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[Squig34]

Hey Dovkav & Babybemine, any news from you ladies?

Panda - how's it going with the meds? Not too long now until retrieval, are things looking good?

 

[dovkav123]

I am 10 dpIUI today.
Time went fast this week, cos we went to a 2 day vocation to Frankfurt. It was a spontatious trip and a very fun one. NO luggage, no planning, no stress!
I can't beleave it's almost time to test. I hope I'll wait till 24th.
How is everyone doing?

 

[Squig34]

I hope it's good news Dovkav!

Frankfurt is a great city, glad you had a lovely mini break!

All well with me thanks, I have a visitor this weekend to keep me company while DH is away with work

 

[panda fan]

Hey Panda, sounds like a nice plan to help yourself relax and prepare - and as you say, FX that everything looks good for this cycle. Of course it's hard to forget what went before, we all know that, but a lot of people swear by positive visualisation, so maybe you could use that when you find yourself looking back and getting anxious. I really hope this works for you and that you have lots and lots of lovely embryos!

I'm fine thanks. BFN for me this month although I suspect maybe I had a chemical as I did have some faint lines which then disappeared and AF came bang on time. Can't be sure but not too concerned, onwards and upwards for next month!

Sorry about your BFN Squig. Interesting about the faint lines. Definitely sounds like a chemical. I hope that means you are extra fertile next month.

Doing okay here. It seems like maybe less follicles than my first and better cycle, but I'm hoping for quality over quantity this time. Fingers crossed.

Menopur is okay. Difficult to mix and stings when it goes in but I don't feel much different than Gonal F so not bad.

I think I will probably trigger Sunday or Monday so retrieval will be soon.

Positive visualization is a good idea. I had an acupuncture appointment today and should have another one before the transfer so hopefully that helps. I always feel much more relaxed after them.

Hoping to hear good news soon, Dovkav!

 

[panda fan]

Okay, just triggered. Menopur seems to be working well enough. There are 10 follicles in mature range. 2 are slightly on the large side and 2 slightly on the small so it will be interesting to see how many actually get retrieved and fertilize.

I have retrieval on Tuesday morning. Feeling cautiously hopeful since new medicine seems to be working okay.

 

[Squig34]

Oh that's good news Panda, hope this medicine does the trick for you and also that you get a good number of embryos out of it - are you hoping for some frosties or do you prefer just fresh? Big FX for you!

Well Dovkav, it's 24th today - test day? Any news?

 

[panda fan]

Oh that's good news Panda, hope this medicine does the trick for you and also that you get a good number of embryos out of it - are you hoping for some frosties or do you prefer just fresh? Big FX for you!

Well Dovkav, it's 24th today - test day? Any news?

Yes, we would love even just one more frosty. We have only one frozen and doing an FET with only one when they can arrest during thaw seems very risky so we'd love to have more so we have that option.

Dovkav! I'm so hoping you get your good news today!

 

[ttcbabyisom]

Dov, you get your news today - I HOPE IT WAS GOOD!!!!!!

Panda, your retrieval is tomorrow. EEK!!!! Good luck sweetie.

I checked in right on time!

 

[ttcbabyisom]

babybemine, what about you???

 

[panda fan]

really heartbroken today. the retrieval doctor only found 3 eggs and they also found evidence of endometriosis this time as well as dropped estrogen levels. My RE is going to call later to talk to me, but doctor said it's just important to wait now and see how they do and that even 3 eggs can result in pregnancy.

 

[ttcbabyisom]

really heartbroken today. the retrieval doctor only found 3 eggs and they also found evidence of endometriosis this time as well as dropped estrogen levels. My RE is going to call later to talk to me, but doctor said it's just important to wait now and see how they do and that even 3 eggs can result in pregnancy.

Try to remain positive sweetie. I'm sorry.
Try to hang in there! Maybe this will still have a good result!

FX'D!!!

 

[Squig34]

Panda I'm so sorry it wasn't quite as good as you'd hoped, but absolutely, 3 eggs isn't a bust and FX they will all fertilise for you and

 

[dovkav123]

panda, I am very sorry about the outcome. Why? What happened?
Where was endo? How dr. could see endo on the u/s?
Hoping and praying those eggs will develop to beautiful blasts.

I got BFN 14 dpiui. I tested with digital clearblue. Should be 96% acurate.
I Called my clinic for a sperm dna fragm test.
I reduced my progesterone to 100mg in case, and just waiting for AF.
my hubby wants to do another IUI. I had enough, we need to go back to IVF.

