Hi all!
Last time I posted on here, I was in the TTC Bit scary being here as I'm sure it is for everybody!
Bit of background, I'm 31, DH is 34, we've been together for 11 years and recently got married. I have mild PCOS, which doesn't (shouldn't) affect my fertility. Have had low progesterone on blood tests before though. DH has low sperm count, morph and motility and each SA has fluctuated from 13million, to 20, to 5, to 2... crazy!
Anyway, after investigations we were referred for IVF with ICSI at St Barts in London. I have just started Downregulation injections and am due for my first baseline scan in a couple of weeks so all early days at the minute but happy to get the ball rolling.
The problem I'm having is being totally and utterly petrified that it won't work! It really feels like you're putting all of your eggs in one basket, which, of course, you are! I'm trying to be positive and I keep imagining myself in the next couple of months, will I be pregnant? Or won't I and how on earth am I going to feel if I'm not?? I think i'm quite a strong person, but this TTC journey is pretty horrific, i'm sure you'll all agree and it's getting scarier.
I just wondered if any others share this feelings and can offer any advice on how to cope with 'not knowing' all the time. I'm pretty impatient and hate not having definitive answers so of course, not great in this situation which requires endless patience and positivity.
Also, be amazing to hear from anyone who has any ICSI success stories! A bit on your background and how you coped with the whole process and finding out about your BFPs or not
Thanks in advance and hopefully hear from you guys soon xx
Last time I posted on here, I was in the TTC Bit scary being here as I'm sure it is for everybody!
Bit of background, I'm 31, DH is 34, we've been together for 11 years and recently got married. I have mild PCOS, which doesn't (shouldn't) affect my fertility. Have had low progesterone on blood tests before though. DH has low sperm count, morph and motility and each SA has fluctuated from 13million, to 20, to 5, to 2... crazy!
Anyway, after investigations we were referred for IVF with ICSI at St Barts in London. I have just started Downregulation injections and am due for my first baseline scan in a couple of weeks so all early days at the minute but happy to get the ball rolling.
The problem I'm having is being totally and utterly petrified that it won't work! It really feels like you're putting all of your eggs in one basket, which, of course, you are! I'm trying to be positive and I keep imagining myself in the next couple of months, will I be pregnant? Or won't I and how on earth am I going to feel if I'm not?? I think i'm quite a strong person, but this TTC journey is pretty horrific, i'm sure you'll all agree and it's getting scarier.
I just wondered if any others share this feelings and can offer any advice on how to cope with 'not knowing' all the time. I'm pretty impatient and hate not having definitive answers so of course, not great in this situation which requires endless patience and positivity.
Also, be amazing to hear from anyone who has any ICSI success stories! A bit on your background and how you coped with the whole process and finding out about your BFPs or not
Thanks in advance and hopefully hear from you guys soon xx