Cottles- I just wanted to say. I would be upset too. Doing firsts with my kids is super important to me too. If it's something I didn't care about to begin with, like say.... First NASCAR race and I wasn't there. I wouldn't be as upset, but I'd still want all the pictures in the world of their experience! But anyway- I totally feel you.
Sorry for not being on for so long. It says the last time I even logged in was July 9th. So it's been a while. I'm not going to go past page 2 for updates, but I will say CONGRATS GEM!!!!! (and I laughed about the gay boyfriend thing too!)
I had my first therapy appt for my anxiety. It was with a nurse practitioner and she recommended me to the therapist at the office. So I guess I passed the "she needs help" test. LOL
I'm not depressed, but I'm so overwhelmed I might as well be. I am beyond irritable almost every day. I have angry outbursts ALL the time. I'm pretty much upset about any number of things at any given moment. I've been going back to old destructive coping methods. Not every day, but it builds up. My teeth grinding is back. I don't even have time to do things I enjoy like edit photos or read. I'm just too mentally exhausted.
I'm pretty upset with my self image too, but I'm actively working on it. Not seeing any results yet but I don't intend to quit because I'll just feel worse. I guess it's better to try and still suck then not try at all and suck.
Anyway- I'll try to keep up again. I don't always get emails on updates which is why I fall behind. But i'll try! If not, i'll see you guys on FB anyway
, struggling to walk atm. Seen a chiropractor twice last week (at £40 a go, ouch!) and then did a lot of walking over the weekend and pushing a double buggy a fair bit and now, yeah, not good. We're hoping to ttc again in janurary which feels really close now, bit scared what's going to happen to my back then!
