on board the embryo. Good plan on Saturday test, give you two some time to come to terms with the (great) result over the weekend.

Thanks for the comments on the weight, in my head I am still big so find it weird to be able to buy stuff thats so different from my previous stylie.... DH promised me 3 designer pieces of clothing when I get to a 14 (cos I am 6’ I reckon I would be in proportion as a 14) so if its a BFN I am going to focus on that so I can get a Vera Wang for summer!

 

[rachelle1975]

Oooh Vera Wang! how la de da! I went for Louboutins... never been worn outside the house... i sit in my PJs wearing them

Yep went to work, it's a see of emails about my impending trials next week and outstanding victims and witnesses and blah blah blah.... so i went for a long lunch break! I shall be out of here at 4 though and i'm off tomorrow as have dentist and a full body massage! Yep... definitely can't concentrate... every twinge, very bit of nausea.... i feel very different to last time but then last time i didn't get a sustainable pregnancy and this time i will

CB digi tests about 50miu i think? give it a go - if it reads positive then it's good hun. Remember how you felt yesterday and how strong you felt last night before you tested this morning... regardless you can do it. I'm a complete wuss and far too scared to tests... pathetic

 

[mrssunshine78]

why don't you wait til the morning? i know this is much easier said than done in practice!! you don't want to risk upsetting yourself by getting a false negative, and even if it is negative you'll still have to test again in the morning to make sure, does that make sense? feel like nothing i say or do makes sense at the moment

one of my best friends had a baby yesterday i mean i'm happy for them, but this is her 2nd in the time we've been trying, i'm dreading going to see him - does this sounds awful? i'm almost crying typin this

 

[rachelle1975]

You aren't awful, I m/c last year as my friend had her boy. She knew but invited me to the hospital & I declined as it was just too hard. There's nothing wrong with bubble wrapping yourself for protection

 

[mrssunshine78]

i know i said to hubby last night that i didn't know whether i'd be able to go and see them, and he just said we wont, they know what we're going through, so we can leave it a couple of weeks. I went and bought a pressie for them today, at least at the moment i don't know either way, so being in the baby part of next wasn't too bad, but just kept wishing i was buying something for our baby

 

[Misscheifmake]

Sunshine - When our friends have babies i always give myself a couple of weeks before visiting if i need it, but i send a baby delivery package so they know i would if i could. And I just think they'll understand and if they don't then bleugh to them! It's scary but since this nightmare journey began i can sniff out a preganancy announcement in seconds - it's my special gift!

Silly - Sending you lots of vibes and crossing everything for you. I quite like the idea of a vera wang wardrobe!!

Rachelle - I should of booked a massage too!

I am being so unproductive at work and googling everything - so far today i have googled, hot and cold sweats, headaches, twinges, and probably lots more! Then read lots of journals on the Infertility network site and made myself blub!

Slowly becoming even more of a fruitloop than usual!! lol

 

[rachelle1975]

You are a very sweet generous person, look at what you did? Buying them a present despite what you are going through is lovely. Life is just crappy sometimes & it seems way too hard. There is nothing wrong with waiting, text/call & send a lovely card and they will be so pleased... Plus they'll be inundated with visitors, nappies, lack of sleep so your absence won't be conspicuous.... If anything you're thoughtful enough to let them adjust to their new roles

 

[SillyMoo]

Morning all

I think going and looking and buying baby stuff for your friend is a great achievement given the circumstances and agree with Rach that you are obviously a loving person to be able to do that . DH and I bought a job lot of baby sleeping bags in various colours on eBay and just send those when people have babies with a card saying we will come and see them when everything has calmed down i.e. when we can cope with it!!

How are you all feeling today? Anymore weird symptoms?

AFM - talk about ambiguity..... Took an internet cheapie this morning and after about 20mins (way out of reading time) a faint line appeared, cant tell if its grey or coloured so could be an evap line. So, i also took a CB digi on your advice Rach and after 3 mins it came up with ‘Pregnant 1-2’!! WTF?!? I rang the clinic and am going in this afternoon for another wee test and if thats still a bit odd am having a blood test (for a handsome fee I might add). Arggggghhhhh!! I want to get excited but I know that its weird that its not showing up like a viable pregnancy should at this stage.... I really don’t know what to think or how to feel. Either way I will know if I am actually pregnant by the end of the day!

xxxx

 

[mrssunshine78]

Wow silly! I'd believe the digi test, so am thinking you're preg! congratulations!

I've been naughty this morn and done a test without Hubby and without his knowledge, but I think it's pos! I think I'm pregnant!!!!! Now I don't know what to do? Do I admit to Hubby I've done one or do I retest in the morning when he's there?! Kind of wish I hadn't done it.

 

[SillyMoo]

OMG Sunshine, how exciting!! Congrats!! Difficult one with hubby though - I think i would just own up to it. He will just be thrilled with the result!!

Yay! xx

 

[mrssunshine78]

i think i'll have to i don't think i'll be able to keep it from him, the only reason i tested was cos i was so positive it was gonna be negative!!! oh god!!! i'm shaking!!!

 

[Isi Buttercup]

Awww, congrats SillyMoo and Mrssunshine . Been silently stalking this thread and really happy for you both!!!

Wishing Rachelle and Misschiefmake all the best when you test!