3 failed IUIs. How do you cope?

[Jlh1980]

Sash I really hope I can relax when I make it to second trimester (god willing) because I have had a knot in my stomach ever since I found out I was pregnant. Yesterday was a bad day I got a migraine, had to take tylenol which never really works for me and I literally spent the entire day worrying that I was going to have a migraine for days on end and then started thinking how bad it would be to take tylenol that frequently........This literally went on almost all day then I started worrying about how much I had been worrying and what effect that would have. Finally I broke down and cried in the middle of the night until my husband talked me of the ledge! I've never felt this scared before, I just pray that I can relax a little and enjoy this.

 

[Jlh1980]

Ttc when do you start stimming, it's soon right?

 

[ttcbaby117]

Well I do hope I start on Monday. My DH sperm culture just came back with some bacteria in it so I am waiting to see what the RE says about how we need to proceed. I do hope it isn't anything serious! My GP here said it is the same bacteria that causes UTI's but DH doesn't have any symptoms and neither do I! Oh who knows......

 

[Jlh1980]

TTC hopefully it will be easy to treat, probably e coli which usually only requries a couple days of antibiotics. So excited for you to get your BFP, I want to hear all about your follicules . I will be thinking about you and sending a lot of your way!

 

[Bma11]

SUNSHINE & JLH , how is everything going????

 

[Jlh1980]

Things are going well on my end, I just went to the RE yesterday and my HCG is over 7000 so everything appears to be going in the right direction. I'm trying to keep my anxiety at bay and I think my fear of doing something wrong is coming down a little..........thank god!

 

[Sunshine24]

Hi hi!!! Sorry to be MIA!!!

Things are going great ( knock on wood ). I am officially 7 weeks and one day today and got to see the heartbeat before work this morning!!

They said everything is measuring perfectly and the heart rate was also "perfect"---very nice to hear those words!

Of course I still worry, but I'm really mostly enjoying this time. I don't feel very nauseous or anything---just mainly exhausted and very hungry--but I can deal with that! I already had to buy a belly band because I REALLY feel a difference in my waist already, especially with jeans.

We told our immediate families ( parents and sibs ) on Easter and they were OVERJOYED.....since I got a good report this morning I think I will tell my close girlfriends tonight since we have dinner plans. It is SO fun telling people, they get so excited!!

I know that I should technically wait longer to tell people, but I want to celebrate this joy now and I really feel that after all I went through I'm in a good position for this pregnancy to "make it" through, ya know? They monitored me so closely the whole time, only transferred the BEST embryo, and I've had blood draws and ultra sounds galore since finding out, and everything looks good--so why not tell, right? I will wait much longer to tell work though, prob 12 or even 14 weeks--until I cant hide behind my clothes anymore.

Glad to hear you're doing well JLH! And I cant wait for BMA and TTC to be preggers too--its going to be SO soon ladies. Sash thinking of you!! XOXO

I think about all of you and pray for you daily....truly I do. I believe this board helped me keep a calm mindset and feel supported during my journey, and that helped me to get a BFP, I really believe it.

 

[SashimiMimi]

Sunshine I'm glad everything is going well. It's naturally to worry because of what women like us have gone through to get here, but as time goes on you will gain confidence. My doctor kept saying that he truly felt my trouble was getting pregnant, not holding on to a pregnancy. I have a feeling that rings true for all of us who have struggled with infertility and are going through fertility treatments.

I can't believe there are 40 days left on my ticker! On one hand IVF feels like a lifetime ago, on the other it feels like it was a couple months ago. I'm getting a little uncomfortable, but refuse to complain about it. I have tons of energy and the nesting instinct is in full gear, but I just don't seem to have the physical capacity to do all the things I want to do around the house.

Well this is an exciting month in here with BMA and TTC both doing IVF and Sunshine and JLH with BFPs. How is everyone else doing?

 

[Bma11]

Jlh- ahhh great news. You won't do anything wrong

Sunshine- there is no reason not to tell if you are comfortable and want to .
I'm glad you are having a good pregnancy so far. Thank you for your prayers. I have stayed so positive so far. I have 4 days left of my BCP and then April 17, ill start injections. I'm trying my best not to think about it not working, I'm truly taking everything day by day. That seems to help my worry and anxiety issues.
AHHH, I've quit caffeine like soda and coffee and my spark! Eek first two days I took migraine medicine and that obviously fed my caffeine withdraws! but I think it has passed and I feel great!

Sashimi- 40 days! How exciting!!!! I can not wait to see a real life picture of him!

 

[SashimiMimi]

AHH! I didn't even see JLH's post!!! That's a great HCG level, sounds like you are well on your way. I'm certain you will probably be walking on eggshells the whole first tri. I was a pain at restaurants asking about every single ingredient, I was scared to even carry a laundry basket up the stairs and I refused to run to try and catch the subway. You just have to do what is in your comfort zone, but trust me... that little bean is strong and secure in there!

BMA April 17!!!!!!!! That is so exciting! It's impossible not to "what if" and wonder what the outcome will be, but just remember you are going to get a real embryo, with real sperm/egg interaction which has never happened before. And your doctor has given you such incredible high odds! Everything is in your favour, you have looked after yourself, you are doing all you can and even have a supportive work environment. There will be days that you might feel negative or down, but it won't affect the outcome. You will also have days where you feel super pumped and positive!

