35 and over and ltttc for baby #2 for over 2.5yrs!

[Srbjbex]

Oh good luck with your scan tommy. Keeping everything crossed that you can get cracking after all this waiting! !

 

[Cookie1979]

Tommy - Good luck with your scan, hope all is good and the iui well, I will keep my fingers crossed that it's successful for you.

Orchid - wow not long now til your transfer, I'll be definitely checking in regularly for news. So exciting. Best of luck with it, I really hope it's successful.

Bex - Glad you haven't got too big a wait for your op. We are looking at getting a new car, I only have a little one and hubby has an estate, so I think I'm going to get a bigger car (not too big though) and hubby is going to downsize, makes sense for my car to be the family car.

Brave - so sorry to hear your hubby has lost his job, I hope he finds something else quickly, and hopefully the next job will be the perfect one for him.

AFM - I've been popping back in regularly reading all your posts but didn't want to post too much as worried I would upset others. All is fine with me, had abit of a panic at the weekend, hubby got me fish and chips, started eating it and I thought I dont like this, had a few chips and abit more fish and thought no this doesn't taste right. Smelt it and it definitely smelt weird, hubby couldn't smell it but I could, but I've always had a keen sense of taste and smell. Instantly went into panic mode about food poisoning to the point where I went and stuck my fingers down my throat. Seems extreme but I panicked, I dont know if I got it all up but I think if I didn't I got most of it up...actually think doing it saved me from having proper food poisoning. Yesterday felt rough but if it wasn't for the dodgy cod I wouldn't have thought much of it and put it down to just a bad day of pregnancy symptoms. Anyway feeling pretty sick today but otherwise ok, so I think I dodged a bullet. Aside from that panic all is good, feel sick every day but it's manageable, never been sick, but then I just don't seem to be a sicky person, never have been...like my body just can't be sick. Weird I know. That's why I had such problems sticking my fingers down my throat, my body rebelled against it lol. Sorry TMI!!! Had an early scan at 9 weeks just cos I was feeling impatient, all was great. My 12 week scan is in exactly 1 week so I will update you all then, hopefully will go well. I have a doppler and have used it a few times, amazing hear the babies hearbeat.

XXX

 

[tommyg]

Cookie hope you are ok.

AFM Surprise surprise ovaries aren't playing ball, again. The cyst from last month is still there and it has been jointed by a solid one (what ever that means) no IUI for me this cycle. Scan in just over a week and she will have a word with my consultant if it is still there. Nay luck for me.

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Oh I am so sorry Tommy - that really sucks I hope you are ok

 

[eyemom]

Hey everyone. Seems like there's not a lot going on in here for a while, then BOOM, lots of posts! Tommy that totally stinks. Are they going to do anything, or just keep checking?

Sorry I've been so bad at keeping up.

 

[lanet]

Tommy I'm sorry that is really disappointing!

 

[Cookie1979]

Oh I'm sorry Tommy, must be really disappointing. I hope something can be done about the cysts x

 

[tommyg]

Thanks ladies, tbh I've had so many set backs on this journey that I no longer get excited about anything. I have a feeling if the solid cyst doesn't go away I might be going back under the knife. Realistically I'm loosing hope, I no longer want to take baby2 into consideration for my new car. Now looking at a fiesta or something similar. Thinking if I go for a car that's a couple of years old I won't loose to much if I need to part exchange it in 18 months.

 

[Srbjbex]

Oh tommy I'm so sorry to hear your news. I know how you feel with set back after set back.

A new car might be a good pick me up present i think!!!

 

[Braven05]

So sorry things didn't go well Tommy. Big hugs your way.

 

[Wish4another1]

Tommy - I am so sorry about your stinky ovaries!!! UGH why won't they play along!!! I sure hope you have better luck than me with the cyst stuff!!!
HOH for you friend!!

Braven - I hope things are going well for you!!! HOH always...

orchid - not long now!!! I hope the moving/packing is going well!!!

Cookie - glad things are moving along for you and your little one!!

AFM: Finally had my appointment in St Louis with the FE. nothing but disappointment really - which I guess I should have more intestinal fortitude about... I went on Thursday and talked to the doctor for an hour - then had a physical exam - but they could not fit me in for an ultrasound so I had to come back on Monday - (2 hours each way) - met with him monday and he said I have two solid masses in my right ovary in addition to a fluid filled cyst.
(and by the way the girl doing the ultrasound was horrible - never been in that much pain from a vaginal ultrasound!!)
anyway the FE didn't want to do the Lap to remove the masses because he thinks they are endo related (never had endo my entire life) and if he does there is a high probability my right ovary will be damaged in the process. so I asked what are the other options???.... staying on the pill indefinitely till the masses go away or he can give me a lupron shot that lasts for 3 months (shutting my ovaries down)
uhm that is not a good option in my mind - I have been on the pill since January now - and the mass/cysts aren't gone... in fact they have indeed gotten worse...
well after crying my eyes out in his office - he agreed to do the surgery - it will be at least 3 weeks away... and I still don't have a date (and my last appt was Monday morning)
My husband has accepted we will not have children and is more concerned over my risk of cancer with the masses (can't be sure until they are out and tested) but my heart is broken... I wish I could just cut out the "want" for a child... maybe someday the heart will heal over...
I am going to attempt to cut back my time on BnB for my own sanity... come look me up on facebook if you want to stay in touch... Rachelle Johnson
Good luck ladies!!

 

[tommyg]

Oh Wish, I send tons to love to you xxx what devastating news.
Fingers crossed that the cysts are just that and nothing more.

I know it isn't the same esp when you have your older girls but is adoption an option for you and DH to have a family together?
Sending special hugs Wish

 

[Braven05]

Wish, I'm so sorry to hear about your bad news. I hope things aren't as bleak as they seem now. I know what you mean about cutting out the want. I wish I could too. It hurts so bad, I know. Thinking about you and wishing you the best. Hugs.

 

[WhiteOrchid24]

Oh wish I am so sorry.... Sending lots of love and hugs your way. I know how you feel....there have been many times over the last 3 1/2 years where I have wished I could just move on and not have that want and desire anymore but it is so difficult. Be good to yourself and treat yourself to something extra special

 

[Wish4another1]

Girls your responses have warmed my heart - if feels good to know others understand this pain.... Thank you❤️❤️
And Tommy - my husband does not want to adopt
I can't get a clear answer from him why not but for now it is not an option for us....

 

[tommyg]

Huge hugs. At least you have discussed adoption.

Take your time and allow yourself time to grief for the baby that isn't going to be. Hugs

 

[Srbjbex]

Oh wish i am so so sorry. I really felt your pain in your message. i know nothing i can say will take the pain away. Tommy has very wise words about allowing yourself time to grieve, it's important.

 

[momwithbabies]

I'm so sorry, Wish. I'm praying that you allow yourself time to process this so healing can begin. I hope you are able to find peace and happiness. You have been such a bright light on this thread, even when you've had a terrible time.

I wish you the best out of this dark time.

 

[Cookie1979]

So sorry wish xxxxx

 

[Wish4another1]

Thank you all for your heartfelt comments! I really do appreciate it! I am doing ok... just waiting
I got my surgery date today
21 August at 2:30pm!!
I am not good with not eating all day I sure do hope that changes before then!!

Orchid - only two more sleeps!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!