Michelle, Being a mom is really different than I thought it would be. I've been around babies since I was a young child and I've watched people care for them and helped. I worked at a daycare for almost 6 years starting out with infants and then working with the 2 year olds for a short time and then the 1 year olds for a few years. I thought it was a piece of cake and that I had a knack for it. But those were other peoples children and I didn't have to take them home at night. Although I was attached to those children it's a whole different attachment when the child is your own. I had a ton of experience and when I had Cait I was still afraid. I'm still learning things all of the time so whether you know what you're doing or not, being a mom is a whole new experience. It's the scariest, most tiring, yet most wonderful thing anyone can do. Every stage is a fun stage when it's your own child. A part of me can't wait to see her toddling around the house, saying 'mama', and doing a cute little dance when I turn on the music...but there is another part of me that just misses sitting in a chair holding my non-squirming, beautiful newborn. I miss breastfeeding and having a tiny baby to rock and cuddle. Everyday Cait grows and learns. It's so wonderful to see but it's going so quickly I'm afraid I didn't have enough time to enjoy it. I think it's the same for a lot of moms. When it's your baby you will learn as you go along and you will know what to do. It's never very easy but it's always wonderful. The postpartum hormones are the worst and will have you second guessing EVERYTHING, but it's best if you just remember that every sleepless night and every crying fit will come to an end and things just keep getting better and a little easier. I take a deep breath and think to myself 'it'll all pass and tomorrow is another day' and I can usually calm myself down. It'll all be similar for you when you become a mom. And I'm sure you'll be getting your bfp any time now and you'll start to feel a little more like a mom everyday. Soon enough you'll see where I'm coming from and it'll all be just as wonderful!