Oh I know what you mean, my first 2 were so unexpected and I have always said to my partner one of my dreams in life is to actually take a pregnancy test and not be shitting myself!!! I always thought that when I tried for my third I would struggle, its only been sine January but I just think why havent i fell pregnant yet? I havent used contraception for 3 years, just the pull out method (i have major doctors anxiety so havent even registered to a doctors since i moved down south 2 years ago) but now i am thinking why havent i fell pregnant in these 3 years by accident????
Mrs Mummy your MC may not have even sank in yet, you probably want this pregnancy even more because of that reason and you are probably very conflicted. All you can do is keep trying, and if it doesnt happen this month it is probably because of the MC xxx