anixety panic attacks and depression surpport group

[Raggydoll]

don't feel bad. DH should for feeling like he has been made to do it.

Hope you got a good rest and you're feeling better today. I get like this sometimes. I've been getting really anxious with work and college atm, had a good cry on DH last week, he's good at helping me get things into perspective but sometimes a good cry can make me feel better.

Had a really good weekend. Kate's party went really well. It was a crazy house with so many children under one roof!!! It's Kate's birthday today, we went for a meal with the in laws which was lovely. Thought it would be hard looking back on last year but today I'm just so happy to be here with my lovely little girl.

Thanks for all the sleep tips on here. I've been really struggling to get off to sleep for months. I need to learn to switch my mind off!

im glad your husbnd is so supportive, mine is, but i do the night feeds because hes normally at work. it was his day off though and he did it bless him.

im so glad Kates party went well! you must fo done great to have enjoyed it so much and the meal with the inlaws sounds lovely

my LO turns 6 months tomorrow, where has time gone? me and DH were planning to ttc for number 2 when LO turns one but MIL keeps making comments of how we should find better jobs and me go back to work and get our lives "sorted" and so forth.

i hate it when she makes comments like that. LO was a surprise we werent financially prepared we we make do, we happily go without and LO has a great standard of living. honestly its none of her business but ugh she does my head in at times. we were over visiting but she got annoying and LO got tired so i got DH to bring me home.

Happy six months Barry. It goes so quickly doesn't it.

I would go mad if people started to interfere with when I wanted to TTC. There is never going to be a "right" time.
It'll be lovely for Barry to have a brother or sister close in age. I'm really close to my little sister.

Hope you're having a good day. x

 

[Raggydoll]

It is so lovely to read such positive posts from people. It's also great to hear how caring people are here on this forum.... I have read quite a few unsupportive and uncaring messages on bmp over the past 18 months

Raggydoll It's great that the birthday party went well. My little one will be 1 next month and I can't believe where the time has gone. At times anxiety and depression have made motherhood so hard and painful but thankfully it has been worth it. Sometimes I look at my LO and feel as though my heart will break because of how lucky I feel to finally have him.
Pepsichic it's totally yours and your OH decision when you decide to try for another. For some people the time will never be totally right financially to have another baby.... but that doesn't mean that you shouldn't. When it feels right for you then go for it, what ever others may think.

Annunakian, like you, my anxiety came out again with pregnancy. I hadn't suffered badly for years and then I became pregnant and anxiety raised its ugly head. I won't pretend that it has been easy, because it hasn't. The 1st 6months were so hard and it didn't help that I refused to go and see the Dr.... in fact I'm still refusing... but that's because I don't think they will help..... but that's another story. I have found that it's good to talk though and this group is certainly help me... so, welcome!

Needausername, I'm a great believer in prayer too. Some days I think that is the only thing that gets me through. I find that if I wake up feeling ok then it's so much easier... the hardest step was always getting out of bed. Well done on being up and about for 12 hours!!!

That's how I feel. I find it hard looking back sometimes at the first few months. I really find it hard not to feel guilty becaude I was so depressed in the forst few months. I also feel kind of sad that I didn't have the chance to enjoy it.

 

[Raggydoll]

Hi all hope you don't mind if I join

I suffer with depression, anxiety and PTSD. I spent a lot of last year in and out of hospital (cutting, overdoses) and went through 4 different anti depressants. I finally 'settled' on 75mg venlafaxine but haven't been able to take it for the past 3 months or so because I'm pregnant. It's really hard regulating my moods and it doesn't help that my OH works nights as that's when most of my 'episodes' occur. I have an appointment with a consultant and a substance midwife on Monday to see what can be done.

Hope everyone is ok

Hi Sequeena.

I've had a pretty similar year. I spent time in hospital and then a mental health mother and baby unit. After several changes to my medication things finally settled down when I was put on 150mg of Venlafaxine and 50mg of Quetieapin.

