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TashaAndBump
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I don't know how stupid this is going to sound, but I am really being serious; I think I have an addiction and I am finding it very hard to overcome this.
I find that I "NEED" this thing, I start my day with it, I have all my meals with it, if I'm out I need to have it, if I am stressed out, I need to have it ...I have found that if I go long periods without it I get shaky, panicky, headaches, light-headed, very dizzy and faint... not to mention grouchy, sleepy, distracted, preoccupied and LOW etc ....and then when I get my hands on it and get it into my system I am immediately relieved with a rush of pleasure and satisfaction.
I definately do want to give this up; I know it is not good for me, but more over I hate this feeling of dependence - it is THIS that is no good for me, I know it feels bad when I don't have it, and good when I do, but in truth that is bad in itself, because it means that I NEED it!
In an attempt to give it up, I told my husband that I wanted to give it up and not to let me have it under any circumstances. ...which worked well for a while, until I found myself coming up with circumstances that would let me get my hands on some; thinking things like, "If I took Anna for a walk into town, I could have some and Dom wouldn't know...." and i'd get home and LIE to my husband, "What did you get up to in town?", he'd ask, "Oh I've just been at the beach with Anna - took her for a walk to the pier and then we walked home." LIES, I'd really only been to town, had what I wanted and come home again! Walking 3 miles just to get my hands on this thing that I had TOLD my husband not to let me have any of!
Now the thing that I am addicted to? (and this is where I may sound silly): It's not alcohol, or cigerettes, or drugs...
It's COCA-COLA!
How can I stop drinking this when I feel so much that I need it, not just for the emotional relief but the physical aspects too - I hate the feeling of exhaustion, and faintness when I go without my usual 2ltrs of Coke in my afternoon... I am drinking about 14ltrs a week at home, plus whatever I drink when I'm out and about, bottles, cans, glasses at cafe's etc etc... I know this amount of sugar and fat can't be healthy in my diet, and neither can the dependence on said sugars and fats and caffein....
I don't feel like I can beat this addiction on my own it is that serious. I hope I won't be laughed off the forum for this... I know it's easy to say, "If you want to quit, then quit." but I honestly don't know if I can! It's not that easy! Can I go to my doctors for a problem like this or is it something that I need to do on my own??
I don't know where to start!
I find that I "NEED" this thing, I start my day with it, I have all my meals with it, if I'm out I need to have it, if I am stressed out, I need to have it ...I have found that if I go long periods without it I get shaky, panicky, headaches, light-headed, very dizzy and faint... not to mention grouchy, sleepy, distracted, preoccupied and LOW etc ....and then when I get my hands on it and get it into my system I am immediately relieved with a rush of pleasure and satisfaction.
I definately do want to give this up; I know it is not good for me, but more over I hate this feeling of dependence - it is THIS that is no good for me, I know it feels bad when I don't have it, and good when I do, but in truth that is bad in itself, because it means that I NEED it!
In an attempt to give it up, I told my husband that I wanted to give it up and not to let me have it under any circumstances. ...which worked well for a while, until I found myself coming up with circumstances that would let me get my hands on some; thinking things like, "If I took Anna for a walk into town, I could have some and Dom wouldn't know...." and i'd get home and LIE to my husband, "What did you get up to in town?", he'd ask, "Oh I've just been at the beach with Anna - took her for a walk to the pier and then we walked home." LIES, I'd really only been to town, had what I wanted and come home again! Walking 3 miles just to get my hands on this thing that I had TOLD my husband not to let me have any of!
Now the thing that I am addicted to? (and this is where I may sound silly): It's not alcohol, or cigerettes, or drugs...
It's COCA-COLA!
How can I stop drinking this when I feel so much that I need it, not just for the emotional relief but the physical aspects too - I hate the feeling of exhaustion, and faintness when I go without my usual 2ltrs of Coke in my afternoon... I am drinking about 14ltrs a week at home, plus whatever I drink when I'm out and about, bottles, cans, glasses at cafe's etc etc... I know this amount of sugar and fat can't be healthy in my diet, and neither can the dependence on said sugars and fats and caffein....
I don't feel like I can beat this addiction on my own it is that serious. I hope I won't be laughed off the forum for this... I know it's easy to say, "If you want to quit, then quit." but I honestly don't know if I can! It's not that easy! Can I go to my doctors for a problem like this or is it something that I need to do on my own??
I don't know where to start!