~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[HellBunny]

Does anyone restricting get severe headaches?

Yes!! its so fucking awful, sorry language! When i get it, it seems to last for 2 days on the trot.




I'm so sick of this, when i starve i feel acomplished, like i'm worth something yet completely worthless at the same time. Yet when i eat i have so much more energy but feel repulsive.

I have a college course in the evening tomorrow so won't be back until 11pm! I know i won't eat tomorrow since my sister fed me today as i blacked out round there, i felt like such a piece of shit as a mother. What sort of mother makes herself ill over some stupid fucking issues.

I was at my LW this morning but no doubt gained!! GAh!

 

[Lubbird]

So my Dad told me to move my fat a** today...

Yeah...my grandpa told me to "Suck it in." the other day when he was moving things in the kitchen and I had to get through...He didn't mean any harm, but for someone who's ALWAYS worried their weight will be mentioned, it hurts.

Why would anyone say something like that though? Bit rude.

 

[Rin731]

Yes! The thing I hate most is how I feel better when I eat as far as energy...but the rest of me feels like shit. Like I 'gave in' or something.

The only time I feel like I'm in control, or worth something, is when I restrict. I'm so proud of it.

 

[Rin731]

So my Dad told me to move my fat a** today...

Yeah...my grandpa told me to "Suck it in." the other day when he was moving things in the kitchen and I had to get through...He didn't mean any harm, but for someone who's ALWAYS worried their weight will be mentioned, it hurts.

Why would anyone say something like that though? Bit rude.

That's nothing. My grandma (his wife) always told me my periods were irregular and very painful because I was overweight (which can be true, but mine were irregular size 7-20, and have been for 10 yrs!)

She also told me I was "Getting too skinny." when I lost 30 lbs, then when I gained 10-20 lbs back, came up, stabbed her finger into my stomach, and said, "Better start belly dancing again."

 

[mrswhitetobe]

Hey everyone, just looking for a bit advice. I've always been obsessed with my weight and as a teenager, I'd starve myself to stay thin. I was seriously underweight and if I became ill, I'd collapse after being sick so was in hospital quite a lot. I'm 22 now and have three little boys, my youngest is 9 weeks but since having him I've done nothing but cry about my weight. I hate seeing myself in the mirror and for the past week, I've only been eating a banana and boiled egg a day. I'm 5ft 5 and weigh 9 stone but will do anything to lose a stone. I'm getting married in just over 11 weeks and I'm dreading the thought of people taking photos. People keep commenting on how great I look and how quick I've lost weight after having my baby but whenever I look in the mirror, I just see fat. I've become obsessed with weighing myself to see if I've lost any weight and sometimes stand on the scales three times a day even though I know I wont get results that quick
Everyone just thinks I have postnatal depression but I know it's just because of my weight. I have no one to talk to because I just get told to "stop being stupid, you don't need to lose weight"

 

[annawrigley]

Rin, sorry you're having such a hard time

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I just purged im fucking gross

 

[Croc-O-Dile]

Rin, sorry you're having such a hard time

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I just purged im fucking gross

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I went and bought a pair of jeans today that were a size 00. I felt great about myself until the store clerk said "Oh yeah, our jeans run big, don't they?" Wow. Thanks. I went to others stores and tried on jeans of the same size and couldn't fit in them. I cried.

 

[sarah0108]

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im officially a fat whale.

why the fuck did i think it was a good idea to buy digital scales?! They told me i was 7.5lbs over weight and i weighed 10lb more than i expected before anyone tells me i am not fat.. i am, i cant fit in any of my clothes, and my bmi is overweight



i hate myself some fucking holiday its gonna be next week, almost 40 degree heat for 2 weeks which means me having to strip down to nothing so i can play in the pool with the kids. I shall be taking all the photos so i dont get any taken of myself, im going to have a breakdown if i catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror how did i let myself get so FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[mayb_baby]

I am ok today I have done loads of exercise and I'm eating a healthy vegetable stir fry for dinner (yes it's all I have had with like a million cups of coffee but it's a good dinner)

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I am in an amazing mood I am 7stn 7lb MY PREPREG WEIGHT. This has taken nearly nine months of torture I will maintain this and get to my next GW of 7stn

 

[mayb_baby]

Hey everyone, just looking for a bit advice. I've always been obsessed with my weight and as a teenager, I'd starve myself to stay thin. I was seriously underweight and if I became ill, I'd collapse after being sick so was in hospital quite a lot. I'm 22 now and have three little boys, my youngest is 9 weeks but since having him I've done nothing but cry about my weight. I hate seeing myself in the mirror and for the past week, I've only been eating a banana and boiled egg a day. I'm 5ft 5 and weigh 9 stone but will do anything to lose a stone. I'm getting married in just over 11 weeks and I'm dreading the thought of people taking photos. People keep commenting on how great I look and how quick I've lost weight after having my baby but whenever I look in the mirror, I just see fat. I've become obsessed with weighing myself to see if I've lost any weight and sometimes stand on the scales three times a day even though I know I wont get results that quick
Everyone just thinks I have postnatal depression but I know it's just because of my weight. I have no one to talk to because I just get told to "stop being stupid, you don't need to lose weight"

