so I managed to convince myself yesterday that this was the month. My boobs were (are) very sore, I feel sick and I just feel like I have done in the past when pregnant. So I decided I would test again this morning. Woke up at 3.30 am desparate for a wee and thought this was FMU so tested, and of course BFN. This was with a 20mui test.
I have a spa day booked for Wednesday when AF is due, which I need to cancel today if I want to get my money back. If it is BFN though for this month, I'd like to do it as a way of pampering myself and taking my mind off BFN. But it involves hot stone massage amongst other things so I wouldn't want to risk this in early pregnancy.
So I went to my local Sainsburys to see if I could get a super sensitive test. For some reason they have taken all the PTs off the shelf and put them behind the pharmacy counter, so you have to ask for the one you want. I asked the pharmacist (male) which one was the most sensitive and he said all pregnancy tests are the same! They didn't have any FRER so I ended up buying an own brand one which was the only one which said you could test early, but when I got it home and checked, it was only 15mui so only fractionally more sensitive than the one at 3.30 am and at lunchtime today it was also BFN. But it claims to be 85% accurate 2 days before the missed AF.
So it looks like I am out again this month. I hate hate hate TTC. We always struggle and I worry that it just won't ever happen for us again. Not helped by the fact, that some old biddy asked me in the supermarket whether I was the children's grandmother. I was only 31 when I had the older of the two children I had with me, so would have been pushing it some.