I hope your appointment with the consultant goes well. x

 

[topsy]

Hi girls,

I have a job interview tomorrow and am so anxious, My dad was going to drive me, so i don't have to worry about getting there on time, parking the car ect, but he has now hurt his back so cant

On the form it asks about your employment history for the last 10 years and to explain any gaps. So I put I have i quit my job in oct 10 ( i dindt put due to the anxiety and depression) but did put I have been off since then with anxiety and depression. But have know idea what to say if they ask me about it????!!!!!!Do i just say its for personal reasons, which have been treated. I mean i have been doing well am now taking just my antidepressants, and I have cut down on that dose!!!Argh, I don't know!!!

Feel a sleepless night tonight xxxx

 

[Raggydoll]

Hi girls,

I have a job interview tomorrow and am so anxious, My dad was going to drive me, so i don't have to worry about getting there on time, parking the car ect, but he has now hurt his back so cant

On the form it asks about your employment history for the last 10 years and to explain any gaps. So I put I have i quit my job in oct 10 ( i dindt put due to the anxiety and depression) but did put I have been off since then with anxiety and depression. But have know idea what to say if they ask me about it????!!!!!!Do i just say its for personal reasons, which have been treated. I mean i have been doing well am now taking just my antidepressants, and I have cut down on that dose!!!Argh, I don't know!!!

Feel a sleepless night tonight xxxx

Good luck with your interview. The first period of depression I had I was off work for a while. I decided to leave whilst I was off due to people starting rumours about why I was off.
The job I applied for I put my reason for leaving as health problems and they were fine with that. I got the job. It's also where I met my husband.

Try doing something you really enjoy to take your mind off tomorrow. Hope it all goes ok. X

 

[Annunakian]

Annu - i know what you mean i can be triggered by the same thing (ie my husband going to work sets off my seperation anxiety) but it can also be triggered by a completely random things, like a car going past, a show on the tv, rain on the window or certain songs on the radio. you must be exicted with the LO being due so soon? have you picked out a name? and what Ds think about having a little sister?

Oh yes, very excited! I would say I am not looking forward to the no sleeping but with my hips and back always in pain I don't get any now anyway!

We have decided on Zoey Noel (not sure if we want the y in it so I'm writing it out to see if I like it). I wanted something older but DH is stubborn so Zoey was the only one we could agree on. DS is pretty excited, for now. Who knows how he will cope when she actually gets here but I'm hoping it stays this way. Every once in awhile when he gets up in the morning he asks me if the baby is still in my tummy. He also says he was 3 more sister and a brother I told him after Zoey; Mommy isn't having anymore kids. lol She wasn't planned at all and was a total surprise but such a welcome one and now that I have a boy and girl I'm done. lol

I've had a pretty good couple of days but have noticed when I try to sleep on my left my side I start getting an attack. I've refused to be left to one side so I've been trying to work through it and talk myself through it, regulate my breathing and such and it's been going well.

Welcome hopeful and sequeena.

 

[sequeena]

Hi all hope you don't mind if I join

I suffer with depression, anxiety and PTSD. I spent a lot of last year in and out of hospital (cutting, overdoses) and went through 4 different anti depressants. I finally 'settled' on 75mg venlafaxine but haven't been able to take it for the past 3 months or so because I'm pregnant. It's really hard regulating my moods and it doesn't help that my OH works nights as that's when most of my 'episodes' occur. I have an appointment with a consultant and a substance midwife on Monday to see what can be done.

Hope everyone is ok

Hi Sequeena.

I've had a pretty similar year. I spent time in hospital and then a mental health mother and baby unit. After several changes to my medication things finally settled down when I was put on 150mg of Venlafaxine and 50mg of Quetieapin.

I hope your appointment with the consultant goes well. x

Thank you x I saw my community midwife today who told me I will definitely be put back onto some sort of medication. I'm not sure how I feel about this, part of me is glad and the rest of me feels like a failiure

 

[PepsiChic]

Glad I found this thread, I am 22 weeks pregnant and have been struggling with anxiety/panic attacks my entire life but controlled them myself until about 7 yrs ago when I quit doing recreational drugs due to having a drug overdose. The anxiety attacks got very bad for a bit where i constantly thought I was going to die, now I take anti anxiety meds which i've had to taper down since I got pregnant, I still take a small dose which helps but some days are harder than others. I have never responded well to most anti depressants and have never really been depressed, its just bad anxiety. Now I really don't have panic or anxiety attacks, but when I do it's generally in the middle of the night when I can't fall back asleep. I don't have the convincing thoughts that i am dying and can generally talk myself out of panic attacks if they occur in the daytime but night time def not. I also have problems sleeping at times so I'll have to take here and there.

