A group for TTC#1 and had more than one loss?

[DSemcho]

YAY!! Not to be rude, but when you starts m/cing what was the level at?

 

[Nicki123]

Good stuff Petzy, crack open the opks

 

[Petzy]

YAY!! Not to be rude, but when you starts m/cing what was the level at?

Not rude at all Well I am not totally sure but I miscarried last Sat/Sun and I went for bloods the following Tuesday and it was 435 HCG... so I would imagine it was a few hundred higher than that maybe? Not too sure.

Who knows.. I was 7 weeks the day I miscarried but maybe baby didn't develop past 4, 5,6 weeks and the HCG was lower to start with. I will never know I guess but the best I can do it hope this progesterone helps it stick next time!

 

[DSemcho]

I was asking because the first time I found out I was pregnant my HCG was at 132, but I hadn't been sexually active in 4 - 5 weeks (EVEN THOUGH I WAS MARRIED!) and they never did an ultrasound because they didn't believe me and they kept saying less than 3 weeks pregnant. And when I lost it (about 5 - 6 days later) my HCG was at 390ish, and it took like 2 months to go back to 7/5ish… And there was even a point where it went up by 10

 

[Petzy]

I was asking because the first time I found out I was pregnant my HCG was at 132, but I hadn't been sexually active in 4 - 5 weeks (EVEN THOUGH I WAS MARRIED!) and they never did an ultrasound because they didn't believe me and they kept saying less than 3 weeks pregnant. And when I lost it (about 5 - 6 days later) my HCG was at 390ish, and it took like 2 months to go back to 7/5ish… And there was even a point where it went up by 10

Oh wow - that's awful it took so long to go down.... that is just crazy - but I have read that a few times on here... I was worried about that for myself but looks like all is well. I think the further along you are the longer it takes, but looks like you were pretty early yourself.

 

[HannahTTC]

Hannah I hope you get your Christmas BFP too.
Petzy good luck today, I hope your HCG has gone down.
Thanks ttcmoon and I really hope your IUI works out tomorrow.

Here is today's FRER at 12dpo, fx for 7th time lucky ...

https://i1072.photobucket.com/albums/w362/nicolaflack/null_zpsd07610f4.jpg

Oh gosh that is beautiful congrats so happy for you. I will be praying for the best.

 

[Petzy]

Hi Girls, Hope you are all well!

Nicki, when is your doc apt? or have you been already? xx

Well I took an OPK last night and it was pretty dark but the line looked funny so I decided to start fresh today.

I took one with FMU and it was probably a 6/10 so it's getting there but it could get lighter before it gets darker depending on where I am at with O, so I will just keep testing every day and see if they get darker or lighter than darker. BD'ing isn't an issue right now so that's good Just gotta keep the coverage up

 

[ttcmoon]

Girls....my IUI procedure was smooth today.All 3 follicles got ruptured and we could see lots of free fluid inside.As I mentioned before my lining is not the perfect one but I am still hopeful.
Hubbies morphology is even less this time it is 4%.He is perfect when count and motility are concerned.....

I hope you all are doing well.Keeping my fingers crossed for Nicki.
for Petzy~!

 

[Petzy]

Girls....my IUI procedure was smooth today.All 3 follicles got ruptured and we could see lots of free fluid inside.As I mentioned before my lining is not the perfect one but I am still hopeful.
Hubbies morphology is even less this time it is 4%.He is perfect when count and motility are concerned.....

I hope you all are doing well.Keeping my fingers crossed for Nicki.
for Petzy~!

Major FX for you moon! Now you put those feet up and let the spermies do their job haha.... really hoping for you hun xx

 

[Bibliophile]

FX Moon!

Just waiting on AF so we can move on to cycle 6. I'm hoping she holds off until the weekend so that O will continue to be on the weekend- makes it much easier since hubby travels 9 weeks out of 10 for work. (O was 2 days late, so if my luteal phase stays consistent, AF will be on day 30. Hopefully.)