 

[Rin731]

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im officially a fat whale.

why the fuck did i think it was a good idea to buy digital scales?! They told me i was 7.5lbs over weight and i weighed 10lb more than i expected before anyone tells me i am not fat.. i am, i cant fit in any of my clothes, and my bmi is overweight



i hate myself some fucking holiday its gonna be next week, almost 40 degree heat for 2 weeks which means me having to strip down to nothing so i can play in the pool with the kids. I shall be taking all the photos so i dont get any taken of myself, im going to have a breakdown if i catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror how did i let myself get so FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I feel the same way. I have a box of medium tops and size 10-12 jeans I am saving because I REFUSE to be this heavy...I'm trying to do it right, and exercise and eat right, but it NEVER feels like I'm doing enough, even though I'm on day 2 of my 'Weight Loss Plan' that I made for myself! I just get so sad and I want to cry. HOW the FUCK did I let myself get this fat? HOW? (And I am overweight too, I know I am, I'm a 2x on top now...) I was 140 lbs May 2011, I'm now 225. I just want to starve til I'm thin. I'm so sad and just hate myself so much all the time...

 

[Rin731]

Rin, sorry you're having such a hard time

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I just purged im fucking gross

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You are not. We all trip up sometimes.

 

[mayb_baby]

Ally, Anna and Sarah

 

[sarah0108]

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im officially a fat whale.

why the fuck did i think it was a good idea to buy digital scales?! They told me i was 7.5lbs over weight and i weighed 10lb more than i expected before anyone tells me i am not fat.. i am, i cant fit in any of my clothes, and my bmi is overweight



i hate myself some fucking holiday its gonna be next week, almost 40 degree heat for 2 weeks which means me having to strip down to nothing so i can play in the pool with the kids. I shall be taking all the photos so i dont get any taken of myself, im going to have a breakdown if i catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror how did i let myself get so FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I feel the same way. I have a box of medium tops and size 10-12 jeans I am saving because I REFUSE to be this heavy...I'm trying to do it right, and exercise and eat right, but it NEVER feels like I'm doing enough, even though I'm on day 2 of my 'Weight Loss Plan' that I made for myself! I just get so sad and I want to cry. HOW the FUCK did I let myself get this fat? HOW? (And I am overweight too, I know I am, I'm a 2x on top now...) I was 140 lbs May 2011, I'm now 225. I just want to starve til I'm thin. I'm so sad and just hate myself so much all the time...

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I cant believe i am sharing this, its making me feel sick and nervous. Im horrified at my self

i weigh 150lbs

i used to be approx 113lbs more or less (depending on if i binged or starved )

 

[Rin731]

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im officially a fat whale.

why the fuck did i think it was a good idea to buy digital scales?! They told me i was 7.5lbs over weight and i weighed 10lb more than i expected before anyone tells me i am not fat.. i am, i cant fit in any of my clothes, and my bmi is overweight



i hate myself some fucking holiday its gonna be next week, almost 40 degree heat for 2 weeks which means me having to strip down to nothing so i can play in the pool with the kids. I shall be taking all the photos so i dont get any taken of myself, im going to have a breakdown if i catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror how did i let myself get so FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I feel the same way. I have a box of medium tops and size 10-12 jeans I am saving because I REFUSE to be this heavy...I'm trying to do it right, and exercise and eat right, but it NEVER feels like I'm doing enough, even though I'm on day 2 of my 'Weight Loss Plan' that I made for myself! I just get so sad and I want to cry. HOW the FUCK did I let myself get this fat? HOW? (And I am overweight too, I know I am, I'm a 2x on top now...) I was 140 lbs May 2011, I'm now 225. I just want to starve til I'm thin. I'm so sad and just hate myself so much all the time...

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I cant believe i am sharing this, its making me feel sick and nervous. Im horrified at my self

i weigh 150lbs

i used to be approx 113lbs more or less (depending on if i binged or starved )

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Oh hon...I want to be YOUR size. I can't believe I'm 225 lbs. I am so sick and miserable at myself.
....*sigh* Hope some bellydance/yoga DVD later will calm me down...I just have to remember I'm taking the steps (cutting down food and exercising) to lose, and not to panic, but I do ALL THE TIME. For me, the weight can't come off fast enough, truly.