I've had panic attacks that i was shaking uncontrollably and would black out, but that hasn't happened for awhile.

Anyway thats enough of feeling sorry for myself.

Hi hopeful welcome to the group *hugs*

do you have a OH with you at night time to help with the panic attacks and anxiety? or try having something close by that will help remind you of something comforting. i find having my oldest cat sleep in ym bedroom helps, if i wake up panicky i just reach out for him and have a cuddle, the purring is really relaxing and he loves to be cuddled.
or try spraying your pillow with lavander spray or some kind of herbal sleep aid spray, keep the spray next to your bed and if you wake just spray a bit more.

stay strong and keep posting here! and huge congrats on your pregnancy

Hi girls,

I have a job interview tomorrow and am so anxious, My dad was going to drive me, so i don't have to worry about getting there on time, parking the car ect, but he has now hurt his back so cant

On the form it asks about your employment history for the last 10 years and to explain any gaps. So I put I have i quit my job in oct 10 ( i dindt put due to the anxiety and depression) but did put I have been off since then with anxiety and depression. But have know idea what to say if they ask me about it????!!!!!!Do i just say its for personal reasons, which have been treated. I mean i have been doing well am now taking just my antidepressants, and I have cut down on that dose!!!Argh, I don't know!!!

Feel a sleepless night tonight xxxx

hi topsy,

an interview can be really stressful for a person who doesnt suffer from a mental disorder let alone someone who has on going problems.

make sure you leave really early, take Id, bank account info, a copy of your resume/CV and some rescue remedy drops/anti-anxietty meds if you have some.

when it comes to your health you do not have to tell them anything detailed. you can just say you quit your last job because of health issues and that you have them under controlled medication and feel able to do the job you are applying for.

try to stay calm

 

[PepsiChic]

Hi all hope you don't mind if I join

I suffer with depression, anxiety and PTSD. I spent a lot of last year in and out of hospital (cutting, overdoses) and went through 4 different anti depressants. I finally 'settled' on 75mg venlafaxine but haven't been able to take it for the past 3 months or so because I'm pregnant. It's really hard regulating my moods and it doesn't help that my OH works nights as that's when most of my 'episodes' occur. I have an appointment with a consultant and a substance midwife on Monday to see what can be done.

Hope everyone is ok

Hi Sequeena.

I've had a pretty similar year. I spent time in hospital and then a mental health mother and baby unit. After several changes to my medication things finally settled down when I was put on 150mg of Venlafaxine and 50mg of Quetieapin.

I hope your appointment with the consultant goes well. x

Thank you x I saw my community midwife today who told me I will definitely be put back onto some sort of medication. I'm not sure how I feel about this, part of me is glad and the rest of me feels like a failiure

Hi Sequeena welcome to the group!

I really hope the appointment goes well for you on monday keep us updated on that ok? what colour bump are you hoping for? xx

 

[sequeena]

Hi all hope you don't mind if I join

I suffer with depression, anxiety and PTSD. I spent a lot of last year in and out of hospital (cutting, overdoses) and went through 4 different anti depressants. I finally 'settled' on 75mg venlafaxine but haven't been able to take it for the past 3 months or so because I'm pregnant. It's really hard regulating my moods and it doesn't help that my OH works nights as that's when most of my 'episodes' occur. I have an appointment with a consultant and a substance midwife on Monday to see what can be done.

Hope everyone is ok

Hi Sequeena.

I've had a pretty similar year. I spent time in hospital and then a mental health mother and baby unit. After several changes to my medication things finally settled down when I was put on 150mg of Venlafaxine and 50mg of Quetieapin.

I hope your appointment with the consultant goes well. x

Thank you x I saw my community midwife today who told me I will definitely be put back onto some sort of medication. I'm not sure how I feel about this, part of me is glad and the rest of me feels like a failiure

Hi Sequeena welcome to the group!

