Thank you! Labor was the most painful and scary experience I've ever had but once it was over it was soooo worth every second. I am so overwhelmed with happiness! I never could have even understood a love like this without meeting her.
I am super pissed at the moment though. This is my second night here (third, if you count the rest of the night when I got here at 4:30 am) and we technically could have gone home today if we had wanted to but they recommend staying an extra night if you are breastfeeding. At midnight, I had just finished feeding her for over 30 min and handing her to OH so he could hold her for a little bit while I went to the bathroom. All the sudden this new nurse comes in saying she'd be my night nurse and she had t examine me then take away Lily to examine her for 10-15 min. I was super annoyed cause it has been the longest couple days in the world and we were finally winding down. THEN, she starts talking to me like I had just arrived at the hospital and knew absolutely nothing about breastfeeding or my stay here. She went over everything with me then starts telling me I need to get Lily to latch so I told her I already have. Then she is like great! I just want to watch and make sure she has a good latch. I was so fucking pissed. I've been feeding her since she came out and both of us have been doing awesome! She just knows what to do and is so great at latching! I let them supplement with formula last night because I was wrecked by 1:30 am and needed a few hours of sleep. But after getting her back at 6:30 this morning I decided I was taking care of her the rest of our time here. So anyway, after spending 30 minutes talking to me (I got 3 hours of sleep Monday night before water broke and 4 hours last night so I'm not in the mood to humor some crazy bitch nurse who is talking to me in the most condescending way...), she takes Lily from me and she starts screaming like she hates this lady too! She brings her back around 12:45 and tells me I need to be up by 3 to feed her or it could make her sick or throw off her temp. First of all, I plan on holding her all night and feeding her every time she wants it. Second, don't fucking tell me what to do with my baby. The other nurses were super helpful and only gave guidelines till I knew what I was doing. She also kept saying "if you're that tired I can take her to the nursery so you can sleep and I'll bring her back for feedings." I had to tell her no about five times and she had to tell me five times I better not fall asleep holding her. I told her not to come back with pain pills at the time mine were going to wear off just cause I didn't want to deal with her again so soon. But then they wore off and it hurt so bad I couldn't sit anymore so I went out looking for a nurse so I didn't have to call that stupid one back and OH could continue sleeping. I walked around for 30 min before finally finding A nurse who had to send to my room THE worst nurse. So she comes back in and turns all the lights on and again takes MY baby away to unwrap her from her blanket and put another stupid hospital onesie on her and wrap her up in the hospital blanket all the while she's screaming. Then she tells me let's try taking only ibuprofen and no oxy's this time. I said no I want both. Then she's like how about 5 mg instead of ten? And I'm like no! I'm in so much pain right now I can't even sit and 2 doesn't even take all the pain away! So she said ok and brought me what I needed after putting me through hell and back to get it. Now I am standing up holding Lily waiting for the meds to kick in so I can sit again. I cannot believe how horrible that nurse is and am pissed I have to deal with this shit at 3am and so sleep deprived. I am so complaining about her after my visit here. I was having as good a stay in a hospital you can have till she came along. I just needed to vent... I can't take this shit and don't want to wake OH up because he's going to be taking care of Lily tomorrow in between feedings so I can finally sleep. I've never been so anxious to get home!