 

[Rin731]

I am ok today I have done loads of exercise and I'm eating a healthy vegetable stir fry for dinner (yes it's all I have had with like a million cups of coffee but it's a good dinner)

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I am in an amazing mood I am 7stn 7lb MY PREPREG WEIGHT. This has taken nearly nine months of torture I will maintain this and get to my next GW of 7stn

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Good job on your weight....I'm 225lbs trying to get to 150, so wish me luck...

 

[HellBunny]

hugs to everyone

 

[sarah0108]

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im officially a fat whale.

why the fuck did i think it was a good idea to buy digital scales?! They told me i was 7.5lbs over weight and i weighed 10lb more than i expected before anyone tells me i am not fat.. i am, i cant fit in any of my clothes, and my bmi is overweight



i hate myself some fucking holiday its gonna be next week, almost 40 degree heat for 2 weeks which means me having to strip down to nothing so i can play in the pool with the kids. I shall be taking all the photos so i dont get any taken of myself, im going to have a breakdown if i catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror how did i let myself get so FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I feel the same way. I have a box of medium tops and size 10-12 jeans I am saving because I REFUSE to be this heavy...I'm trying to do it right, and exercise and eat right, but it NEVER feels like I'm doing enough, even though I'm on day 2 of my 'Weight Loss Plan' that I made for myself! I just get so sad and I want to cry. HOW the FUCK did I let myself get this fat? HOW? (And I am overweight too, I know I am, I'm a 2x on top now...) I was 140 lbs May 2011, I'm now 225. I just want to starve til I'm thin. I'm so sad and just hate myself so much all the time...

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I cant believe i am sharing this, its making me feel sick and nervous. Im horrified at my self

i weigh 150lbs

i used to be approx 113lbs more or less (depending on if i binged or starved )

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Oh hon...I want to be YOUR size. I can't believe I'm 225 lbs. I am so sick and miserable at myself.
....*sigh* Hope some bellydance/yoga DVD later will calm me down...I just have to remember I'm taking the steps (cutting down food and exercising) to lose, and not to panic, but I do ALL THE TIME. For me, the weight can't come off fast enough, truly.

it so hard and when we think about it the harder it becomes so its a horrible circle.

How tall are you? for my height im overweight x

 

[mayb_baby]

I am ok today I have done loads of exercise and I'm eating a healthy vegetable stir fry for dinner (yes it's all I have had with like a million cups of coffee but it's a good dinner)

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I am in an amazing mood I am 7stn 7lb MY PREPREG WEIGHT. This has taken nearly nine months of torture I will maintain this and get to my next GW of 7stn

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Good job on your weight....I'm 225lbs trying to get to 150, so wish me luck...

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Good Luck

 

[Rin731]

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im officially a fat whale.

why the fuck did i think it was a good idea to buy digital scales?! They told me i was 7.5lbs over weight and i weighed 10lb more than i expected before anyone tells me i am not fat.. i am, i cant fit in any of my clothes, and my bmi is overweight



i hate myself some fucking holiday its gonna be next week, almost 40 degree heat for 2 weeks which means me having to strip down to nothing so i can play in the pool with the kids. I shall be taking all the photos so i dont get any taken of myself, im going to have a breakdown if i catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror how did i let myself get so FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I feel the same way. I have a box of medium tops and size 10-12 jeans I am saving because I REFUSE to be this heavy...I'm trying to do it right, and exercise and eat right, but it NEVER feels like I'm doing enough, even though I'm on day 2 of my 'Weight Loss Plan' that I made for myself! I just get so sad and I want to cry. HOW the FUCK did I let myself get this fat? HOW? (And I am overweight too, I know I am, I'm a 2x on top now...) I was 140 lbs May 2011, I'm now 225. I just want to starve til I'm thin. I'm so sad and just hate myself so much all the time...

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I cant believe i am sharing this, its making me feel sick and nervous. Im horrified at my self

i weigh 150lbs

i used to be approx 113lbs more or less (depending on if i binged or starved )

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Oh hon...I want to be YOUR size. I can't believe I'm 225 lbs. I am so sick and miserable at myself.
....*sigh* Hope some bellydance/yoga DVD later will calm me down...I just have to remember I'm taking the steps (cutting down food and exercising) to lose, and not to panic, but I do ALL THE TIME. For me, the weight can't come off fast enough, truly.

it so hard and when we think about it the harder it becomes so its a horrible circle.

How tall are you? for my height im overweight x

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I'm only 5'4"!!!!!!!!!!! So VERY overweight at 225. I feel so round and awful...but! Went to the grocery today, and got some healthy food...at least if I'm restricting again ( I'm about it, how sad...), I'll still be eating more healthy. Going to TRY and not go overboard, but I doubt it.