 

[Nicki123]

Come on weekend ov, keep to the schedule! (I hope your body is listening Brittany)

 

[NewToAllThis]

Ok well bloods are done... waiting for a call on what the level is now

they also gave me my first supply of Progesterone.... did not know they were vaginal suppositories lol... this should be interesting. Cant start them till I know when I am O'ing anyways but glad to be doing something.. Hopefully it does the trick for the next BFP

Just to let you know that progesterone suppositories can cause spotting. I used them for first 12 weeks of my pregnancy and reverted to rectal use as the spotting stressed me out too much.

Apparently vaginally or rectally is ok for the suppositories. They're less messy rectally but wear a liner if using vaginally.

Just a bit of info - hope you don't mind

 

[Sooperhans]

Hi, here's my birth story...

Spoiler

I went in and out of the hospital a few times as I think I said, suspecting fluid loss and possible hind waters going. I kept getting monitored and kept getting told it was nothing...still they took swabs to test and it was good to hear the heartbeat on the screen. It just started to get frustrating on the Sat, the 3rd time we had been in as we don't live that close and we weren't really getting definite answers as such. And I had a junior midwife who on examining me managed to cut my cervix, which bled quite a bit and was really quite sore! Again, after a while we were on our way but they were sure it wasn't any waters. So we went to a friend's house for dinner and I tried to ignore this dull ache caused by being cut. It was bad enough that I took paracetamol on going to bed and I hoped it was going to improve.

I woke up at 1.30am Sun morning definitely not feeling better, I went to the loo and never made it back into bed! The dull aches were worse and I was pacing up and down the landing and around the bedroom. I think I must have gone on for an hour or so when I finally woke up dh, as it was clear it wasn't in a hurry to go. He was like 'cant you just come back to bed, I've got golf in the morning' lol....didn't happen! I went to the loo again and got the weirdest sensation, like a massive crunching and shifting and it was then I knew something was definitely going on. But no waters or anything, was weird. Anyway the aches turned to contractions and still I was pacing but sort of denying that they were contractions, for all I knew these could have been the start and had lots more to come, I didn't know how it's meant to feel. Once I started hanging off the doors dh made us call the hospital for advice. I think I was panicking a bit and got a bit upset on the phone and they asked was I going to be able to cope at home. I said I didn't know what to do with myself and they told me to have a bath and get something to eat. I heard my dh tell them I was contracting 3 in every 10 mins and I was like 'we don't know for sure what they are', I was still in denial! Anyway, I had a rather amusing bath where dh was hosing my tummy down and it was quite nice really. I could hardly manage a bite of the toast he made and the poor dog kept getting banished from the room, he was trying to lick me bless him but I was up and down constantly and dare I say it, somewhat irritable, lol.

Dh started to pack up the bags and said we really should make a move. By this point I had had my hypno cd playing around the house and was focussing more on my breathing. But I couldn't sit and was pretty worried about how I was going to physically get in the car. To which he said did I want to have the baby in the house then, lol. So I got in v reluctantly, I kept thinking they were going to turn us away. In pain, I covered my face the whole way on the back seat and had him put the hypno cd on in the car. Once we got to the hospital, I saw that the mw was actually my mw, which seemed pretty unlikely as we all live over 20 miles away, so it was nice to see her there. She examined me, said did we want the good news or the good news, being that I wasn't going anywhere and I was 4cms dilated! We were a bit surprised and luckily as it was so quiet, we got our pick of the rooms. We went for the low risk birthing room, with a lovely amount of space, a big pool and natural light through the window, etc. just as we wanted. She made me wait for a while, I'd say 1 1/2 hrs before getting into the pool, so I slumped against the wall and carried on pacing, I'm surprised I didn't wear a groove into the bloody ground, lol. It was a wall full of a printed photo all over it, of a bluebell field, it was lovely.

I basically then went in on myself, closing my eyes lots, deep breathing, visualisation, massage from dh, hanging off his shoulders, all to get through the pain. He was great, whispering encouragement and I felt comfortable with my mw. When it came to pool time, it was lovely to get in and luckily my contractions weren't affected. So I only came out for the loo, the mw could use the Doppler underwater to monitor baby and he was v v content, bless. She was so happy with progress, she said on the sly to dh that we would be def having the babe that day and most likely be at home for XFactor! I was regularly taking paracetamol for the pain but still mainly with the massage and breathing. We had this amazing wooden massager that didn't leave the dh's hand!

