Since the test with zero spermies I am doing terribly. I originally was very sad and tried looking at the bright side and ate too many brownies. Now that I have read more and it is sunk in, I am in full fledged depression. I don't care what I eat or drink. When I get home from work I lay in bed and watch tv all day. All of the good and positive changes (food, excercises) that I was making when I though I might be the cause of our fertility problems have stopped. I can barely get myself to work. I feel like crying so much more than I ever have before, and this is not the first time I have battled depression. I don't know what to do to get out of this spiral. I kinda want to be healthier, but I am too unhappy to have motivation to do anything. I work because it is survival...I am the only wage-earner at this time.