I feel you. My first BFP was a CP too and even though I knew CPs happened, I never thought it would actually happen. I think the hormones at the time made it worse, because even though I logically knew these early losses are really common and that my body was almost certainly doing a good thing by recognizing and expelling an embryo with major genetic problems, I still felt like my body had failed me, like I'd done something wrong and like it would never happen for me. My doctor at the time said, "hey, it's good to know that you can conceive!" and it didn't help at the time, but it is a good thing. The thought of TTCing again was really painful and stressful, so I was going to take a break, but by next O time I felt a lot better, and then BAM, another BFP. I've seen it happen this way a lot. I'm not sure if that gives you a little hope