I came out to be examined every now and then, 6cms, 8cms, all good. Then my mw got a call and her son had sickness and a bad tummy, so she had to go. I felt quite gutted I must admit, it felt like we were a team of 3, in it together. When she said bye she was sure it wasnt going to be long and I admitted I was scared of the pushing. She said it was better than contractions as at least you are doing something productive. So off she went. The fill-in mw was ok, in that she mainly left us to it and then we had the night cover mw that we were going to have for the duration.

Well the vibe of the new mw was completely different, she just didn't seem to be into the way we were doing things and sort of made a funny comment about couldn't believe I hadn't taken any more pain relief and just seemed quite negative. My contractions slowed down She said after a while they'd gone back to 3 in 10 where they'd been 4 in 10. But the other mw was asking when I was having them and she didn't, I don't think she was always looking to be fair and I was deep in visualisation, I only said one word things to dh like 'back' for massage and 'drink'. So I didn't quite trust her analysis. She got me out the pool more often and examined me, still 8cms. She was like 'not as far as we would like' and again I felt like we weren't as on track as we were. She then said in her opinion the head had moved to a worse position. So I got moving, pacing, swaying in the pool, keeping it all really active. On the next exam she said I was 9cms,which we were pleased with. It was so painful getting up and laying flat on my bed for the exams, they just felt really wrong and they slowed contractions down, sometimes stopping them. The mw was like 'you get a break at least' but I wanted to get on with it!
And so we stayed at 9cms....for 6 hours Cue more examinations, Dr getting involved, talk of hormones to speed it up, it just felt like it was getting out of control. I begged for more time, dh did too and we bought ourselves an extra 2 hrs in the room. On the next exam, she said it hadn't changed but she might be able to move it. And she said to try one push, to see if it shifted things. She quickly said stop, that was the only push I got to do Time ran out, we were moved from our amazing room and into the most medicalised 'room of doom' where nothing good at all happend. They hooked me up on a drip, blew my veins 4 times in the process, tried giving me codeine, it got stuck in my throat and I threw up my whole stomach contents everywhere. So I wasn't even on the paracetamol after that point. The Dr had said on the hormone drip I would prob want an epidural but I was scared of them. I felt deflated, the mw made a right bloody fuss over me being sick, saying she was going to be sick herself if she thought about it, I felt embarrassed. I just sat upright on the side of the bed and tried to breathe the pain away. It was only dh at this point encouraging me, thank god he was there. When they messed up my veins, he had to have a minute outside, he said after that he had had a quick cry, he was getting worried about me.

The hormone drip gave me horrific pain, more regularly and I felt awful. Instead of buying time, I was begging for the Dr to come back to check my progress. Well she was held up with another patient and eventually the mw checked herself. Still 9cms, she couldn't move that last bit and basically said it was looking like a c section, they had gone beyond the guidelines for getting to the pushing stage after my waters had gone (nobody actually knew when they had gone btw, they were there when I came in and must have gone in the pool.) So she started getting me prepped but said it would need to be signed off and maybe there was something the Dr could do. The Dr eventually came in, about 2 1/2 hrs after the hormone had been administered and came to the same conclusion. C section....I was terrified, I've never had an op, I was going as natural as you pretty much could do, then straight to a CS, it didn't seem right. Baby's stats were completely unaffected the whoe time, they were amazed but said it was down to me keeping calm. At this point the decision was over our heads and the pain of the hormone was awful and I knew then it had been pointless too, so I just shouted 'get on with it then!' Lol....