 

[Squig34]

Dovkav, sorry this IUI didn't work for you

 

[panda fan]

so no eggs fertilized, totally devastated. we check back tomorrow but hopes are not high. we will not even get a transfer. we were told we could use the frozen egg but since there's possible inflammation going on, we decided to wait.

my doctor believes that signs of endo were actually just that my body had tried to ovulate already. my estrogen had dropped again and there was some blood in the fluid around the ovary but she thinks that was my body trying to ovulate and eggs perishing and not endometriosis. the doctor who thought it was endo was basing that on seeing bloody fluid during retrieval but my doc's conclusion was based on the lab actually looking at eggs under microscope afterward. My doctor thinks I ovulated ahead of schedule despite the Lupron and recommends using a different antagonist to prevent that next time.

we are not happy that they waited too long to trigger, and last cycle they went ahead with cycle even though i hadn't ovulated and told them i did not want to go ahead unless they confirmed ovulation so we are leaving this clinic

my hubby is making calls and setting everything up to have phone consultations with RMA in connecticut and CCRM in colorado (i have a brother that lives close to there and can stay with him)

doctor believes the Crohns and the surgery have affected eggs so that while I do still have some good eggs, it's difficult to get them since ovaries are not functioning well and therefore not reacting consistently to stims - she is still hopeful but it sound like the probabilities are against me

i will try another clinic, but i won't be doing any medicated cycles until at least August or September now.

feeling pretty horrible today

 

[panda fan]

panda, I am very sorry about the outcome. Why? What happened?
Where was endo? How dr. could see endo on the u/s?
Hoping and praying those eggs will develop to beautiful blasts.

I got BFN 14 dpiui. I tested with digital clearblue. Should be 96% acurate.
I Called my clinic for a sperm dna fragm test.
I reduced my progesterone to 100mg in case, and just waiting for AF.
my hubby wants to do another IUI. I had enough, we need to go back to IVF.

so sorry you got a BFN

 

[Squig34]

Panda, so sorry to hear this I'm sure you are totally gutted. I'm glad you're going to find a new clinic - after a couple of attempts it would make sense to move anyway but especially when you mention that they waited too long to trigger and also didn't confirm o like you asked them to. Are you thinking about other options yet like ICSI or IVF or still looking at IUI? I'm glad there is still hope for you in still having some good eggs in spite of the health challenges you are facing. I truly hope the next clinic is more tailored to your needs and does what it takes to get you your baby

 

[panda fan]

Thank you, Squig. I am hoping the new clinic has some real answers because I feel my doctor here is now just guessing. This was actually our third medicated IVF. We haven't need ICSI because we got over 50 percent fertilization the first two times but I don't know what the new clinic will say.

Update: So we got a call yesterday saying it looked like one egg was fertilizing after all and to prepare for transfer today. Then this morning we got the call that the egg never fully turned over and it was a no go for the transfer. More heartbreak all over again.

We decided now to try to use our one frozen egg. I'm terrified but it just makes sense that I'm already medicated and that we are not going to use this clinic anymore so might as well try. Where it's only one, it doesn't seem worth doing a separate cycle for it with more medications.

It's a little hard because when we first got the one frozen one, I was thinking it would be one of many saved for a second or third child and now it's kind of a hail mary to try for a first. I'm so afraid the egg doesn't make it through thaw.

Thank you, ladies, for being out there listening. I am losing hope and it's so devastating.

 

[Squig34]

panda. I hope your frostie made it through the thaw?

I can see your logic about trying with the embryo in these circumstances. I hope it's the first baby for you, with more to follow at the next clinic. Please try not to give up hope even though I know it's really hard sometimes. FX this new clinic will be more tailored to your needs instead of a more standard protocol.

Sorry I misread (somehow!) what you'd written and throught you were having IUI, in spite of the fact that I know the procedure you described was IVF...

 

[panda fan]

Thank you, Squig! Your words mean a lot. When you feel crushed, it's hard to start feeling hopeful again because it seems like everything is just gonna keep going wrong. It's good to keep perspective.

The egg made it through the thaw just fine! They transferred it this morning. I am trying to relax and trying not to be nervous. Feeling hopeful again. What a roller coaster this is!

Nice thing about the frozen egg is at least we know it made it to day 5 blast for freeze so already a bit ahead of the game. Hoping it's a strong, sticky little blast.

Now the difficult 2ww