Hi lovelies!
Can't say i've had a great day. Sorry to be the misery, as usual, but I love christmas and just feel so disappointed this year. Thank god for my beautiful baby who really does keep me going. However he's still super ill and spent today screaming, crying, refusing to be held by anyone but me, throwing his GUTS up and shitting left right and centre. Poor K
Feel so lonely. Empty, really. G couldn't wait to leave this morning to get to his christmas dinner with his boys that he lives with... that he has dinner with 5 times a week. Just can't believe he didn't want to spend christmas with us. And guess what he bought me for christmas? A slow cooker. A fricking SLOW COOKER. For me, who isn't a great cook, hates 'wet' food, especially casseroles and stews. And he left his gifts here including the keyring (which my dad utterly ADORED, Ann, thanks so much, he welled up when he saw it!!!!
) and hasn't even text to say he forgot his gifts or anything so clearly they don't mean anything to him. So disappointed, so annoyed at myself for feeling like this.
Sorry to be a downer guys, just so wanted our first christmas as a family to be better than this, but i'm going to snuggle my boy to sleep now and am determined to get shot of G and make Kia's next christmas amazing ALL.BY.MYSELF.
Love you all xxxxx