And so we entered theatre, everyone was lovely but it was a million miles away from the pool room with the bluebells. We had however written preferences in case of a c section, so we had a bit of a debate as we wanted delayed cord clamping, music, dimmed lights, dh announcing gender. They said no to the lights but put our songs on (8 hrs of music that went on in a loop for the whole labour) and although they didn't delay the clamping, they did clamp further up and squeezed what they could into our precious rainbow. It all got surreal, I was contracting right at the point they put the spinal injection in but couldn't move which was a challenge!, after being prepped I felt the most intense pulling, and pressure on my chest. I thought I might have a heart attack, both before and after he was born! I remember thinking wouldn't that just be the worst thing, to die and not ever be there for them. Like I say, it got surreal. We heard the tiniest wailing and they held up our beautiful little boy, I just heard my voice in a loud whimper wail type noise and got handed him for skin to skin. It was amazing....not that we were in theatre but to finally have him. We got pictures, we kissed him constantly, I was obsessed with starting to feed him but I couldn't move properly, they told us it would have to be out of theatre. I was so worried that would get taken from us too. I tried once we got out and got manhandled by nurses giving my boobs a good old pulling about, lol.

Thankfully, my milk did come through. They think due to the CS it delayed it by about a day, plus the technique really wasn't great, I had a canuler in my hand, I couldn't move half my body, it was awkward to say the least. And he lost more than 10% of his birth weight, going down to 7lbs 2oz. So it's been anxious getting him back up and he's still not birth weight but they have been happy with the progress, hoping to get discharged on Fri. There's also been drama as they reckoned on the 2nd swab that I had before labour said I was carrying strep b and this led to lots of obs on Blake while we were in hospital and worry, but he's been fine, the little trooper. But most importantly, we have our rainbow and we love the bones of him. Can't say it was easy, but so so worth it xxx

 

[Petzy]

Hi, here's my birth story...

Thank you for sharing your story!!

 

[Petzy]

Ok well bloods are done... waiting for a call on what the level is now

they also gave me my first supply of Progesterone.... did not know they were vaginal suppositories lol... this should be interesting. Cant start them till I know when I am O'ing anyways but glad to be doing something.. Hopefully it does the trick for the next BFP

Just to let you know that progesterone suppositories can cause spotting. I used them for first 12 weeks of my pregnancy and reverted to rectal use as the spotting stressed me out too much.

Apparently vaginally or rectally is ok for the suppositories. They're less messy rectally but wear a liner if using vaginally.

Just a bit of info - hope you don't mind

Thanks I appreciate that info for sure! I have never heard of it causing spotting yet so that's good to know. I am not taking them yet... just taking my OPKs now and waiting to see what happens with those

 

[NewToAllThis]

Soop - thank you so much for posting your birth story - I shed a tear
That moment when you hold your rainbow after everything that has happened is utterly priceless

It was so refreshing to start reading how lovely and smoothly your labour was going and I am so sorry that it ended up how it did - but as you say, you have your rainbow now and everything we have to go through (before pregnancy, during and in labour) is worth it in the end.

That hormone drip is a bitch isn't it - I was on that from the start and that's why my pain was so bad. Good to hear that natural contractions are different and maybe less painful as if I do this again anytime, I hope to go into labour naturally and not be induced.

Sorry you're still in hospital - hope you get home soon. Love to you and gorgeous little Blake

 

[DSemcho]

Soop I really enjoyed reading that. I want to go as natural as I can handle, but I'm not gonna get an epidural no matter what. My whole family has had issues with them.

 

[Nicki123]

Soop! Thank you so much for sharing your story The bit where you described the pulling sensation in your chest and like you were having a heart attack ... I can't imagine how weird / scary that felt .

I love the way you handled your labour with the visualisation and 'going into yourself' - did you read a book or go to a class to learn how to do that ?

 

[Bibliophile]

Thanks, Nicki. I hope so. I'm tired. Not necessarily of TTC, but I'm tired of not even being able to try. Between my ovaries doing random things and his job, we've had one month where we even had a real shot. And we're coming up on cycle 6. Hubby only pushes as hard as I do, so if I have a day where I'm frustrated and just don't care, he lets it go.

 

[Nicki123]

I know what you mean Brittany, us ladies def have to take the ttc bull by the horns while the men fall in line, and it's hard work.