Adoption journey

[aimze]

lolly I cant imagine how scary that was!! I'm not surpsied the grapes went in the bin!!

Dream your day just sounds fantastic yay!

So not meeting with little ones (pink!) SW for a few weeks, with half term and annual leave its delayed it but oh well!

x

 

[Lolly1985]

Eeek a pink one!!! I would be biased here but don't want to upset Dreamy... (plus her little blue is totally gorge!!) Is panel next week lovely?

Dream did you have a lovely time? We managed to get out and walked to a little coffee shop this morning before the rain set in this afternoon. Now hiding inside and looking forward to a chippy tea Also me and DF are off for our first night away tomorrow. My parents are up at the moment and are staying at ours so she's in familiar surroundings, but I just know I'll be anxious!! Best go, think she wants some attention, she's just come up and stroked my hair and said 'Ahhh mama'! Love this little pink ♥♥♥

 

[aimze]

Awwwww lolly that's so cute!!!

Yes panel next week!! Eeeeeee! Monkey are you ready for next weeks panel too?

 

[dreamofabean]

Ha ha lolly I won't be offended!
Little girls are gorgeous but our little man was definitely the right baby for us maybe next time we'll be team pink?! that scare my dh if he heard it!lol
A couple of weeks will soon pass by Aimze! Very exciting!!
We had a lovely day couldn't walk in park or feed ducks due to rain but had a great time anyway!
Lolly have a fab evening away tomorrow! You guys deserve a lovely evening x

 

[Lolly1985]

Ahh yay, a little pink sister!! Hahaha! In a couple of years or so anyway...! (Don't worry just yet Mr Dream!!) Sounds a lovely day rain or on rain

We had big plans for tomorrow but what with one thing and another we are now staying in a making the most of the hotels restaurant, films and big comfy bed. I intend to eat, relax, eat and sleep!! And then eat some more! xxx

 

[Monkey78]

Wow just catching up with all your posts, a very mixed emotional few weeks been going on!

Aimze, I really feel for you having connection with the little ones, I cant imagine how you must be feeling, but you will know, your heart will let you know.

Dream & Lolly - sounds like you have been having some lovely cherished days, well apart from the choking sessions! Hope they are both ok.

Well we go to panel on Thursday, eek! Im actually feeling ok about it at the moment, how about you Aimze?

xxx

 

[aimze]

Monkey I feel fine about it, keep thinking that they wouldn't let us get to here if we weren't going to accept us!!

Best of luck Monkey, you'll be fine though!!

Xx

 

[Rainy123]

Good luck for panel ladies!

 

[dreamofabean]

Monkey I hope today went well Hun!
Aimze good luck for Thursday
Today has been a tough day in our house! Little man is teething and has been super miserable today! Just constant whinging and being clingy, cries when I hold him, cries when I put him down! His naps have been out if routine and it's just been a bit challenging all day! It's horrid having him moan and not being able to do anything about it calpol and teething powders have been used but didn't seem to put him out of his misery poor little man
Dh got home about 4.30pm and had to take over for an hour as I was jus drained from having it all day. It's horrid as my head says of course we will have days when things are tough, but I still feel guilty when I'm not all super happy and cheerful. I've waited so long to be a mommy so I guess I over analyse it all and carry guilt around with me.
I'm hoping little man is more cheerful and feels better tomorrow, for both our sakes

 

[Lolly1985]

Aww hugs Dream. I can totally relate to your feelings. For years we picture the scene in our heads and when we don't quite make the cut its hard not to feel guilty at not enjoying every single second. But days can be hard, teething is a killer for all. Hopefully good night's sleep all round might make for a more settled baby and a less exhausted mummy tomorrow. Don't feel bad, it's just been a tricky day xxx

Eeek Monkey, it's Thursday!!! And only a day behind for you Aimze! I'm very excited for you both

Love to all xxx

 

[dreamofabean]

Thanks lolly that's exactly it Hun. I know I worry too much and feel too guilty about anything that doesn't turn out perfectly!
Little man is sleeping soundly and I'm hoping he goes straight through! X

 

[Lolly1985]

I get like that sometimes, actually quite a lot! I know I will tomorrow as I need to have a bit of a clean up and I always feel horrible not playing or going out with little pink. But jobs have to be done and to be honest she loves the hoover and will use a wet wipe to clean like mummy, so she is probably quite happy! I also have food guilt. If it's not home cooked with lots of veggies I feel bad. Again silly but just me! It's horrible when they are ill but don't feel guilty, he needed cuddles and you gave them. Job done xxx

 

[aimze]

Ladies I obviously can't yet relate but I can really see where you're coming from...

It's a massive worry for me, that after longing to be a mummy that when LO comes hme ill have days where I want some me time but I guess this whole process has been a massive self evaluation so I'm thinking of all my weaknesses when actually we have so many strengths...

Panel tomorrow....prep on questions asked tonight so they're fresh!! Did you guys get asked a lot?

X

 

[Lolly1985]

Oops, other way round, Monkey is only a day behind Aimze! I can't keep up, Heehee! I think I've had about 2 afternoons and a night away me time in 5 months but while I often feel I need it, a lot is my own choice. I would love a break but hate being away from her. It's a tricky one to juggle in your head.

At panel we got asked 4 questions; how had we found the process? What did we enjoy? What were we thinking in terms of childcare arrangements when I return to work? Why did we choose our agency over the local authority we enquired with previously? Pretty standard straightforward questions I think. You'll be great!

Disturbed night this end so I'm expecting a tricky time keeping her going until sleep time. Wonder if I'll get much cleaning done...

 

[dreamofabean]

Ours was similar too Aimze, it's all standard stuff that you'll be able to answer so don't worry!
I've been the same lolly, I just can't bear to leave him! The longest I've been away from him is an hour and a half so far I worry that I'll miss something really important! Lol

 

[Rainy123]

I wish my panel had been that easy. I got asked TONS of questions ( couldn't say with certainty but around the I think.) and some were a bit tricky. My SW thinks it is something to do with the new PAR being shorter and less detailed so they were just curious about things that weren't covered.

Generally I found the questions were a formality though and not make or break. For example, they asked me how I would cope when times were hard and then reminded me that looking after myself was as important as worrying about baby.

So exciting that it's today. Can't wait to hear all about it.

 

[aimze]

We'll sit down an hav a good think...I'll go out later an buy us a nice breakfast so were ready!

Guys I'm feeling a little down about the phrase "you're just tempting fate" certain family members keep saying it over an over again because we've a fully ready child's room an buy a few bits here an there...or speak about planning (not booking!) family holidays...

Why can't people just be happy!!! I'm just annoyed cos they wouldn't say that to my pregnant sister!

X

 

[aimze]

Dream an Lolly I just love reading about your days!

 

[dreamofabean]

Oh Aimze we got that too! I just ignored it as it was what we needed to do to keep sane! Plus with our boy it was only confirmed at match panel 5 days before we met him... Imagine if we weren't ready what a rush we'd have had?!
You go ahead and buy Hun! I had a fully stocked wardrobe for little man and just figured if it all fell through id take it to the charity shop! This journey is too long and hard to not let yourself hope and forward plan! Xx

 

[aimze]

Dream exactly, I hate hate hate rushing!! I'd be so worried rushing to buy, also we had to wait 6 weeks for furniture an pram so I'd have been crazy!!

X