Briss - you need more time to recover. It is far too soon to be back to normal. Most of my nct group didn't feel normal til close to a year. I had a second degree tear but things down below did not start to feel normal til a year after birth. We finally dtd 2 months ago first time after birth. I know shocking! But between my fissure issues and my OH health issues we just couldn't do it. I'm glad I waited in some ways as some of my nct group tried very early on and freaked out as things felt very different. But waiting 20 months is very rare.
Just give yourself some time. My periods did not come back til 6 months. Obviously I know you want to be pregnant again but best for you to try and recover first. Eat really well, sleep as much as you can. Only gentle exercise. I know time is an issue but good to have a balance.
I really wouldn't recommend home birth mainly because it's dependent on one midwife. If you get a good one great. But mine just sat in the corner eating twix all night! She was very non-commital about whether I should go to hospital. I needed the encouragement to keep going and it wasn't there. Turns out she had her hand over her head which is why I couldn't push her out.
I think I would definitely go to hospital if I had another.
Just give yourself some time. My periods did not come back til 6 months. Obviously I know you want to be pregnant again but best for you to try and recover first. Eat really well, sleep as much as you can. Only gentle exercise. I know time is an issue but good to have a balance.
I really wouldn't recommend home birth mainly because it's dependent on one midwife. If you get a good one great. But mine just sat in the corner eating twix all night! She was very non-commital about whether I should go to hospital. I needed the encouragement to keep going and it wasn't there. Turns out she had her hand over her head which is why I couldn't push her out.
I think I would definitely go to hospital if I had another.