I really hope the appointment goes well for you on monday keep us updated on that ok? what colour bump are you hoping for? xx

Thank you, I will I don't mind if we have a boy or girl but OH would like a girl x This is our miracle baby so I really really don't mind

 

[hopefulmama]

Pepsi- Yes I have a husband around but i feel bad waking him up. I haven't had a night time episode for awhile but when they come, i don't go back to sleep for hours. I find by having my dog with me or trying to read I come out of it...
Thanks for asking

how are you?

 

[PepsiChic]

hopeful thats good that you have found things to help, you should find some books about it to read, i find understanding the problem by reading books calsm me down and helps me realise whats going on and whats triggering it.

im doing ok today thankyou, but it is only 9pm and my husband is not due home for another 3 and a half hours which is making things difficult. I really wish he could stay home with me but he needs to work to pay the bills etc and its good for him to be out and social with his friends at work and not stuck int he house every day with me. i understand it, just find it difficult!

he did leave me a little surprise though! a bag of starburst and a little "i love you" note on the desk before he left for work.

i also changed my avatar to a picture that makes me laugh every time i see it, so that helps!

 

[eblondie]

It's great to see new faces here... Welcome!!!
I've had my 1st day off all week today which was good. I'm not sleeping very well though which makes things difficult. I can get off to sleep pretty easily but then I wake up constantly Today LO only had one nap of 40 minutes which is nothing like what he normally does which meant that I needed patience as he was cranky!
Hope everyone has had a good day x

 

[topsy]

Hi everyone,

I had my interview, thanks raggydoll and pepsichic for the advice xxx It went ok I think, it`s for a support worker, and i have the second part on mon, where i go into the clients home and meet them. I am hoping as I got through to the second part it`s a good sign!!!

Sorry your not sleeping ebondie, I have the opposite problem, i can`t get to sleep at night, but once I am its ok and I sleep through. I am thinking of seeing if I can get some herbal tablets to help me sleep, but need to check if i can take them with my antidepressants.

pepsichic, I love your picture, just sooooo cute hope you enjoyed your startburst.

Hugs to everyone and I hope you all have a ok ish day xxxxx

 

[needausername]

Well done on the interview Topsy!

Sorry to everyone, I read your posts yesterday but my concentration was super bad so I couldn't actually take in anything and words were getting jumbled in my head. It was like I was completely detached from the world in a way.

So big hugs to everyone that needs one and welcome to anyone new.


Feeling a bit topsy turvey since yesterday. I'm back to work on Monday and I am dreading it. I feel sick at the thought of it. I could barely eat my breakfast. I'm going to go on a big long walk today with some music playing in my ears and hopefully it will help me relax.

 

[carolyn_s]

Hi ladies, room for me?
Im 22, 2 girls, suffered with PND after my first and im in the middle of battling it for a second time now and life is literally like a rollercoaster of emotions.
Ive had problems with anxiety since i fell pregnant with Abby. The first week of this year was a difficult one but ive been better since. When things get bad i seem to 'punish' myself by not eating or binging until im sick. Im also a 'skin picker' which may sound odd but when im really crying and cant find a way to stop i scratch and pick at my skin usually untill it bleeds and im left with horrible marks dont do it often but i would rather i didnt do it at all!
Hope everyone else is ok, glad i found this thread xxx

 

[Raggydoll]

Thank you x I saw my community midwife today who told me I will definitely be put back onto some sort of medication. I'm not sure how I feel about this, part of me is glad and the rest of me feels like a failiure

Sounds like you have a good midwife. Don't feel like a failure for going back on the medication you're doing your best to feel better. I hope you're ok.

hopeful thats good that you have found things to help, you should find some books about it to read, i find understanding the problem by reading books calsm me down and helps me realise whats going on and whats triggering it.

im doing ok today thankyou, but it is only 9pm and my husband is not due home for another 3 and a half hours which is making things difficult. I really wish he could stay home with me but he needs to work to pay the bills etc and its good for him to be out and social with his friends at work and not stuck int he house every day with me. i understand it, just find it difficult!

he did leave me a little surprise though! a bag of starburst and a little "i love you" note on the desk before he left for work.

i also changed my avatar to a picture that makes me laugh every time i see it, so that helps!

