Lovetoteach86
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I have very mixed feelings, for many reasons. One being my previous miscarriage. I can't enjoy pregnancy properly, for fear that it will happen again. Then there is the fact that Coraline can't sleep without being in bed with me, how will that work with a new baby that would be born the month after she turns two? Then there is the fact that I had a third degree tear last birth, which took 3 to 4 months, just to ride comfortably in the car, and even longer before I could attempt sex. Also, that Coraline wasnt breathing the first 45 seconds of her life. We were terrified that i would die, then that she was going to.
Then the main reason is, the fact that my husband can't handle the unknown constant grumpy newborn crying. He always freaks out, and assumes the baby has something serious wrong, that will lead to death.
The second main reason is that Coraline has extreme separation anxiety, and stranger anxiety. It's so bad, that she won't even let people hold her, so I haven't been able to work. Which means, we are already down one income, and even worse, we don't qualify for government medical insurance, because my husband, "makes too much".
Reguardless of all those reasons, I could very well be pregnant, even though it's a long shot. I just can't shake the extreme egg white cm that I saw the day after we dtd. I now feel like I might want another, but not so soon. I'd like her to be a little older. If we are pregnant though, it's meant to be, because I never ovulate, and Coraline never randomly falls asleep in her bouncer so we have the opportunity for "alone time."
On another note-
I know what you are going through to some extent, but I couldn't imagine how hard it would be if that happened to me again whIle actively trying... Maybe I'm trying to protect myself by telling myself that we don't want another biological child. (I've tried to convince him to adopt a child that is 5, or older, in five to ten years.)
Then the main reason is, the fact that my husband can't handle the unknown constant grumpy newborn crying. He always freaks out, and assumes the baby has something serious wrong, that will lead to death.
The second main reason is that Coraline has extreme separation anxiety, and stranger anxiety. It's so bad, that she won't even let people hold her, so I haven't been able to work. Which means, we are already down one income, and even worse, we don't qualify for government medical insurance, because my husband, "makes too much".
Reguardless of all those reasons, I could very well be pregnant, even though it's a long shot. I just can't shake the extreme egg white cm that I saw the day after we dtd. I now feel like I might want another, but not so soon. I'd like her to be a little older. If we are pregnant though, it's meant to be, because I never ovulate, and Coraline never randomly falls asleep in her bouncer so we have the opportunity for "alone time."
On another note-
I know what you are going through to some extent, but I couldn't imagine how hard it would be if that happened to me again whIle actively trying... Maybe I'm trying to protect myself by telling myself that we don't want another biological child. (I've tried to convince him to adopt a child that is 5, or older, in five to ten years.)