today has been one hell of a day, i frekaed out again about my hsuband leaving for work, but i managed to let him get to the end of the road first ebfore i freaked.
well he txted and said "mum is going to have the baby week nights" i paniced completely as i was already in that frame of mine, i instantly went on the defensive/panic mode and begged him not take my baby away and that i wont let him or her take him i would run away and hide and so forth.
he preceeded to tell me to calm down that he wasnt going to take the baby away but thought that MIL could have baby so i could go back to work. but i DONT want to go back to work, i thought i did but i dont. and im terrified of being around allt hose people again. theres just no way i can do it.
and leave baby with MIL? is he mad? her kids are ALWAYS sick and screaming and causing trouble, i can never get him to nap over ther ebecause the 5 yar old wakes him up because shes always in trouble and screaming. so hed get sick and have no sleep. plus MIL would feed him cookies and chocolate and pizza and crap i dont want him eating, i only just started weaning him BLW with carrots and brocoli and stuff.
well he said sorry he wont take baby away and i need to calm down etc. of course ive now gone downt he depression route and i feel like a really crap mother and wife. *sigh*
I'm interested! I've been diagnosed with Seasonal Affective Disorder and Social Anxiety Disorder and unofficially with ADHD.
Hi. Thanks for pointing me over in this direction. It would be great if we could all use this for chatting
Hi Everyone,
I suffer from severe anxiety and depression. i have done on and off since 1999. My CBT therapist thinks I may have a social panic disorder as well as anxiety and depression. I have been so many tablets for this. Last year was a particularly rough year, I had to leave my job last year where i had worked since 2011 in oct, but I have this week started as a self employed carer for a family member and am applying for another part time job. I just cannot cope with working full time
I have cut out my sleeping tablets out and the first 7 weeks were hell, but I am getting there now and have cut down on my citalopram by 10mg a couple of weeks ago, and haven't needed to take any of my anxiety tablets for a few weeks. we are going to start ttc in may, and I think I will still be on them. Has anyone been on then while they were pregnant?
Sending everyone hugs xxx
Does anyone else do journalling? My counsellor got me to try it and I found it really helps identifying what is REALLY upsetting me or stressing me so I can try better to resolve the problem. Only thing is I have been too depressed and too afraid to do it for nearly 3 months now. I'm thinking of sitting down with my journal tonight after I have watched a dvd.