Hi ladies,
Well I had miscarriage back in October at 9.5 wks and now I'm pregnant again at 6wks so should be august baby. My pregnancy symptoms aren't as strong I don't feel as ill and nausea as I did with last pregnancy. All I have is sore breasts and frequent peeing, but my boobs feel less and less sore as days go by.
I'm petrified that I will miscarry again. I'm trying to mentally prepare myself for losing another one as last time I was broken and I couldn't handle the news as I felt I had no real support my partner was a pain as if a robot with no emotions, didn't tell friends as they aren't very reliable and my family weren't happy I was pregnant before marriage.
My miscarriage started sudden with horrific bleeding at a restuarant then hours waiting in A&E left leaking in a chair in tears, kept me overnight sent home next morning to be hit with more pain and bleeding because tissue had not come out so had to have procedure done to stop pain and bleeding. So my year of being abused by my boss, broke because I had to leave the job, terrible anxiety disorder and anaemia and a new job that made work like a slave, meaning no breaks, short pay and long hours, so the MC was breaking point. And what happens when your broken? You pick up the pieces and carry on.
So now I can't help but think I'm going to lose my baby again, I'm still not over the hurt from losing him/her. I know there was nothing I or anyone can do to stop it. I want to be excited this time But every minute feels like a loooooooooong wait every loo trip is a panic with every tingle. Ache . Twinge. It's all horrible all I do is cry and think and cry. I don't know how to be positive other than eat well and try to keep healthy for the baby that I so badly want to have.