Good luck and baby dust to all of the ladies in the
2WW!!!!
I hope we can get some BFP's this month!!!!
I have to agree with you ladies that
gets exhausting month after month when you are LTTC....
One time it was starting my fertile period and DH spanked his monkey and I found out and I got so pissed at him!!! I told him that I dont care if he spanks it any other time during the month but when I am in my fertile window it is my turn!!! I told him his little
are like precious gold during my fertile window, especially since my DH has a low
count...LOL....
At this point I think I am just going to wait until I am ovulating and than try for
every day well I get positive OPK's which lasts for about 3 days, I try to have sex right before my OPK's go positive but it is sometimes to hard to predict when I will OV because it varies by a couple of days each month... Sometimes DH says the most annoying thing when it is time for fertile window
and we have to do it, he will say he "Feels like he is being milked like a cow." Uggghhhhhh, I hate when he says that, I told him he isnt allowed to say that anymore....LMAO....
It is such a turn off. Than when I OV I get cramping and it makes me not even want to have sex, but I make myself do it because I want that BFP...
But, Overall DH has come a long ways and is doing alot better playing his part in TTC and giving up
on demand....
The hardest part of the month is when AF comes and I always have a major meltdown and end up crying my eyes out, and start feeling hopeless. DH doesnt get it though, and doesnt cry like I do, so I feel like he doesnt share in my pain. DH already has two teenagers from a previous marriage, so I feel like he wont be as devestated as I will if I dont ever have a baby, and I feel like his heart isnt into it as much as mine is because he has already had children. So i feel alone in my pain at the end of the month. And as a result I am very thankful for this website and the lovely ladies i have met on it, it is my therapy and I feel better knowing that the feelings I have are normal about TTC and that I have someone to vent to. DH just doesnt get why I get so upset when AF comes every month...He is so clueless...
But I do know that DH wants us to have a baby, he has told me that if our finances were really great that he would want 4 kids with me, and I can see a hint of excitment in him when I get what looks like positive pregnancy tests and tell him about it, (right before AF crashes the party)...hmmm...I think i would be alright with 2 kids...LOL...But at the rate I am going I might have to be happy with just the one, if I can even get that....
So tomorrow is my HSG and I have to start an antibiotic today which will last for 5 days to prevent any infection from happening....Although they say it is only a 1% chance of infection. I have super strong pain meds that i will be taking tomorrow morning before the appointment for cramping and pain. Plus the pain meds make me sleepy so I will be more relaxed for the procedure as well. I do have anti anxiety meds and might pop one of those to to keep myself calm. I am hoping and praying that my tubes are clear!!
DH has his second SA tomorrow morning as well. I am very nervous about what his results will be!! If his
count isnt high enough than the fertility clinic wont give us the go ahead to move forward with IUI, and will want to suggest IVF to us. DH's first SA was over a year ago, and he had less than 5 million
and 36% motility. I do have him on vitamins now and our VR DR told us that
counts can improve for up to 2 years after the VR, so this month (October) is our 2 year anniversary, so I am hoping and praying his numbers are good. The fertility clinic wants 10 million
to be able to do IUI, but I am not sure what the lowest number is that they will consider for IUI. I may try out another clinic if they wont approve us to do IUI to see if maybe another DR will at least let us try it if they say no to us...
The problem with IVF is that it is super expensive and our current health insurance doesnt cover infertility treatments, so we would have to switch health insurance to a better plan that costs more $$. Than it may not cover DH because he had a vasectomy before and some of the plans have exclusions of coverage if someone has been steralized before. If we just save up $$ and pay for the IVF ourselves that could take many years. I did research and it looks like IVF will cost DH and me between 10k to 14k.
I think DH has ruled out using a sperm donor for the IUI because he keeps telling me it is a last resort, and I think he has changed his mind about it since he has had time to think about it alot. So I think using a sperm donor may not be an option anymore since DH has changed his mind about it. I was having a hard time accepting it myself and wasnt sure if I could go through with it or not anyways...
So in conclusion after tomorrow DH and I will know what we are dealing with and will at least be able to have a plan of action... Hopefully we will be able to do IUI though...Wish us luck girls...
Sorry about writing a book just now...
I am going to take my super strong pain meds that I have left over from when I had to have gall bladder surgery last year, plus it makes me super sleepy so i should be nice and calm as well. 
has put in an appearance 3 days early! Since coming off of the clomid my LP has been getting shorter by a day or so each cycle, this month is an all time low with just 26 days! Which means I either ovulated ridiculously early and we missed our chance or it stuck to 14 days but my LP has dropped to a good 14 days on clomid to 12! Any shorter and I know it is going to affect our chances even more.
I also was thinking how great it would be if I was pregnant and the bump on the right side of my uterus wall was a baby?? But I highly doubt it, I have no clue what it could be, I am going to do some internet research to see what the heck it could be...