By the way Sunshine that is so nice what you said about feeling like this thread was a huge support. Infertility changed me so much as a person the only thing I have wanted to do is help other women in the same situation. I'm so glad that by starting this thread almost a year ago during what I thought was the worst day of my life that it has brought so much comfort to those who have felt the same!!!

 

[Bma11]

You are so right sashimi! Thank you. I hope I don't get to negative. I'm really good at doing that and dragging it out and turning it into an argument with DH. I annoy myself when I'm like that. But I really hope my problem was getting pregnant like your doctor told you. I hope carrying is not the problem! All my meds will be in today. I'm going to organize it into the different sections like injections / after transfer/after pos pregnancy test. I'm sure I won't be as overwhelmed as I was the first time I did injections. So, that's a relief!
I'm so excited. I keep asking DH, aren't you so excited? We are going to really be pregnant this time! he just giggles at me. He's trying. He is literally to a T life is what it is, it's going to happen or it's not and we can't do much about it. Sometimes it's stressful other times not so much! Lol

 

[SashimiMimi]

Well just remember that IVF isn't exactly supposed to be a fun, leisurely activity. It's totally okay to feel overwhelmed and my best advice is to take it one day at a time.

Wow! BMA are they really giving you ALL your meds at once? My clinic would only give it to me in stages because so many people would get confused and forget what to do. They even had an egg donor forget to use the trigger shot and her eggs were supposed to go to two different couples. Imagine the disappointment! So they made it a policy to only give you a few days worth at a time. Of course this resulted in many visits and long waits to see the doctor, followed by the nurse for further instructions. I'm totally impressed your clinic has a patient portal. I never really knew what my results of anything were and I didn't ask unless something was wrong.

 

[Bma11]

I know! But they tell you everyday what to do via email. So, it's not too hard. I hope!!! For me this takes the stress of "when will they get here?, are they delayed" etc. I just get it all in one big shipment!
I love the portal, I can access it at anytime and email at any time of night and they'll get it in the morning.

 

[fisher640]

Things are getting better around here. LO was two weeks old yesterday. We've had a couple rough nights but for the most part she's doing well and is back up to birth weight as of yesterday.

My delivery was super rough on me. Not really time wise or anything but the screwed my epidural up royally and I ended up with an accidental spinal instead with a bigger needle than they use for spirals. Followed by a spinal headache and blood patch. So my back is still super sore two weeks out and I essentially feel like I've been in a somewhat substantial car wreck with all this back and neck pain. I didn't have an easy time of it down below with a second degree tear and peri urethral tear as well. BUT that's been totally dwarfed by my back and neck SO -- if the nether regions were all that was effected I would have been a-okay by last week is the good news for those of you not far behind me ;-)

They kept me in the hospital an extra day because I couldn't walk after the blood patch with all the pain I was in (it didn't get rid of my headache). Then they had to keep her in the hospital two more days with jaundice.

What's been the worst about the pain is just feeling helpless like I can't do things to take care of her the way I want and have really gotten in the way of me enjoying her a bit because everything is so sore. Hopefully in another week ill be able to say "alls well that ends well" but I'm not quite there yet. She is SUPER cute though.

 

[SashimiMimi]

Fisher I never got to congratulate you! So congrats on your little one. I'm sorry you had a rough birth experience and I admit what you described is right up there with the top I my fears, but the pain and discomfort will pass. And you have a little miracle!! How amazing. Speedy recovery to you!

 

[Jlh1980]

Wow fisher I'm so sorry that happened to you, spinal headaches are no joke! I hope you feel better soon, I wouldn't worry too much about not caring for her, you will have the rest of your life to do that. Congrats again and feel better!

 

[Chris_25]

Sash I really hope I can relax when I make it to second trimester (god willing) because I have had a knot in my stomach ever since I found out I was pregnant. Yesterday was a bad day I got a migraine, had to take tylenol which never really works for me and I literally spent the entire day worrying that I was going to have a migraine for days on end and then started thinking how bad it would be to take tylenol that frequently........This literally went on almost all day then I started worrying about how much I had been worrying and what effect that would have. Finally I broke down and cried in the middle of the night until my husband talked me of the ledge! I've never felt this scared before, I just pray that I can relax a little and enjoy this.

I'm sorry about the migraine I am a big migraine sufferer and take medication for them and that my only fear when I do get preg not bring able to take them. I hope your feeling better!

 

[Chris_25]

Hi girls I had my laporoscopy and hysteroscopy today and they found stage 1 endometriosis not sure if this was my cause but I am goin to be hopeful that it was. They removed it. Did anyone else get severe upper abdominal gas pains that went to your shoulders? The pain is a killer! I have to wait 4 weeks now to have sex and move on, but that's ok. Hope your all doing well!

 

[Bma11]

Chris - have DH hit your back & shoulders until the gas is gone!!! Worked for me. Have him cup his hands like put all his fingers together so he's not hitting you with flat palms.

Glad you have some answers! Rest up

 

[Chris_25]

Chris - have DH hit your back & shoulders until the gas is gone!!! Worked for me. Have him cup his hands like put all his fingers together so he's not hitting you with flat palms.

Glad you have some answers! Rest up

Thanks, it definitely helped me!