Here is my journal entry:
Ok, so I am a little discouraged. Here's why
I haven't voiced my age concern yet and I'm pissed bc my doctor just made it an issue.
So I go into my annual OB appt and they ask what's new. He said "I understand you're trying to get pregnant." I said "yes, it's my first cycle and I'm only 9dpo". They give me a test (urine test) BFN. So he starts saying - how was it with your other two. I admit, which I shyly do here out of respect to those who have a harder time trying, that I got pregnant the first time with both. He then says, "yah, don't be surprised with your age if it doesn't happen that way now." Lucy is only 1.5 year old. Did things change that much??? But with that being said, he goes on to say, come back in a few months because we can try Clomid. No way jose. I can't risk multiples at my age. And do I really need to just because I'm 40 and got a negative 9dpo?
Then I told him we are taking a "nonchalant approach" to getting pregnant. I didn't dare say we are trying the Shettle Method with DTD just once at the sign of the + OPK. He say, yah, you won't get pregnant if you aren't having sex before your +OPK test. WHAT?! So why do we all waste our money on OPKs if they don't work that way. Am I crazy?
So now I don't feel pregnant and feel like he cursed me to get pregnant. I know it sounds ridiculous but thats how down I feel right now. Nothing like a depressing doctor's appt.