Pepsi I love your new avater, Barry looks very cute. I hope you enjoyed your starburst.

Do you get out to any groups? I used to enjoy baby massage and stay and play but now I'm at work I can't do them.

It's great to see new faces here... Welcome!!!
I've had my 1st day off all week today which was good. I'm not sleeping very well though which makes things difficult. I can get off to sleep pretty easily but then I wake up constantly Today LO only had one nap of 40 minutes which is nothing like what he normally does which meant that I needed patience as he was cranky!
Hope everyone has had a good day x

Hi eblondie,

I've got a slightly different sleep problem. It takes me hours to get off to sleep. I'm ok once I am asleep. I lie awake for ages with my mind racingme wind down techniques my consultant recommended but I'm struggling to switch my mind off.

Hi everyone,

I had my interview, thanks raggydoll and pepsichic for the advice xxx It went ok I think, it`s for a support worker, and i have the second part on mon, where i go into the clients home and meet them. I am hoping as I got through to the second part it`s a good sign!!!

Sorry your not sleeping ebondie, I have the opposite problem, i can`t get to sleep at night, but once I am its ok and I sleep through. I am thinking of seeing if I can get some herbal tablets to help me sleep, but need to check if i can take them with my antidepressants.

pepsichic, I love your picture, just sooooo cute hope you enjoyed your startburst.

Hugs to everyone and I hope you all have a ok ish day xxxxx

Topsy, I'm so glad your interview went well. Good luck for the next one on Monday.

Hi ladies, room for me?
Im 22, 2 girls, suffered with PND after my first and im in the middle of battling it for a second time now and life is literally like a rollercoaster of emotions.
Ive had problems with anxiety since i fell pregnant with Abby. The first week of this year was a difficult one but ive been better since. When things get bad i seem to 'punish' myself by not eating or binging until im sick. Im also a 'skin picker' which may sound odd but when im really crying and cant find a way to stop i scratch and pick at my skin usually untill it bleeds and im left with horrible marks dont do it often but i would rather i didnt do it at all!
Hope everyone else is ok, glad i found this thread xxx

Hi Carolyn,

I have PND and anxiety. I'm doing ok with the PND at the moment but it's been a difficult year. The skin picking doesn't sound odd to me. It's like a release. When I get really bad I pull at my hair and kind of claw at my skin. It's because I can feel this pain in my chest and I literally want to rip it out. It porobably doesn't make sense to most people but to me it feels like it'll be a way to rid myself of this pain.
I've also had periods of self harm. I've not cut myself for months now but sometimes I can feel that tension building. Particularly at work at the moment. I've been told when I feel the tension building to take each part of my body at a time, tense it, hold it a let it go.

I'll do a catch up later as I've had an up and down week but I'm going to grab some food before Kate wakes up from her nap.

to you all. xx

 

[carolyn_s]

Im so glad im not the only one, ive never cut myself but i can imagine its similar -a release. I was so shocked when my health visitor referred to it as self harm as i had never looked at it that way. xx

 

[sequeena]

Cutting is... hard to explain... I think I use it as a punishment rather than a release. It's so strange, I never thought I'd be a cutter

 

[PepsiChic]

It's great to see new faces here... Welcome!!!
I've had my 1st day off all week today which was good. I'm not sleeping very well though which makes things difficult. I can get off to sleep pretty easily but then I wake up constantly Today LO only had one nap of 40 minutes which is nothing like what he normally does which meant that I needed patience as he was cranky!
Hope everyone has had a good day x

i agree this group is really taking off and i think its great so many of us ehre can help and relate to eachother *big hugs all round!*

Im sog lad your getting a day off, we all need time to recharge (hard with LO's though) I used to sleep badly like that, id wake constantly and itd take me forever to get back to sleep so when the alarm went off id be just as tired as when i went to bed. sometimes id get up in tears i was so tired and thats not a good way to start the day. now i find it hard t get to sleep, sleep till about half way through and my OCD makes me get up and check the door is still locked, the stove still off and the fridge door still shut...why, no idea but i guess its why its OCD!


