I'm so sorry to hear that, that's such a horrible situation when someone who has openly said they would rather have a boy gets a girl. And an early loss is still a loss. The moment those lines appear on the test you practically map out your whole future with another child.
I hope that your being back here means you're feeling a little better. I don't blame you for hiding at all.
As for me, I think I'm due on at any point before Wednesday. Before ds4 and ds5 I had short LPs and would only go 9/10 days after ovulation before I had a period. I've only had one period since ds5 was born so I'm not sure if I'm back to a normal 14 day LP or back to a short LP. I *think* I had ovulation signs on the 8th, which if I did would put me due on between the 17th and 22nd. I've had a few cramps and instances where I've thought I had started over the last couple of days so I'm sure it's on its way, just a matter of waiting and seeing what my new normal is.