Traskey, Wow!! Well done on the 9lbs, that amazing!!
This is a long post, and I'm so sorry to bring it here, but I need to get it out, or else I am actually going to go crazy. Sorry ladies.
Well, I can honestly say I have had the most rubbish weekend. On Friday my husband didn't come home from work until 7.30-he finishes at 5.30, he had been to the pub. I wasn't very happy but let it go. He then informed me he was going to go back out, he left at 8.30, and didn't get home until 6.30am! I was livid, he was so drunk, had been smoking9both fags and weed), and I later found out (by looking on his phone) he had brought some cocaine. I was so heart broken, I still am,

I can't believe he is doing this. He knows how much this hurts me everyday, and he knows the damage he will cause by doing it. He says he is sorry, and only did it because he is so stressed out at the thought of the appt on weds. I understand that, but really? He is the one with the problem, and he is the one who is doing nothing to change. I buy him vitamins, but he never takes them, even if I leave them out, he doesn't. He promised he had stopped smoking, but I then found out he was still smoking at work.
He has spent the entire weekend trying to make it up to me, and he really isn't a bad person, but having a baby is so important to me, I feel so hurt. Why, why would he do it?
Then to top it all off, my period is 2 days late, I took a test yesterday and got my first ever evap, nice. But of course I started to think that maybe it was just a super faint grey bfp! I did another test today and got that all too familiar stark whiteness.
So my period is MIA, I'm still not pregnant, and my husband seems to be on a mission to fuck up his sperm even more than it already is. Happy weekend to me.