I had problems with LO napping yesterday, he normally naps twice a day for anywhere from 1-2 hours, but yesterday his first nap was 15 minutes....followed by an early second nap which was 30 minutes and i managed to squeeze in another nap which was an hour just before bed, which then ment he went to bed later then normal because he had no intention of going to sleep at the normal time!

still second night in a row that hes slept through from 7/8pm till 7/8am, for the last 3 weeks hes been waking up at 4am. he did start to stir at 4am but i ignored him, he whined for a minute, rolled over and went back to sleep.

Hi everyone,

I had my interview, thanks raggydoll and pepsichic for the advice xxx It went ok I think, it`s for a support worker, and i have the second part on mon, where i go into the clients home and meet them. I am hoping as I got through to the second part it`s a good sign!!!

Sorry your not sleeping ebondie, I have the opposite problem, i can`t get to sleep at night, but once I am its ok and I sleep through. I am thinking of seeing if I can get some herbal tablets to help me sleep, but need to check if i can take them with my antidepressants.

pepsichic, I love your picture, just sooooo cute hope you enjoyed your startburst.

Hugs to everyone and I hope you all have a ok ish day xxxxx

Topsy im so proud of you!!! well done for going and getting through it and coming out the other end with a second interview!!! it must of gone great for you to have been given the second interview thats a big step forward. i know you'll be just fine at the second one *hugs* well done!
xxx

Well done on the interview Topsy!

Sorry to everyone, I read your posts yesterday but my concentration was super bad so I couldn't actually take in anything and words were getting jumbled in my head. It was like I was completely detached from the world in a way.

So big hugs to everyone that needs one and welcome to anyone new.


Feeling a bit topsy turvey since yesterday. I'm back to work on Monday and I am dreading it. I feel sick at the thought of it. I could barely eat my breakfast. I'm going to go on a big long walk today with some music playing in my ears and hopefully it will help me relax.

dont worry if you couldnt post or concentrate, i get that sometimes, i'll sit here and read a post, and re-read it over and over and get upset with myself because i still cant focus on what it says. sometimes i have to remind myself to stop trying so hard and get back to it later. its not going anywhere!

try and stay relaxed this weekend, theres no point getting worked up and anxious and ruinining your weekend worrying about monday. when monday comes, THEN worry about monday, till then, monday is just another day thats yet to come. do whatever you need to to relax and take your mind off of it *hugs* it wont be so bad when your back there will it? is it a job you like?

Hi ladies, room for me?
Im 22, 2 girls, suffered with PND after my first and im in the middle of battling it for a second time now and life is literally like a rollercoaster of emotions.
Ive had problems with anxiety since i fell pregnant with Abby. The first week of this year was a difficult one but ive been better since. When things get bad i seem to 'punish' myself by not eating or binging until im sick. Im also a 'skin picker' which may sound odd but when im really crying and cant find a way to stop i scratch and pick at my skin usually untill it bleeds and im left with horrible marks dont do it often but i would rather i didnt do it at all!
Hope everyone else is ok, glad i found this thread xxx

Im so glad im not the only one, ive never cut myself but i can imagine its similar -a release. I was so shocked when my health visitor referred to it as self harm as i had never looked at it that way. xx

welcome carolyn! *hugs*

I also punish myself with not eating, unfortunatly health workers, doctors, therapists all see that as selfharm. same as physically doing something to hurt yourself lie the skin picking. i bite my nails, i bite them so far down i make my fingers bleed sometimes. it was a bad habbit as a kid, but with my anixety i do it more and more and more. i think we all have little things like thi and sometimes we dont even realise it.

its good that you know theres a problem, you cant cure something you dont know exists. maybe try having something to distract you in times of bad anxiety. I used a rubix cube for ages till i lost it moving. whenever i was stressed or feeling anxious, id grab it, id always have it somewhere i could easily get it and close to me, for me that was my computer desk. if i noticed i was biting my nails id grab the rubix cube and concentrate on it. maybe have that, or a game on facebook you can go play if your feeling axnious and like you might start skin picking, that way you stop it before it gets out of hand.

x